X can be a kiss of love or a mark of death

A star can be a shining sparkle or a fiery breath

A fiery breath could be a rebirth or a forceful hell

Force can be with action of productivity to do well or to take and destroy others as you swell

Swelling could be an expansion or overfed bloat

Overfed could be fatten it could be expansion

Bloat could be soft and flabby or protrude extend beyond project out

What are you projecting

What is the deeper /hidden meaning all about

What do you do
Do you sleep late
Contemplate and plan the things you want to do
Do you watch movies
Play games
Be silly and act the fool
Do you get up early
Seize the day
Speak kind words even in trial tell yourself it'll be ok
Do you spend time alone
Converse with friends family a lover on the phone
Do you spend time in company you enjoy
Do you giggle like a school girl or boy
Let your hair down
Do you hold it all together when it feels it'll fall apart
Do you paint draw write create art
Do you pick your thoughts intentionally
Protect your space carefully
Do you meditate rest take time out mentally
Do you have a long hot soak
Nourish yourself physically
Do you give yourself a love note
Seek life's antidote
Do you release the emotions to lighter float
Wrap the layers of insulation coat


How do you take care of you?

Do you just read.. a book or two?

It's goes way beyond the physical
Intimacy connects deeply
Heart
Mind
Spirit
Body
A touch is felt on all levels
An exchange of energy
Sharing isn't just about what you first see
It penetrates your core
Emotion is a heavy door
I don't pass anyone the
key

Soft and sharp
A little rough edge
A soothing harp
Similar to opposite
Understand Lost in transit
Clearly apparent  Not how it's meant
Magic to the ears Horrific torment
It's all in receiving  It's just how it's sent
We can be different But in nature the same
Some words can heal Some words can pain
A lesson to the wise A fools game
Listen to the message How it feels reveals our crediting name Distinction a conviction an infliction or growth gain

I have seen glimpses of Hell
And glimpses of Heaven
All we can do is live to our best intention
We are far from perfect
We are human
Mistakes will be made
That is certain
It's how we learn from them and how we develop compassion
for those who walk the world
It's not such a straight path
Light and dark at time link hands
Both teach another sun and shadowlands

I have something I don't like
I would prefer not to write
I hold myself in hindsight
I find it easier to express
I dislike the conveyance
I try to alter the portraying
I do what I can
Can I alter the plan
I am what I am

I am all that you need
To know thyself
is to love

I lack complete self love and acceptance
I'm trying to get there
I'll accept where I am in this moment

I am scared of everything

Fear has been a big motivator
(I have to give it some credit)

In work
Seen as weird and whacky
Get things wrong they come up to smack me
So..
I can only do my best

Learning all the time

Take me!
Or
leave me!

I appreciate good friends
I appreciate authentic people
I appreciate the good authentic connections in life

Each day a lesson new
Growth through low or high
Ears listen to the question
Thoughts answer journey a ride
Polarity comes together
Feeling both and one side
Breathing deeply on nows time
Conscious of elevators flight
Subconscious absorbing perceptions mind
Energies burning left and right
A balancing act to walk the line
Life of dreaming
Nightmares undermine
Take what's yours
I'll have what's mine
Oh no thanks, can I leave that behind
Let go to this it's holding too tight
Dance to this record
Rock in the night
Live with the light
Whats wrong?
This right?
Who can tell
Slipping on a magic spell
Heavens call
Hell Yells
Sometimes I take it in
Sometimes with peace
Sometimes it's too much
Choking to breathe ,
Release
Eyes see
Heart beats in love or waves with fear
I break sometimes
When I do
It's only weak you'll hear

Was in a dream
I picked up some flowers they had been set down on the grass as a tribute, mark of respect was the to take as remembrance of your own
I placed the flowers bright pink and yellow onto soft grass
You then came by
We talked some small talk, not much
You lay down alongside me
You made a rollie
Smoked away
I drew, the pencil was drawing grand buildings I let the pencil construct and flow with the scene
You looked on
You were nervous so joked, made up another smoke
I knew you had so much more to say
I did too
We didn't need to
...
I can feel you
.

At a crossroads
Can feel the push and shove
Like when small in big school trying to make it on the bus
Fear is speaking so many things
Will you grow horns or divine wings
Looking back to you on your own
Thoughts inside you felt alone
Seeing and feeling all around
The want to mute to run and hide
Never was a free being child
Worry was my tone
Never comfortable to turn the light out
Even in the home
It wasn't the dark that scared me
It was what I may hear and sight that put me into fright
Was that natural for a little mite
I do recall senses of insight to do this or not do that inner calling that could save life
Spirit in the past took care of that
I wonder how could it all be bad
Only my own thoughtless devices ever acted out
When I connect in and up there is so much love
The child is scared right now she needs a hug

My dreams tend to be set to a theme of past emotions and pain
Maybe one day get to live with
warm loving
dreams

I do not idolize God or Jesus for that matter
Creation and destruction a part of existence
My chained cross I wore around my neck
Snapped as I danced with spirit
I may place another around my neck but not as of yet
If I so choose to
I have felt no need to look outside
For creation and destruction lives and dies as the air I breathe
Expansion
Contraction
Hope
Grief
We all live this part
No reprieve

No one to look up to
Only
to be

Let the fire from our passions thaw the icy hearth
Smoldering as ravishing flame burns together
Molten liquid fusion from the heat
Melting
into
you

Slurp me
from
the
inbetween
Lick me from
inside
out
Kiss me from
the
middle
Show me what
loves
about

Let's light a candle
Talk
Set the world to rights
Speak of passions that burn through night
Joke and play as time slips away
Soft tender touches to begin
Eyes enticing most
Growing closer
Content by company and host
Sharing same desire
Kiss to kiss attentive
Knowing
Tasting
Savoring
Wetting appetite
Hunger so strong
You crave to go on
Firmly to each other's grips
Small bite between sips
Inside he slips
No other could feel like this
Bask in cups spill
Overflowing
Flame to wick intensifies
Liquid fuel action to lift up loves light

Ides of March
Dark and Light
Where the two shall meet
As light shines bright it takes the night passes it to the sun
Warms the ground
The lost are found
Loving every
one

Scent of seduction
Calling for you
Come into my laire
I'll show you just as you desire to do
Show you ecstasy that doesn't stop til you demand it to
Feel me open as you feed from truth
Nestle inside my pillowy room
Fitting just right around you
Fuelling up as engines power
Sweet essence blend and shower
Oh' such juicy sensations
Falling further and deeper to immense salvation
As bodies beat pulsate with pound
Enter extreme elation beyond mortals round
Flowing over and over with the now
The cup is overflowing as is your mighty member
As fire lifts up from sparking ember
This will not stop til you desire it to
A perplexing call to make from me and you
Keep going and going
I want it too
This
Cascading
Pleasure ride
Will not subside....

If another hurts I want to soothe the pain
If I hurt it's just been accepted for me to feel that way.

I feel I will never feel or win love
Prove me wrong

Mmmm... I can taste you on my tongue
Filling up with insatiable hunger
I want you in my mouth
Licking each
excitable
drop
Don't you just
love
bagels and cream cheese
Mmmm...
Tell me when to stop ✋

I fell
in
to the dark
so I could
see
the
light
in yours

It will be Forever!!...

The things I've seen most wouldn't believe in
I wasn't sure I did at first til they appeared out of the blue
Expand the mind
Broaden the view
Hopefully this will also lead to allow most joyous and sacred dreams to come true

If I were
To slit my wrists
The only person it would hurt
is me

There's a shadow
    across
               the window
The light makes it clear

If world was yours and rule by you
Would you not want
All to love
One to One
to
school

When I'm hungry
Feed me
Be delicate with me when I'm down on my knees
Let me taste your world
Like I said
When I'm hungry
Feed
me

I regret the last post!!
:-o

When my twin flame left I had to go inside and learn to love myself through the pain of what was, what has been, and what was perhaps to come
I learnt to forgive
When my soulmates left
I learnt to dig deeper into my soul

So many years of trying to heal from life
Will I ever really live without the pain

Don't let anyone pressure you into to doing something you are not comfortable with or in ways prompted by manipulation
I am comfortable with who I am
I know my worth and respect my body
I love my body and will show no shame for it or the scars and wounds I have let heal and those still needed to heal
I will not be used as a object manipulated or spoken to with disrespect or ill regard
I hope those that try
Find themselves at this place too

The more you heal
The more you can see the abuse
You learn to forgive
But see the pattern play on
The ghosting motion when they don't get what they want
The things said in jest to make you the brunt of the joke
The insecurity that lays behind their eyes
The despise of you
You mirror the truth
They don't like what they see
So they would rather remove you from view

My hope
For
good

I'm not feeling this reality
The manipulators
The controllers
The liars
The fakes
The world seems a lie
I see the mass panic and it's worrying to watch
I don't feel a part of this reality anymore
In fact I think it's an illusion of the mind

I love him
So much I love him so much
He makes me cry or I do
I cry cause of all I've held on to
All I need to release and how much love I have to give and how much he gives to me

I'm a cleaner in my job
I pick up what mess others have dropped
The hoovers broke so I must brush it up bit by bit
It hurts somewhat
but it's what I must do
to get the job done

I was thinking about anger management
But I just told it to
*******!!

He says I'm judgemental
He's right
At this time

Kick
me
Punch
me
Love
me
Maim
me
Hold
me
Touch
me
Shun
me
Frame me
Keep on going with this game
your playing
You'll make me
Strong
That's all
I'm
saying

I'm learning about my relationship style
How and why I do and say the things I do
I'm learning more deeply to feel into the sensitivities and trials
I'm understanding more
How can I be a healthier me
Where should my boundaries be
What does the other person need
How can we understand
Compassion
Hand in hand

Growing up felt the odd one out
Too sensitive insecure think rather than do
Said the wrong thing
Wore the wrong clothes
Never told beautiful
Still working on more love for self
But can see now
Others put out their own view
Doesn't mean that words said or not should be true