I think I am in love
I've tried to help it
I feel foolish at times
I've never met him
Not yet anyway

Out
of
nothing
Exists
you

House cold
No heat it's faltered
No hot running water
It's snow outside
Taking it away from me
Take it away from me
******* Take it all away from me

O
Ok
It could be over
Oh new beginnings
We'll give it a shot
My life was heavy a muddy plot
Plant new seeds
Please
Breathe

11:11
The signs always there
A gateway to stop and stare
Numerous meanings the world cares to share
But notice we are
Awake to alarms
Times on the clock
On displays
Sighting
Every which way
Inviting us to hear spirits call past minds sway
Guiding light to lead humanity
to
better
destined
day

The gateway opened before I opened my eyes
Visions flashed
Then came to life!
I knew in for a mystical
fantastical
cosmic
ride

I will devote my life to you and let your radiant light flow
and
shine
through

555
Changing times

Kindness to me
A most beautiful quality

The chaotic commotion of calamity moves down the tracks
Motion to move smoothly unhurried relaxed
Journey the bends with ease less taxed
Unwanted scenery of grey rain gloomy clouds
Looking to the gaps of blue
Any light peeking through
If hard to see
........................
Take a new seat

Love so high it can make you cry
Dark so low it can make hearts bow
The light felt as soft and bright
Fears can melt in the blink of all seeing eye
Death grips on to the hips it slips its unseen face to mask your shadows
Connected to source of all things
Drifting away on a black birds wings
Feeling nothing and everything
Sometimes makes the feeling sting
Numbness comes in to present
things
Holding on
to
new days
New gifts
A love that gets it

Soft white earth untouched
Pure
Fresh clean elixir
Garden to cleanse tastes palate
Beauty perched in the air

It may hit you in the face
The past and all you had to take
It bites to have a taste
It wants you to give love despite any mistakes
To soften with sweet embrace

She wasn't everyone's cup of tea..
..but even the coffee drinkers
wondered if they could
change their order

I will not lie down with your abuse
I will not bow down to your disregard and misuse
I will no longer feel shame for pain caused by your wounds
I will not apologise for the way you handled the truth
But I will be honest with you

I just do it scared
and
keep practising it

I have a place I'd adore to be
It's my happy home
A room of joy
Good company
Family and friends together sitting cosily  
A room with warm roaring fire
Rosy decor
Laughter shared
Children and pets playing delightfully
Everyone smiling as love has its home

Stop
Repeating
Same mistakes
Stop!!!

The sky and dreamscape show the signs the symbols of the way
The shapes images and patterns alert mine eyes
To lead to clearer day

In detachment phase watched the world spill away
Saw objects just as they were
Love didn't hold it fell apart
Was lighter with heavy load empty heart
It was all matter but nothing did
Though hollow in a shell
Couldn't call out or yell
No point to that
Spent days alone shut others away
Knowing can never make anyone stay
I gave my self to the day
I felt no more than a speck on the floor
Thought it was all gone
Dried out
Kept going even with the doubt
Then the fear in my mind
Then the looking back to what was left behind
Hope and faith saving grace even when faith felt lost
I know everything can go but I know love can come back strong

No matter the pain the lessons the strife
Even with the rain
In a weird way
Will miss this life

Skin Blood
Bone
Brains Heart
Soul
Body a container for the soul
Ain't any less
This I know

Thankyou to the lightworkers
Those who bring their radiant light
Thankyou for your guidance you never left my side
Thankyou for your wisdom your brilliant knowledge wise
Thankyou for your love it's made in God's Divine sight
Thankyou you are beautiful and you magnificently shine
Forever thankful in my heart soul and mind🌈💖✨

Dark thoughts overshadow the mind
Eclipsing the sun
leaving just outward shine
The moon has its place and purpose
The shade has its art
The moon will move over
The eclipse will bring totality of heart

Taste me with your lips
Hear me as I am
Hold me with my passions
Never feel me as undone
Wild women grown from the depths of earth the howl of sweet savage air and fiery flames of sun
So make me moan with pleasure on wings of ecstasy
Or run far away as I fly to where true natures heart calls destined home to be

You keep Pushing and Pushing and Pushing
And I just want to Push you away

Arm
of
the
sea
Birth
to
thee
Bodies
delivery
Water
markers
anniversary
Swimming
in
sync
with
what will be
Channels
confectionery
of bitter
stroke
sweet
Breathing
swallow
Breathing
deep
Flowing banks of reeds that creep
Rapid current
Floating
slow
Freestyle
Buoyant
aid
for
mile
Treading
water
Tired
Below
Springs of hope as you go
Narrow
vision
Opening out
Sea of plenty
Turn
about
Island on the horizon
Or
to
sails
that
have
spent
No man is an island
Though we can
pretend!

There are secrets, stories no one knows
We can be brave or happy on the face of things but beneath it all lie the fragments of learnt behaviours, enforced patterns, guilts, pains
Deeper feelings with meaning that tear at the soul
A want on the surface to be whole
Bleeding sorrows scratch
.....All along...
....the undertow.....

Smiles and tears all day
It aches but takes the pain away
All at the same time

Right now teary eyed
Today tears cried
Will let them
drop
until they dry
Peace and love be waiting..
Standing side to side

I like you when you are kind to me
When you kiss me upon meeting or make me that boss cup of tea
I like to lay with you
Body to body
Hand in hand
Smooch the nape of my neck
Make me laugh to tickle the sensitive spot
I like when you teach me about things I don't know
To sit with you and laugh at a movie or funny show


I don't like when we row

And I don't like when we part

  I think you and I need to begin in the head and end with an open 
heart

<3

It doesn't matter if we are not together
My soul will still love yours

How can what I see be real
How can the I be the only truth
My awareness is a reflection of me and my mood
It changes as it
                         moves

Old soul
Tired mind
Thought about the outcome
Knows what you will find
Beautiful heart
Soul for all of time

I'm scared to love again and that's the truth

Don't own a lot
But to some
I own the world
A safe place to sleep at night and roof over my head
Running water and food
To some they don't come easy and many go without
It makes my heart ache to know in this life people endure such agonising pain and no home no fixed place
This year from past wanted to donate
Reserved meal for Christmas health checks and roof over head for a person at least
This Christmas I will be thinking of those that have less and I hope they too can enjoy a merry good feast

You can stare menacingly at my third eye
But I can see you too
I feel you
I'm not scared of you
I'M NOT SCARED OF you
NOW
fall
away ..
I want my peace

Visions in my head when I close my eyes
To my self of reason wonder why
To subconscious of no surprise

You draw those towards with similar ways or views
Mine are all crazy
Oh no!!
I must be one too! :-o ;-p

Those years of head spinning were a maze to get through
Each day a struggle to do the basics you're so use to
Couldn't stand without falling to the ground
Sick so tired
Earth whirling shook me now
Even to rest was so sickening
If you were to sleep, when you were to open your eyes it would all begin
I found my medication in the words I read
Although that was such dizzying dread
Start small
Diet
Ginger to aid the ill
Tai chi to move the body balance bring to still
Yoga poses stretched the outlook
Exercise eyes following direction to all angles
Meditation and sounds to heal
Sometimes you feel you're not doing so well
But then you look back
And feel grateful more alive
to just be well

Broken beings trying to be
Living with the misery
Taking the air from the dusty breeze
Longing for release

Soul
Full
peace

Not connected to the world we were taught to believe in
Does that mean I've learnt nothing new?

I've been sitting
with
My fears
My shadows
My insecurities
My projections
My demons
My anxiety
My feelings of shame
My thoughts of guilt and blame
My worries
My mortality
My unworthy causality
My judgement
My vulnerability
My mistrust

And here we sit
Upon the carpet

You bought a book on psychic development although things happened before that
You watched a documentary on the universe and string theory and something inside pinched tight
You peered out from window up high and even with past suffering from society's taunts you saw oneness of all it clicked in your bones
When in bed at night you began to see shapes and sparkled light
Memory of man when visions ran shouting in your face
You thought a dream or so it seemed until he called the same
You recalled the visions from a child when imaginations
charged wild
The night came back
Never to be the same
Sights seen that make horror film and video games scream lame
So no matter how weak I may feel
I know there's been a lot to deal
Stronger for the scare and pain

..And suddenly the world changed

A new world
A lighter world
A world full of love
A world with happiness and smiles
and lots of carefree fun
Free spirits coming
into one
Taking back their lives from the warmth and healing of the sun

Angel on fire
Reaching higher and higher
You can burn these wings
She can fly by herself

Immense love and bliss filled my heart
An angels kiss