Royal blue velvet Dark veil cast over silver Sliver of light upon the black night How you shine sublime Reflections pierce the air Passing worries move with smokey layer Disappear when all is covered Moon glows Once all is bared
When the process starts you think you're going insane Messing with your mind playing with your brain Constant questions and answers to and fro back again You realise you have to accept or it's like swimming against the current living while holding your breath Those who don't understand meet you with a scrutinising closed hand See you as unwell Think they are trying to help Though you have to remember you questioned yourself So try to rise above Be true to self For you have to see what's ment To be seen No one else
Sun in clouds of halo grey Smokey over spill Shine screened from blinding eyes Eye gaze to look upon Fire frees through vapour visor Commands all life to live
Isn't that what we all want Though we don't enjoy the chase or the hunt So how do you banish them Only by facing them Is there a way to just dissolve them and let them melt Into the sun
In sorry if you mistake my scars for weakness I'm sorry if you think I'll be putty in your hands I'm sorry if you think I'm a little lady I have a voice Show me a real man Either way I will still stand So step aside
Life is selcouth You want proof You just have to look for it It's not as normal as one might perceive However maybe that just depends on how you believe Learn to feel from the heart not just what others tell you to see Think for yourself And don't believe everything you read ;) Especially from tv Don't take it from me Life's fabric weaves from rare tapestry
No one really knows my full story They see what they think they see They see confidence from their screen They don't see the pain The isolation They see the smile I paint on Ok some days I can feel happy But I've had the realization I'm living with PTSD It just hit me hard I feel abandoned and that I'm trying to walk on eggshells It's been challenging to be accepted as me So I keep turning inward and being with my self
Seems like in relationships it just teaches me where I need to work on self worth As when I love another outside me I'm only left feeling incomplete lonely Though I hurt less alone
Through sorrow Through joy Through quarrel Through no hope for the morrow Through love Through kindness Through natures tenderness Through big and small I have shed a tear and cried through them all
I feel you I feel it all I sense the inner knowing call You don't need to speak I've seen I've felt the vibrations from sacral deviation It's hard to feel the buzzing circling sickening seal Now I wait to feel so much more Will you give it this time Soul love of mine Can I be sure
Some days I would like to relax this clenched jaw of mine I do at times smile But I feel from the wounded child I see your wounds from your words, actions What you leave unsaid I just feel it It's just the way it's been I have learnt to love through it all
When the suffering comes it hurts The heart feels tight The head muddled and fuzzy The mind irritated The body pained and numbing The ears hear all too well the spluttering conversations and monkeys chatters swell The mouth bumbling lines that don't quite feel right The spirit knows Insight The lesson and the emotions will be shared in time Unity Combine our dear sentiments
Serpentine sleeping inside Ground shakes Fire ignites You begin to wake Come alive Up you climb Slithering and Writhe Making body your own Taking what you need to feed Discarding which you disown Coiling around and around Energy circling now Each layer removing Heavy mount By any means Feeling crazy but all is not how it seems Visions dancing in periphery Shadows meeting in nightly dreams Fears full Sleeping Screams Shifting mindset from blinkered screens Physical symptoms catastrophic bouts World spinning thrown round Til it all comes crashing down And you begin to see life Clear Serpentine knows What's best for you My Dear
Serpents desire To rise Slithering through the illusions and the lies Opening eyes to which you feel despise Cutting it up Cauterize Venomous bite Only with the fear Nature divine Once love is near
Today I hit a wall where shadowed words fell out Feeling boundaries are being crossed and fed up of holding out The writing spills across the barricade that limits and keeps in place Something has to change The rage inside me pains and the ink leaks the bleeding from clasping veins
Chaos conjuring spirits skies Wreaking havoc from out to inside Taking everything you've built to waste Flinging debris in speedy haste As the storms rage the winds howl The shadows are in the light now The gloom and fear consume your home Left feeling scared and all alone But this is something you've lived before So you learn to stand strong And shout GIVE ME MORE!! Dance the spinning stomping dance Bow and applaud I'll step up to lead In time I will be... The shadow of the storm
Shadow soul You pace the walls Your dark a shade of shame Don't look straight at Look away It's a mortal sin Ignorance is sure to be bliss You keep running from yourself only to have to again begin Not knowing which way to turn Then you look within Opening up the wound sticking your hand in You have guts in your hand Facing your own messy entrails Why they cause you so much pain How black the blood became Without ever understanding why Eyes on your shadow side Soul that seems less whole But how can you be whole without all sides Your soul is your guide It is alive in nightshade or sunlight You just have to make friends with it Accept it is a part of us all Reflecting compassion and understanding to one another's shadow soul
Deep into the chambers The bowing dance where axes fall The circle initiate rolling to miss the impending blow In honour Chief welcomes Into the dark room no floor Walking onwards to tunnels door Down backwards below Out to the forest grown Travelling by beat alone Each footnote a song Stepping to where heart flows Over under and burrow Facing animals undercover To the herd they wonder Following the trail Wrestling wild Lasso a crocodiles tail Freeing from swamps prevail Onto the banks of the giant cat ranks Hitching a ride on its back Into the unknown Faith guide way home Under rocks and stone Sinking hands groan From lions den Sleep among animals Rest has flown Chiefs hand reckons To surface tow Gopher stand tall Call echoes Pass shown Now at white home Can not enter Still with impatience Test of will Feet won't keep waiting Into the body delve syncing with the breath Reach out for God's help Nailed to the ground Stand bound Hear music sway Hold firmly stay Released onto the earth Legs crossed Bow to humble heart Awake
Give me something real but let me feel every inch of you Touch me from the inside Let your hold take me into your arms I want to see the good and bad in you Let us to ourselves be true
Each dream Each night So much going on behind eyes sight At the brow Eyes closed Information flooding in Tween sleep and awakening Consciously aware As shapes cascade from here to there Transparency to the skin Though structure clearly seen Triangles Squares Circles Hexagonal Not flat in form Life to the structures A sense of crystalline knowing Bathing beneath the rim Although not really sure of what I'm seeing Or indeed to feel As of now As of yet
Before you get that gun to fire that shot ...know you may as well turn that gun round on yourself So before you load up! What's your aim? Do you need to pull the trigger? Bullet to the target will come from you, and the repercussions will be yours to bear.
Shell outside Hard sometimes rough Firm to touch Inside nature Feeling heart Sheltered Covered by dark Outside creeps to shine its spark Pecked by the disconcerting hen
Shipwrecked treasure Marooned hidden pleasure A cove of paradise Once brave through choppy waters and sea of ice Be welcomed and warmed by soft sands and poetic flow Freedom in bare skin and supple bone
The pain won't change Until you address it and face it It remains the same That's why it comes with a slap a hit and a bang! It's method is to aid you to understand Give you the shock Before the reached out healing helping hand