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It's heels face out from the ground
   Palms  
  to
   the     sky

Eyes of a mother crying to her youth
Son lain on forest pile neck dressed with sharks tooth
The sea waits his lifeless body
Gone far
too soon

Woman a homemaker
Family to take her care
Dressed in seventies fashion
Long blonde wavy flowing hair
Busy in her duties
Maternal love was her worldly share

The boy the son
The woman the wife
The eyewitness the observer
The same
Just
Another life

You have your views
I'll have mine
We see what we've seen
Known what we have known
Lessons learnt through mistakes made
Karma paid
Though the need to control another will never work
The beliefs many ways to see
The darkness the light the spectrum the haze
The glee the sadness the constriction the expansive ways
The shades of grey
The bright colourful days
One thing that may seem real may be an illusion to you or me
Our eyes see through to our periphery the behind past our  fronted forward ways the side step the leap and the stay
The wounds of hurt have obscured part vision
The cave became our sanctuary
The light sometimes a blight as we saw the shadows so deeply projected and directed
Though to see feel and understand these wounds brings in more room to understand not just for selves but for another too
Through this we grow
Sharing more of what we want to show from a more balanced state

So I hear the world outside getting louder
The voices raised
Chaos filled
It's rowdy at times in the streets round here
The insecurities and aggravations take flight
I know what will sort out the roots of hurt
Alcohol and a good fight
When will they want to make it right
Look
inside
It's just another Saturday night

There's a hole in my aura a scar I must heal
There's a burning in the solar an effigy to feel
There's a sorrow in my heart from the winters summer has concealed
My mind can plague or amaze
Thoughts can progress or drag sober or lag
Spirit flies above lack
Love calls me back

Light
closing to Dark
The only way to come out is to go in and dive deep
Not knowing if life will end to eternal sleep
you will stay lost in the dark
or a lights spark will
slowly
begin
to
creep
Answers in the shadows
Plummeting
Surrendering
  to all,
you
see

Take me into your own
& I
will show you my boundless world
My home

Memories wash up to the shore
Times heart was heavy
I saw an eyesore
Stain on society
Using whatever substance and suffering to drug me
Unable to see
Didn't want to feel
anything
It hurt too much
To go within
Should of been sending more love
Suffered
enough

Surrender to the skies
Body contact open thighs
Give self to warming touch
Bask in glories sun
Euphoric afterglow
Apricate
Space
For  love

As eyes meet
Hearts race
Feelings flood
Falling deep in gaze
Touch electric
Permeates sky
Kiss me now
Ascending butterfly
'Ohhh.. all a shiver'
Shaking as you kiss
Catch me now
Could surely die
Lay down drowning in this
Quenching the thirst
Fired flames are rising higher
Passion enraged
Immersed with the fire
Intoxicated flare much more than desire
So close and deep two worlds naturally conspire
A love no bounds heartfelt and true
All aquiver with notion
of you

Arcadian journey to the sun
As oceans cross and earth is one
Circadian rhythm Moon struck with Sun
Priestess Prowess Wholesome God
Evoke your Powers Eclipse and Shone
For Together We Thrive Blazing Throne
My Light is yours and darkness cast on
And in this moment separation gone
Blend to heat and knowing call
Whisper my Love Ecstatically Fall
Rise with Me I give You All
No mortals pleasure
Everlong

Are we manipulated
Or
do we just play ourselves

I'm getting lessons in patience
I can't wait!!

As a little girl
I didn't feel this world
Didn't want to speak to anyone I met
Just listen to the sounds coming out from mouths
Observing in the now
Didn't feel I had anything that wouldn't be chuckled about anyhow
Apparently spoke in unknown tongue at very young
Brother had to translate
I wanted to be mute for awhile but no other would contemplate
Never felt belonging to this world or those who should feel close
Drawn to animals old wise friends and spirit company hosts

The man with the blackened ***** bony fingers and cold weathered hands
Who's holding his
Who warms his spirit
Who loves his heart
Where does he live
As he wanders the streets
Will a home be found

I'm not necessarily here to be successful
I'm here to inspire

I know as a women want strength and equal power
I've played the dating game
Wrote poems bought flowers
Though it never really turned out well
I ended up in cold showers
So I won't chase anymore
Whats right will be there in the striking hour

Message in the numbers aligned to sight and sense
Reaching to the light after fear and darkness sent
Looking to the past
Growing in the present
Holding for the future
A candle in the hand
Wonders of the world
Instinct for vision and of sound
Peeking in the corners
-to feel what comes around
Stepping with the process
Spirit will know no bounds

Why did I disrespect my body so much
It deserves love
Not
Lust ****** and ****

Each Sunday this lady walks by me
We both exchange smiles and a few pleasant words
This morning a surprise awaited
Both said hello addressed the cold then out comes a card and a present
A Christmas card to wish good cheer and a little box with chocolates inside
Little did she know I had not had a great night before and the presents unexpected so sweet so lovely made such an impact
I thanked her wholeheartedly then walked on in my tracks
As tears fell down from my eyes
You never know how far a smile can travel :-)

Got to keep on          
      pushing
          through
                  Or a
                        step
                           ahead
                                    and
                                           I'll
                                                 be
                                                   s
                                                   c
                                                   r
                                                   e
          ­                                         w
                      ­                             e
                                  ­                 d

Kiss my thighs
Feed from
a
Queen

Climb the ladder
rung by rung
Losing grip
Feet are
           flung
Keep on climbing to the ledge
Keep on loving
til the bitter end
Falling
back
to
make
amends

In your company
Uncomfortable now
The shake up
The wake up
The want to run out
Emotions build inside
Kept in the shadow trying to bawl scream shout
Words fumble about
Eyes don't speak with the talking mouth
Eyes are wide and open a little surprised
Mouth circles around the inner wounded conflicted child
The air fogs with doubt
It's ok even if you may feel down
Right now anyhow
It's hard when thoughts and feelings sink in
You will shed
Then grow new skin
Understand it's raw sore not comforting
So step away
Soothe within
Mirrors breaking
Just a touch to cure
Just a look to view
You

Toxic bile
Pain for mile
A stone no roll can brake
A tender heart
Torn apart
With a dying no love can wake

Healing begins inside
I see your pains and I want to help but I can't do the work for you
Until you do external triggers will have an emotional response perhaps not of benefit
The outer view will penetrate through hitting hard sending ripples to confuse and bruise the next person standing in front of faced queue
Peace of mind begins with you
Lighten the load
Accept own shadows too
Bit by bit
Drop by drop
World renew

Cosmic river in the sky
Flow from airs high
Power dance
Wave of light romance
Spellbound
Magnetic trance
Fixed by all who gaze
See magic in its wake
The excitement stirs the fire
from
storms shake
Earths field writes natures play
Set in waves
A river in the sky
Sea from fire
of
airs high tide

Morning introduction with warm soothing caress
Air filled with love light and prettiness  
Colourful brilliance to highlight the stage
Feeling the loving breeze wrap around
Hold closely with surround amaze
A morning of fine romance
Morning of joy
Grace
Love
An Autumn dance

Sabotaging self
Drifting in the sea fearing what's below and above me
Stuck in stage of limbo not knowing which way to go
Part of hope is sinking
Part of hope is drifting
A part wants to live
Some bits to forgive
Others to show them what I'm made of

When I awakened the pressure was intense
I cried and prayed to God
God held me in that embrace
God helped me to face another day
When the shadows came
I observed without pain
When the manipulating energies emerged
God protected through the purge
When things I didn't understand came
God gave me clarity to regain
In all God gave me faith throughout it all
The unknown
The uncovered
The depths
The discovered
God kept me safe and loved me all the same
The light came and I saw warmth around
The music angelic
The bliss from higher ground
The dark night of the soul
God brought me through
The gratitude and joy always came back to my heart
No matter what I thought I lacked
Sometimes we learn to keep the faith even in uncertainty
The love inside is eternal and is our spirit too ✨

Speech like as babbling brook
Bubbling bumbling words get stuck
Panic attack struck
Ooooooohhhhhh....
Hope it soon goes
Hooooooooo...
Sounds blurt
out

I met him at a bar
An older man with old soul charm
Talking and he could see I liked to dance
He held out hand to palm
We whirled around as ballroom stars and time was all erased

If you are low
I want to help you
I want to help you grow
Help with each feeling you sit with
Be there as a friend and confident
Pick you up if need be
It's ok
Cause I know the balance
And you do that for me

Sometimes I don't feel so nice
Sometimes I feel annoyed
Bitter
Not feel light
I notice judgements cross my mind
Though I will be kind
I know no human is perfect
At least, I can see

I am beautiful
and so
are you :-)

He is beautiful inside and out
I would like us to be beautiful together

Beautiful people and beautiful hearts suffering with grieving
They should be bathed in beauty
Souls believing

I'd like to write a bit of fiction
But my veins remember being bitten
Teeth sunk with my heart
Shadows stormed and that was just a start
Demons were dark
However death was stark
You are not just a being
But a wholly work of art

Look to the flowers
Look to the trees
Look to the green pasture
See the beauty reflected in your eyes

The universe responds to your frequency
We are energy so is the universe
We vibrate with that energetic correspondence
So this I understand
However alignment is an ongoing process
You cannot force the inner to meet the outer
The layers need to be shed gradually
You cannot force a belief upon another
If the belief is one they have learnt to belong to them
The belief will be questioned in time
When the host is ready to receive the message
When the being works through the conscious patterns and layering understands heals and becomes
Becoming when they feel the inward shift
Then to the outer world
we too become

Not after the one time love
After the life time love

I'm tired of wanting
When really I want nothing
Maybe love
Although that's something already own
Just needs more time to grow

Accepting me so accept you and chosen family
Be happy
Love your life
You deserve to love

Does that mean same for me?
Or am I living egotistically?

Sit with the pain
Feel the pain
Breathe with it and into it
Let the elements of earth water fire and air flow with it
And the suffering will return to this
Nothing is lasting
-It will change
Open up to space
How it allows the feeling to be
To expand
Be boundless
Accept
To suffer and accept
To just breathe
Surrender
Feel
Allow
Openness to the true nature of life
Rest..

Purity and grace
Sunflowers face
Growing in beauties place
Of innocence and charm
A field of natures calm
Harmony arm in arm
The love goes on and on
Pretty everlasting state
Daisy-chain

Dreams of embracing arms
Feeling like home