On higher planes the heart can feel love unconditional
On lower the heart feels pain and it's sharp dense fangs sinking in
I hope the density can fade

You can feel the sadness behind the eyes
you try so desperately to hide
Tomorrow your eyes will light up
another day

I sit with the fear
Sense how it feels
Digging in it's heels
I let it speak but soothe it deep
Knowing the souls spirit is real deal

Pine needles
falling
from
the
Christmas tree
Shedding green day by day
Gifts bought
from
loving heart
Not a penny spared
The gift is of love
and wealth of care and share
No matter how little we own
Love will always be there
Enjoy the festivities and the pine needles
from moment they reach and all occasions inbetween
For times go
and this year
can beam such precious dream

Synchronicity in plain sight
In number plate state might
Next car behind
Two letters together say be
Not sure what that could mean
to you or me

Roaring waves they came and washed me down
Out of my depth needed to come up for breath
I resurfaced only to be met with a forceful plummet
I remembering thinking if it takes me again
this is me sinking
I swam back up
It took me down
In hopeless state
Panicked now
The waves so strong perhaps heard the song and it wasn't long before I was brushed along ocean bed
to
beach ahead
I remember that day in Mexico well
Covered in sand
******* Hell!!
Bit embarrassing walking back to the hotel
Wasn't just gritt'in me teeth

Just when I think all is left where's it's been
There you are again in a dream
You come to me
Grab me kiss me so strongly so passionately
Then in another dream
I see you with her
and your future
family

Being human is hard
So many layers to break through
Sometimes we too need a break
Take it easy on ourselves ❤

I will love you forever
though I can't hold on
You belong to whoever makes your love
be strong

Dancing with my reflections
I'd rather not see
Though I need to open my eyes

There's magic in our house
A fairy who visits by
Swishing round the living room
Making spirits fly
Round and round the home she goes placing things just right
Into the kitchen she travels in morning noon or night
Not a jot or *** of washing up to clean in sight
What a little trooper a little hero to wash and put the plates and cups away
Hope housemate appreciates
Maybe she'll need my marigolds one day
It's magic!!
Ta Darrr!!!

Got to keep on          
      pushing
          through
                  Or a
                        step
                           ahead
                                    and
                                           I'll
                                                 be
                                                   s
                                                   c
                                                   r
                                                   e
          ­                                         w
                      ­                             e
                                  ­                 d

The sky and dreamscape show the signs the symbols of the way
The shapes images and patterns alert mine eyes
To lead to clearer day

You can stare menacingly at my third eye
But I can see you too
I feel you
I'm not scared of you
I'M NOT SCARED OF you
NOW
fall
away ..
I want my peace

You grew from the life left over from death
You drew from the sun but your head knew where you were grown from

House cold
No heat it's faltered
No hot running water
It's snow outside
Taking it away from me
Take it away from me
******* Take it all away from me

Rocket balloon flying far so soon
Reaching highs that scare eyeline  
In the way of incoming plane
Near miss fatality
Then aircraft more clearly
too a hot air fare
Someone trashing up a car playing to the high
Not seeing beneath skies rise
So busy looking on the ground seeing the broken surrounds
Perhaps can view the two keeping one eye on the ground while flying soaring more
Knowing the level between it all
Releasing staying small

Up with the snooze
Later slight delay
Listen to the words on video play
Speaking of rockets how journey climb to align
Then washing up the crockery
I look and see balloons released to the clouds
So many balloons
Blue and white
Same colours
as rockets
that were
in flights
Zoom

I'm so tired of crying

Bow to You
Divinely Beautiful
Soul to Soul
Contact

Magpies hopping and flitting from branch to branch
Pigeon sits still silent in awareness

Balancing
when
winds
blow
in

Ego   says
I want love
Spirit says
You are
love

Urged to go to this place something drew towards this direction
You took to the stage your voice and song reminding me of favoured plays
I see you
You see me
Though upon your gaze I have to face away
I can't let you see through this cool charade
You might warm me with a look to melt
I feel a weakness wash over me
So giddy
You see

Wrap your arms around my golden glow
Beg for mercy in your solemn vow
On your knees I'll take you now
Never think I can't

Up the hill to climb
Rocks to step underfoot
Stumble then to rise
Only way to go
Place your weary feet
into my mould
My footprints
shall
guide you
home

A broken heart bares no scars to the eyes
You have to feel it
Then try again to open up
Closed little flower bud

I'm getting lessons in patience
I can't wait!!

Grieving over and over again
This time feels like death
Dying seemed easier before
This one has severed me from the core
Sometimes I long to take my final breath
To rest

In silent slumber the body rests
The mind adrift to shores unmet
Naked as a babe appearing as she laid
Watching its prey from the shadows
Casting its spell to freeze its victim from wake or shake
A body to overtake
To feed on the soul
A shell to leave empty scooped out hollow
This victim has met before with this kind
Shaking off when black magic enters the mind
Feel the body was about to slow
Energies force to tangle and pull
Scrabbling out of demons hell
The pit of darkness where the stricken and tormented dwell
Feeling freer now
Open eyes to prying light
A transparency in the air
Glitching twitching watching there
Eyes just stare
And I feel them looking back

Was it the sinner or the saviour
I'm sure they'll be back

In our darkness we are met with bleak
Them shadows taunt and haunt
We fear them
Each time shrieking in the dark
Over time we see but feel more accustomed to, we stay in center line or send them shadows love
New shadows emerge we feel, fear, we accept we purge again sending love when we may
The view becomes clearer it transforms to a mirror
The image reflects our inner beliefs and grievances
Everything that annoys you can be found in me and mirror reverse too
Everything that I treasure is within my sanctum my jewels are worn too within the mirror starer
We share this same space
Though you have to look closely at times
My distaste dislike love compassion empathy apathy security insecurity gift grievances are all mine and yours on similar line
We together carry share lift unburden and shed the load each time
Then to the next reflector
To see deeper and clearer
To mirror more love
acceptance and compassion

I now have a guilt I've spoilt our time
Again
I hope I can reset and restart

Forensics checking house across the way from me
Police busy on the beat
Can't help but look to see
But I know I'll have to let it go
Just to be

My demons are
Dark
Black
Shadows
Thin Tall and narrow
Alien
Grotesque looking
Lusting devil
Child size hollow
Freezing
Paralyzing
Clawing
Controlling
Manipulative
Fallen
Haven't seen some in a while
Though I feel them

I've seen
Dragons
Fairies
Ghouls
Ghosts
Deities
Aliens
Phantoms
Mystic eyes
Shadowmen
But Politicians!
I don't believe in them!  
Telling tall tales
Fables and lies
Wrapped up in 'for the people' guise
At least with Pinocchio you could see who pulled the strings and his nose grew when he was lying
Now where was I!
I have an prior arrangement with a Dragon
We are going flying to galaxies on high
To unexplored realms and starry sky!!...

The sky
showers for us tonight
Rays
            of
blue
              Light

In the brilliance of your absence
Heart of stone crushed and spliced
The soft scent haunted in the fragrant darkness of the night
The cold wind blew in with a steady might
The leaves spun and
fell right by my side
The cold
The
darkness
The
love
Warmth
The
light
Just a part of wholeness
of this very
life

Taste the bite
Fill the blood
See night vision
As you should
You may crawl
It's all good
Pinch me now
Let's
open         up

Body outer shell
The crust to our earth
Within us all
spirit
of
universe
There is no beginning or end..
..Infinitely
swimming
in
the
cosmos

In work
Seen as weird and whacky
Get things wrong they come up to smack me
So..
I can only do my best

Learning all the time

Expression to word the page
Of feelings had to date
All past pleasures and pains
The want to fill up again
The void that has been left deep in the soul
Sensitive to touch
Within a gaping hole
I line my sentiment on paper
Will the piercings ever heal
Love poetic
Ever be felt for real

There's a fire that burns deep from roots of the earth
It will not be extinguished it was grown from birth
From a small seed planted it grew inside
To battle against raging winds and perils to thrive
Burning brighter in adversity
Glowing in the breeze
Flame reaching brighter
To fire with all that it can be
Passion and spark ignite in flame trees
You will not be blown out
Bough before effulgent leaves

May trick be played upon your mind
Magik in your atmosphere

If I could stop my mouth running away from me
And shut my ears to the negativity
Maybe I could see clear and taste the victory

I'm naive
Who?
me??

It always amazes me how love can turn to pain in such a short
space of time