So far all I have for photo shoot
Is a pair of heels I can't walk in and a thong to show my bare...
Skin
Must go shopping!

Should I step forward let myself be shown
Should I dance with the beat of loves ring tone
Should I move with the rhythm of the thoughts I hold
Should I let you come to me
Should I?
Maybe I'll just wait
and see

Like to know a week without tears
Maybe I'm just weak

Feeling you
Without sound
Without touch of physical hand
Silent kisses from your
loving mouth

Heart

on the line

To your spirit

receive


Air
of
life
From
Crown
To
Palms
Believe

Black branches against a sunny sky
Gothic beauty
Dew
drop
glisten
of the eye

Imperial sea
Soft tease
Floating
Breezing
Gleaming sheen
Flowing together effortlessly
Smoothly
Closely
Gently
Delicately
Pressingly
Contently
Cosily
Purposefully
Syncing to the waves so rhythmically
Ohhh
Come away with me
Sail this silken dream

The aura of your aroma inspires the air even after you are gone
A drop of you is all I need to hold on
Strong scent of intimacy
Close to soft skin
Your aromatic fragrance
prevails
me

Candle scents
Beautiful essence
Jasmine
Tropical blooms
Lifts the heart
Fills the room
Sunlight warming skin
Smiles glow in happy feeling
Sipping on a tasty brew
Contentment in a cup

Beg for me baby
I'll let you
plead
I'll bleed for you baby
Bite me!
**** me
clean

It is in the
silence
most at peace
You don't
feel
any
thing

Consumed from the inside out
Wrapped up in a smokey black mass
It holds me
Controls me
Keeps me out of soft touch
Just gonna have to let it embrace
Save some face
It will change
Once it crumbles into
sweet
sentimental
mush

Skating on ice
Heavy bag at my side
Lighten the load
Throw it away
There it goes
Skating uphill
Lighter freeing will
Tutor from years by journeying behind
An obstacle up ahead
Blocks just around the bend
Pick them up put them away safe
As much as can now confidently skate still need to beware not to trip and land on my face or any other to hurt from not clearing up after an untidy place

Watched the sky from day to night
From Sun to rain, wind and back again
Watched as clouds rolled on by
Taking form in many ways
As Pink Floyd provides soundtrack
Clouds move in time
Beauty and awe in sight and sound
A melodic daze
So
tranquil
now

I would like the suffering to end but I've learnt so much in the shadows
Watching the air in the night makes me see it's alive
Once your eyes adjust it is never truly dark
The energy buzzes and dances
Lights often twinkle
Visions often form
Shapes align
Fear has pushed to the light
The light has brought me hope but sadness too
As the light has shone on all I do or do not do
The light dives deep into the subconscious sea plucking up fragments as a star lights view
The waters reflect its heat and it's warmth too
The sharpness blends into the ebbing flow rippling out across to land
The sea bed settles until
next
lights
dive

Air the love from heaven above
down
to
earth's ground
Somewhere in the middle meet
Where angels dance
with hearts a beat'
encased with euphoric
soft
sound

A bed of comfort made for us
Snuggled cosy
Full of love
Hearts touch
Stars shine
Light above
Gazing down on our divine snug

The ignorant eat the worm gulping it down without knowing what it is
The ones who's look for truth to the worm
choke each time
they try
to
eat

In a slow groove
My mouth doesn't even want to speak let alone move
Energy shifts between hope and hopeless
Can see it all
Can see less
Pointing to wonderful
Feeling full of mess
Shining on the sorrow
Beauty in the destructive chaos
It's growing
Expanding
Slowly
Nevertheless

Dreams came in like
Crashing Waves
Bashing and
Thrashing against
Rocks
of
Harboured graves
Wanting to release
to
pools
of
peace

I ate a bunion the other day
It was basically a bap with onion

Smiling all the way home
I walked with skip in step
Surrounding nature's beauty
Life's radiant breath
Leaves rainfall on the ground
Colours bright from floral bloom
Emerald and amber garland hanging frame of picturesque view
Love and earth in harmonic tune

Ghosts in the room
Woody tobacco perfume
I do often wonder though...
Where do they go.. to get their smoke?
Do they serve spirits too?

Smoky haze has you in bewildered daze
                                            Your senses feel off skew
Thoughts
falling
into
rut
You cannot see clearly though eyes open
sight seems
shut
The smoke and haze have you within it's mist
You want to run
                                            but it will shift to follow
You have to learn to live amongst tight grip
Until clearer
brighter sunburst
morrow

Call on me
When you feel your feet slipping on the rocks
Jumping with precision landing on firm socks
Markings black shadow spots seen in full
Light body brilliance counterbalance dark pall
To your self now
Voice speak deep
Senses feel the ground
Viewing from the peak

Had a day last week when feeling rather brave
So... thought to self yeah I'll enter that competition  
Probably won't be a close shave
But now I've won, well runner up!
Think I might be needing one
For champagne reception and burlesque photo shoot
I must learn to behave
Ready for a close up :-o
Argghhhh.. I want to run away :-/

The shakes they happen when I have to go out
I just go with it

You excite me
You terrify me
I want you to look at me
So deep into each other's eyes
Kissing down my neck mouth and thighs
Hold my hand in yours let's play and while away the hours
Kiss me as though a first kiss
Take me with your power
Passion so intense it was ment to be
Let's get lost in one another
So completely

Set in your ways
Sometimes the saddening emotion sways
And that is ok
That too can be what is needed to feel at that time
It opens us up to the thoughts that bind
Inner wound and outer grind
Somehow we become accustomed to the striking chime
The heat that burns in God's sunshine
We are allowed to bask in beauties light
It's not bad
It's just a state of beliefs mind
We can release and receive
Take a day
to be
gentle and kind

His voice so soothing
I can hear the balance in him
The strength but the sensitivity
When it is time for him to leave
I must let him go
Man has free will

I cannot clasp my yonder tale
For all is in a distant shell
It craves it's knowing glance
It's calling poetic hypnotic dance
It dwindles in the veils
The scaling winter fails
The captain's skirting sails
For all our abstract nails
And as I wonder onwards to the pluming lovers confines
I wondered
Yet I wondered
Who will love me now

I think it's bleeding its spilling out
Beating hard and fast
Spinning
Dizzy now
Pain is stabbing
I think it's a heart attack
You broke my heart
When you left leaving me without
The heart it numbed to stop the pain
But now the heart is
     spilling
again

My mother only speaks to me when I phone her
I haven't seen her for a year and maybe nine months
My dad means well but constantly criticizes
I'll see him a few times a year
I have to keep doing the healing work to forgive and to myself and for the pain I feel
Some days are easier than others

Some one is going through heartache
Some one is going through divorce
Some one is caring for others never gets time off
Some one is battling disease
Some one is processing trauma needed to heal
Some one is living the pain
Some one is crying in the dark
Some one is alone
Some one is trying not to blow out their spark
Some one is smiling through the struggle
Some one is trying each day

He asked me
"Why don't you show me your *****?"
I told him. .
"I don't have a cat!"

Coming from nothing
to
something
Back to the source of all creation
Between it all a life of contemplation
Restless for a home
Longing
for
salvation

Everyone has a different perspective
They see what they want
Or how they choose to live their life and expect the same from their eyes
No one knows the true struggles you have faced
The changes in your life
The battles and scars
The ****** taste
They can judge
But they may be wrong
In the meantime I'll sing my own power song
If I am naked it must be for the acceptance of men it couldn't be for myself or for other women
If I show no shame Im shameless
I have opinions thrown left and right
But they weren't there to walk with me when I faced the darkest coldest longest nights
I crawled and I fought for my soul
My self
My
Life
So live and love your own life
As I will mine
I'm divine
I'm of the light

Sorrow met with pain
Pain met with fear
Fear turned to anger
Anger flew to hurt and hate
- Hurt met pain
Pain raged in fear
Fear retaliated back in anger and with hate
And the looped played the same

If only the misunderstandings and loathing between the sorrow and hurt had changed
It needn't replay

Love and compassion
Be the change

Keep walking with the sleep in your eyes
Down the stairs to where the projected screens reside
Speaking words from backwashed mind
Those ment to protect send you to lie in bed
Questions riddling your head
Forget it all

Today's a new day

Song of a prison
Sings in every cell
Song of a prison
Knows far to well

To break these chains must crawl through
chambers
hell

Song
of a prison
Fits far
too
well
Shackles melt
with
the
heat

I tried to be normal the other day
It felt strange

Rip my heart open and let me melt within your flame
I burn for me only
I'm still
on
fire

Grieving over and over again
This time feels like death
Dying seemed easier before
This one has severed me from the core
Sometimes I long to take my final breath
To rest

I am here to hold up
the mirror to your face
Looking deep into its reflected plate
Recovering the beauty of your soul





You are radiant
You glow

Words form and the subconscious heard
Origin known

You've been haunting me
ever since my vision
Is it just a phantom
My spirit hopes not

There is no time
So no distance apart
Soul to touch
Soul
From Heart
to
Heart

I'm making some changes
Connection to nature and me
Less additives
More home grown
Organically

From nothing to something


Inbetween this Source


This love

I wish I had found in self more support and thought less of me weak
Maybe then I wouldn't of run towards any I seek
So much time spending worth in someone that never saw the worth in me
Been made to sleep in floor as less than a dog should be treated
Kicked in legs and **** told so fat so should be beaten
Headbutted in face to hide their disgrace
Told pills weren't enough to end worldly phase
All turned around to make me look insane
The worst was being poked and pinned cause the ex from years ago thought I had bed another
Just had to make sure I was clean and safe
A bit much to tell
But if I can cleanse some of past hell
So what!
Farewell!..