You see your darkness as black
It's just human nature
in all masks
Nothing you or I do truly lack

So many others telling of unconditional love - connection
Today I smiled as dog walkers gazed  happily and lovingly content to companions side
Unconditional it's how we should love
Everyone to feel safe and a home
Today I hugged my fellow friend warmed by love of face  
That moment treasured
Sacred
Best in show place
heart's a coo
Ok,  I may of shed a tear or two..
The affect of loyal friends for you!

He lays on top of me
Such sweet kisses
Making me giggle
Licking my face
The dog

Lucy's eyes flew up to the skies
She saw the world in a bubble
She set her sights on the moon she knew too much too soon
And the sun was her lover

In her mind she could find new revelations to discover
She would look off the hook and
nothing
would even bother her

Lucy's eyes flew up to the skies

The world breathed a bubble

Unwrap me like the sweet wrapper
Let me melt in your mouth

My hands burn
+  
             I              
   place them on  
your
pain

Telepathy
It's all
in
my
head
He said

I was just told how weird I was then I bought some crystals
I can't wait for my new wand
Yipeee!!!

There's magic in our house
A fairy who visits by
Swishing round the living room
Making spirits fly
Round and round the home she goes placing things just right
Into the kitchen she travels in morning noon or night
Not a jot or *** of washing up to clean in sight
What a little trooper a little hero to wash and put the plates and cups away
Hope housemate appreciates
Maybe she'll need my marigolds one day
It's magic!!
Ta Darrr!!!

He knew just what he was doing
He got all the right places
That movement
That ******
Action
Effortless
Such suction
Deep into the crevice
Great with a hoover
Terrible up my hmmmmm...

Always been a martyr for love
I will share
Til moved
or
moved
on..

Where's the tape
Just going to wrap this up
Keep the mouth shut of the thoughts
that want to come out
Driving around the bend
Can't find the end
I'll go regress instead
Slip into fetal shell
Societies feelings
So well

Doesn't matter who you are
Underneath the bruises and scars
We all want to feel
Good
You can pretend even at your bitter end
That you really don't care but deep down you know hurt brought you there
If we could live more lovingly
Would we
Feel accepted by others and self
See our beauty shine from within
In our hearts we can always begin
See our worth wrapped in delicate skin
The pain and wounds just make us human
We all make mistakes
That's how we grow
No need to deny
We are fallible
You are beautiful
Filled with love and light
Sometimes we just let the dark night take hold
Hope you find the strength
Great delight
Faith
To let deep hurts and anguish
go..

Past partners I attracted from my lack of self worth
So I was constantly left hurting
The things said stayed in my head
It came from my lack of feeling good enough as a child
So she ran to her saviour
But the attraction was from a place of pain
The rain fell from my eyes and many times they just watched
Only picking me up after I had completely fallen felt I'd given up
I keep working on self healing but some aches are still present
I wish I had loved myself earlier
Maybe
I could be happier

I'm going for a wee
Having a cup of tea
And doing some tai chi
In that order hopefully
I knew there was a reason I wrote all this poetry
Maybe??...

On higher planes the heart can feel love unconditional
On lower the heart feels pain and it's sharp dense fangs sinking in
I hope the density can fade

Meditation
A way to turn down the noise and come back to you
A way to silence the thoughts when your feeling blue
A place to go from within and journey throughout
A time to listen to the words without judgement or any doubt
A line to centre to source and connect with the whole
A practise to expand what you think you know and all that you may do
But let's not hold on to this
Let go
It's all up  
to
you

I feel the darkness
I feel the light
I find myself torn between the two
Parts of both run through
Merging to taste both sides
To feel as We do
Strainer container
We all hold our truth

Lungs bellow
Air feeds the skin
Push out breathe in
Push in breath out
Tension lessening
Thoughts passing
Tuning to space
within

Crown opening
Fibres tingling
Light flowing
Connection growing
Network sowing
Source threading
Weaving to it's roots
Nutrition returning through the shoots
Origin and earth to birth seeds core truth

Do I know my worth

Not completely no

Been running around with the projections getting myself in a spin

If I'm honest at times self sabotaging

The world became the playground from within

It wasn't the ground I would prefer to be playing in

I held back

Saw a lot of lack

Aligned with the mirrors of lest and jest

Can't blame the outside it just became a part of me

So the loving has to go on inside

internally

Melancholy filled mums
From all those times you touched your empty tums
No babe to love
Grieving as your children were never born

Misty haze fills the air
Dancing in the breeze
Taking the moment to rise and release
You are such a melody
Swirling pattern acquiesce
Invite to show heart and soul blessed
As you touch the note
A tune lifts
Harmony of hope
Music I have never heard or felt before
Celestial orchestra
Spirit soars with heavenly applause
Musica universalis
Angelic kiss
O' sweet melody in the mist

We left them there to smolder
Intoxicating scent filling up lungs
Breathing you in to my existence
A chasm baking between bones
Heating up flames to rise higher
To melt into the sky
Memories in the ashes
to burn out . .
but
never
die

Subconscious layers built from youth
The child never formed the bond with the world
Though tried as they grew
The observations were enough to get through
Though they wanted more
Conversations to pour into
To find out there's always something you never knew or do as should be done
The eyes are correct to another
Speech was just a way to criticize
Feelings out of place
Misaligned
Rode with the starving mind
To find the thirsty kind
Longing to sip
Struggle to give
Filling the holes into myself
Spaces inside to live

The silence has always been welcome

I wished I'd looked harder for my worth a long time ago
Though I believe you're where you are ment to be

Dreaming
Suddenly awoke
Dream remains in my memory, this vision that spoke only shared a significance of animals
In dreams dogs and kittens
Wake to a bird on a perch bright yellow in colour so vivid so sharp could almost touch it
Swung from the wall back and forth from its perch three times
Fourth transformed into a tropical fish black with bright yellow mark curling towards it's tail
Head was in awe visions many times before but so alive it could of been there
Head kept saying bird was a parrot
No I told myself not a parrot
I recognize
- a cockatiel
Yes a cockatiel
Part of the parrot family apparently
Message in the vision
From the heart
to
transformation

The doubts are creeping in
I think they are trying to look out for me
I'll watch them for a bit
and
let them rest

I fell in love with that music today
It made love to me in every way
Chest pounding
Toes curling
Stomach dropping
Elevated bliss
The music flowed through waves and penetrated at the core
Emotions flew
Tears rolled down face
Angel wings at foot of bed
Took to Angelic resting place
Passion now reinstate
That's how love should feel and taste
Who could ask for more

I cried into the mirror
It was ugly
Difficult to watch
I watched anyway

Tears
ran
down
my red blotched
Mascara smudged  
face

Clock chimes twelve
Into midnight delve
Whirling wonder portals helm
Takes the hand to dance beyond worlds where two shall pair
Witches Goblins Shadows Stare
Magical moments
Dark and light
Human being with entities night
Partner up
For a scream
Angels ballroom
Hellish delight

They come
to me
They
flow
through
me
Riding the
lows and highs
of
universal
life

As the gate opens thoughts
           shift
Moving
down
corridors and passageways through and
into oncoming rifts
Around and
around we
go        
Trying to make sense of it all
To come back round again
this time to make up for
past amends              
Down the next track
onwards
to
the
end
Only to met with a sharp cut off
bend /                            
Backwards we go                
complete with our sorrow
To make a quick
             exit
and
find steps
for
tomorrow
Rest awhile you've walked quite a few miles
Have a break
Then when you wake
We try again
Charging
on
to
make it to...
Where
or
When?

Maybe I am ill
Maybe I should know
But maybe I have enough life in me to hold on be strong and not let go unless it states it so
Whatever's ment
Will be

Been in bed for days
Depression has me slipping in and out of sleep
The mind just plays on
like an over played song
I fall away and dive within
Record doesn't stop spinning
Is there an on off switch

When
others don't believe    
             what you believe
They won't see                 what you see
It's all in the mind
to perceive

Life is like a fairground
hall
of
mirrors
The
                distortions
The self
reflections
The clowns
The fear
images
The projections
The
illusions
The going in to find our way
out
The amusement
The minotaurs chasing after us to hunt us down until we learn to free ourselves from the self imposed inflictions on our own mind
The labyrinth
of
         this life

Song sings the shoreline
Waters rhythmic ride
Verses set the tone
Wave length far and wide
Chorus Crashing Crescendo
Flowing in Full Stride
Taking journey onwards
Ripples repeat lap and glide
Ballad gather tempo
Reaching  Dynamic
Panoramic
High

I'm dreaming again
A love that doesn't exist for me
I love myself
Obviously still not completely
but I try
Sometimes the thought of heaven
makes me die

Can you look at the image of yourself
Dark decay that you have felt
&
see it staring back
The love that you have lacked

Our screams played to us
By every one we meet
Steps danced in rhythm
by our own worn out beat

Mirror
You show back to me my face
You show the reflection of each consciousness state
You beam to me the feelings that place
You show the emotion engraved
You tell me the truth of my projected relay
You feel me deeply as I you
This my love
I am so grateful
for
you!

These Mirrors
Hold too many visions
It's shine can be blinding and illuminating
The shadows can be contouring and devouring
It just depends on how we see
Highlights to walk
the
halls way

Door ways
all
around

Toxicity it can live in you or me
If we be honest completely
The accumulation of which we grasp to be
To have in our midst
Clawing for our fix
From all the times we went unfulfilled
Our empty broken shell
Scattering bits for others to walk on
Cutting from our steps
Following in our shadows
Reaching out to grip
From their own ghostly hollows
Can we break
The cycle

The sky was grey
Then it turned to white
light and blue

We don't have to see
We have a deep sense of touch
We just have to feel

The world spinning
Everyone moving
Noise distracting
Thoughts grooving
Always something to do
Something needs improving
Overwhelm
All coming at a rush
Our senses long for a little
shush

Take your mind to natures hill tops
Encompass an airy flush
Eyes turn
in
Submerge
below
the
skin
Find the _ space
within
Be as it
Drifting .....



Bliss

Shadows dancing on the walls
Sleep inconsistent
Dreams and images merge and flash like a camera snap shot and its developing roll of film
Head tingles, hair stands up or parts
mostly pleasant a comfort in the dark

Breathe in! ... Breathe out! ...

Tinkling soft touch on my face following sensation as it traces and curves
Warmth on the hand
delicate touch
subtle energy vibration on skin
link between the fingers and palm

Colours swirl blending and changing
Eyes closed to world - open to mind
People  Faces  Shapes  Words  Skies
Unveiled before open and closed eyes

Music only heard once, never to be forgotten

Time shifts
Stands      still!

Emptiness - not unpleasant
There is no body

Soul to spirit meet as one to divine nature connects us all


Blissful now
All is quiet
Silence is golden

On the outside I may seem calm and at ease
On the inside I'm screaming to be free

The air is full
The stars appear
The water settled with slight ripple
here
and there
The fairies play and skim upon the lake
Racing
to
the
bridges
finish line
Night comes alive with magic enchantment
Spirit realms cover the night as veil thread-like in low light
Shimmer of sparkle twinkles energy source of passed life
Tricks for morrows woken set by mischievous sprite
Quiet in late and early hours though plenty of activity
Can take a glimpse if you too believe
The moon knows all
For it looks out over water
The moon can see it's own reflection
Intuitive detection
Not to mention vast direction of being who frolic
below
Moonglade
spotlights
spellbinding show