Is it just a big illusion anyway
This earth game
Is any of it really real
What matters
Perhaps Love
The rest sometimes just feels like drama
Although I laugh at the comedy moments
They're fun

I am far from


























Perfect

Nature struggles under soil
The ground is broken
Cracked and hollow
Seems little hope for tomorrow
However in the dying all can be transformed
Just need to nurture what little buds lay in hollowed ground
What once was lost can be found
A garden is made for growth
And all will bloom when time and condition
is set and right for both

A garden of extensive beauty
Luscious greens swaying in the wind
Vines climbing reaching high
Flowers growing in the meadows scented smile
Fountains of youth
Rows of bountiful fruit
Lakes of shimmery sparkle
Pools of warm waters embrace
Sunsets of passion
Sunrise of lights ray
You are the setting scene
You are the King
You are the Queen
You are the love of a new day

Warm air touches skin
Permeating bodies bridge
Gentle breeze softens heat
The air is relaxed and cooled

Touch my face tenderly
My hands have gone numb

Going commando today!
No socks!!
It helps with the forward rolls :-)

So many posts online on how to get the girl or guy
If the guy don't want me
I don't want the guy
Done wasting time
I'd rather be mine

Never felt I belong
Always feel the odd one out
Isolated not a part of
I try to but it's difficult to get through

When I'm down
Kick
Kick
Kick
and Kick
One day I won't notice

     Or feel a thing

She's at it again
Going off like a shot
While he's burning bridges
Losing the plot
Fuses and fireworks
Setting them off!
Time for another gin
Let's fill up a trough!!

******* the moon
Chanting alluring tune
'Oh come to me for I can see the world in all its glory
I know the land
The plan at hand
The tell of loves true story
Oh sing to me sweet melody
Of how we drifted as riders in tides of melancholy
How we surfed those bashing waves and held on to meet with shore
How we hold our hope so bold and cry out from core when we are washed to the deep once more
Knowing we will be swept the way we came before
Now I stand on moon so grand
And sing in reign so high
I feel the earth
How world will turn
And mighty power rests to mine side
So conjure up these spectacular skies to shower upon those held below
To lift from ache and past mistake
Rip the chains of grounds sorrow
Rise up!
Fill up!
Release the hollow..
For time is now to Unite!
Ignite!
Spark Up Bright!!
Connect with Divine Light as Sacred Offering
of
Recognition
to
Refined
Mastery
of
Tomorrow

Went into meditative state arms at side legs stretched out
Awoke to arms
across chest
and stomach
embracing self
wrapped
around

Don't claim to be the smartest
Don't claim to shine the brightest
Though those that claim to know me
Won't care to know me
at all

Making something of myself to help me
Friends
Family
Those with no-one to hear in the depths of despair without a supportive ear and the least form of care
It spurs me on...

Just when I think all is left where's it's been
There you are again in a dream
You come to me
Grab me kiss me so strongly so passionately
Then in another dream
I see you with her
and your future
family

You hit back to yourself when another causes irritation
This irritates me
I have to hear it you see
I want your Karma to be free
So I tell it back to your face
You then get irritated with me
And I with you
What to do

When you left world shattered
Broken pieces
on the ground
Scattered around so far and wide I struggled to collect
bring homeward- bound
It was in those lost moments of having to find the missing fragments that I found parts that had been buried
I
dug
deep
Layer by layer top soil the dirt
Use for all that heap
Nutrients for
growth underneath
From the muddy deeps and the broken sheafs
I acquired glass bones
Still a little fragile but very much lending
support to
strengthen backbone

I should sleep more but I don't want to get addicted
The dreams and rest can be intoxicating
I feel it as I rise
God knows what's inside

God loves me enough to let me see my fears face my fears
And bring me to life
I will go only when God says the time is right

Precious divine love
A Gods gift from above
Your almighty love floods through heart and blood
Tears fall from heavens gate
Your clouds of dark lift to pearls of white
Honoured to feel even an ounce of loving bliss state
Forever held dear
Loves awake

Has it been a fight between dark and light or has it been a fight between the shadow and the light
How many of our shadows have not been healed
Can this ever be right
To all we wonder
Though the balance of scales tips us right
Do we need the night for the oncoming daylight
Can all ever be
One
Beyond illusion
The masks
Perhaps
Only
God's love knows

Roaring waves they came and washed me down
Out of my depth needed to come up for breath
I resurfaced only to be met with a forceful plummet
I remembering thinking if it takes me again
this is me sinking
I swam back up
It took me down
In hopeless state
Panicked now
The waves so strong perhaps heard the song and it wasn't long before I was brushed along ocean bed
to
beach ahead
I remember that day in Mexico well
Covered in sand
******* Hell!!
Bit embarrassing walking back to the hotel
Wasn't just gritt'in me teeth

Hearts of gold
Get collected and sold down the river
Far too many times
No one is immune
It's our greed
It's our desire for more
It's our search for the core of who we are
Where is our love

Dreams come alive
Vibrant
Exciting
Adventurous
With many meanings to find
Shapes
People
Emotions
Symbols
Signs  
It all runs vividly in mind
Taking a story and blending over bordered structured lines
Last dream someone new took their hand into mine
Good at dreaming..
at any time

I love you as he drove away

I don't see a future with you to stay

No words as actions tore apart

Lines of lies flying out of mouth only filling up with insecurity and doubt

I'll see you soon

I saw a snail and it's spiral shell on road again today
They say in life everything comes back to you

Snowflake and flowers sacred design
Come in the hours of daylights decline
Into the center
Coded mind
Level to the higher
Ascension climb

As he held her in his arms he knew he had her captive by his beguiling charms
His eyes looking deeply into the immeasurable abyss of her soul
So full of life
But at his mercy
He knew she was no stranger to vulnerability
Often too trusting to danger
A innocence that contradicts
Something about her longed for the dark to enter her
Her soul haunted by demons who lusted for her flesh
He was now that demon that could take her at any moment
destroy her in a strike
Her body already appeared lifeless
eyes closed body limp in his grip open to his touch
Skin so delicate pale and tender
Lips red with blood
He wanted to feed from them
To feel from them
To have a taste of love
Taken over by his ravenous nature
He snaps her sharply closer to his body
Leans in glancing at her juicy ripeness
The veins of her neck pulsing
He can hear her heart beating faster
Terrified yet thrilled
Gripping her firmly by the neck
A sharp breathy moan from her lips
Her eyes open to his
Both peering into each other's worlds
A collision of views
A clash that hurtles towards one another at lightening speed
Hungry for her and longing for him
He pulls her nearer still
He moves her face nearer to his
Stroking her blood red lips
A bite to her lips as the tingle dissipates
Breath to breath he can breathe her in
He swallows the air she breathes as his lips press to hers
The firm kiss of life or death
Lips dance as mouths pleasure
He wants her
to live again...

Apparently he could of fixed me
I must be so broken
Crack the egg
And watch the yolk run

Nothing is constant
in this life
except for change
and
everything is
impermanent
the only moment is now
but even as you read these lines
the moment has
                                        passed

Pictures hanging on the wall
Paint brush strokes to create the scene
I wanted to purchase them all
To live the life to remember the dream
Walking away to exit the screen
Reappearing wave machine
Your partner held your hand and you just sunk to the sand
Ocean stream flowing over as you just let it be
I wasn't ready
Holding you high above the waters bellow
You held my hand and let me know your noble and humble fears
Onwards we walked to the shore hands still clasped as we talked
Calm and serene was your tone
Nightdress of light blue elegantly flowing around you
Over to the green grass you smile and laugh
I see your eyes for a moment and the image of a wise man was shared
A child as it seemed you reassured me
As all is what it should be as I move on and now grow more beautifully
As a child or whatever I will be
I feel the energy between you and me
We stop on the side to the crossing of the road
Slowly gently softly hands letting go
Still feel the magnetic sense between us as eyes open
Still now want to recall it all and not move from that space
Staring up to the ceiling as come to terms with what I was seeing hearing and feeling
Tears roll down my face and drip into my ears

Grateful for everything
Including the dark nights and painful lessons
So thankful for blissful blessings

Grow me a garden of fruit ripe and sweet
Plant me the flowers for the whole world to see
Branch up the trees for expansion to breathe
Unearth me a plot for the wounds left to heal
Sacred place of wisdom for silence or deeply feel
Tend to the bed to nurture from the soil
Let's be at peace in nature
in hearts
mind
and
soul
❤

The pain cuts me deep
I can't feel it's sharp metal scraping and slicing at my insides
I feel the stomach writhe and tremble
The throat and teeth tighten and clench
Head pressure
Eyes colourless and hollow
Intense energy swirling
Sadness Anger Fear Hurt Shame become my friends
I sit with my guests
Every pain that visits I can learn to entertain
With time I feel the pains will grow but maybe I will see them coming
The pain grows as I do
So for that I should say Thankyou!

Love is in bloom
It spirals back
to you
Petals delicate to touch
Soft sensitivity you must brush
Stem
into
it's
flower
Giving
stable power
Space to grow
and nurture to protect
Supporting weakness from forceful bends
Cultivating life into wild
   blossoming
                   garden

The words you say are just right
Guided by the light
To live
A new day

They guide me
further
into
the
unknown
They sew me
deeper
into
the
fabric
of the universe

Changing consciousness
Altered state
Rewiring the pathways
Put in place
Connecting networks
Sparks create
Cosmic wonders do await

Set in stone chiseling away
make a ring for eternity
Everlasting love here to stay
Continuous flow....
...from hand...
....to heart

<3

Profound healing
Revealing deep-rooted feeling
Pain on a journey through the heart
The wound rests open sharing through devotion
Playing out its recorded part
Shadows diverge from the dark
Outstretched hand holds shadows hand
We will walk together warming and fading as we travel
Reuniting our spark

Letting go
I use to
I can but I feel the strong resistance now
It's tense to release

Best life for self and humanity
Living in joy and love
Happy
Free
Abundance of the positivity :)

My light shone in me it broke me
The darkness felt like warmth
The pain echoed pleasure and the will made strong
The soothing disturbed me it's uncomfortable wake
The thoughts did destroy me
The soul did shake
The actions pull me down dug me to mine grave
The awareness plummeted me and the present received the gift
The moments of paradox
The light and the dark
They gave me roots and a shining bright spark
The mistakes brought the compassion
The aches gave me hope
The destruction new salvation
Heart so broke it can now know love
The world been a torture
The dreams were of death
Over and over again
Until
rebirth
The light and dark dance they have a fine romance and from that new steps are formed in balance in surrender in will to carry on
In the space between both
Can create anew
harmonic
love song