I'm naive
Who?
me??

I love you
I miss you
I just want to cuddle and kiss you
I would love to feel your arms wrapped around me again
I would love to lay my head on your chest and feel your heart beating
Hold hands palm to palm
Let me nuzzle into your neck
Smell that adoring scent
I love you and I'm missing you dearly
I would love to be able to tell you all this

Spilling from your body
The overflow to drain
Washing
to
the
wayside
Sediments of grain
Separation to feed again

Up and lift
Taken with the wind
Splash unto the skies
Spray to cleanse horizons eye

Arms wrapped around
Gaze to one another
Walking away from the chaos that surrounds
Into the ferns of green promised lands
Nature as their compass
Spirit their homely bound
To the buttercups of truth and light
The waterfalls of bliss
Dwells of butterflies and bluebells kiss
Passion flowers from every scent
Purity of stars of wildflower white
Caverns of sanctuary
Pools of plenty
Walking each other home
To live with love
And rest to a good night

I'm full of lunacy and anxiety
Don't worry
It's only in my mind

Look at me
with those crisp blue eyes
Kiss me
from
lip
throat
to
thighs
Work your way from bottom up
Smother me in kisses til I
Oooohhhh...
Shut
up!

******* the moon
Chanting alluring tune
'Oh come to me for I can see the world in all its glory
I know the land
The plan at hand
The tell of loves true story
Oh sing to me sweet melody
Of how we drifted as riders in tides of melancholy
How we surfed those bashing waves and held on to meet with shore
How we hold our hope so bold and cry out from core when we are washed to the deep once more
Knowing we will be swept the way we came before
Now I stand on moon so grand
And sing in reign so high
I feel the earth
How world will turn
And mighty power rests to mine side
So conjure up these spectacular skies to shower upon those held below
To lift from ache and past mistake
Rip the chains of grounds sorrow
Rise up!
Fill up!
Release the hollow..
For time is now to Unite!
Ignite!
Spark Up Bright!!
Connect with Divine Light as Sacred Offering
of
Recognition
to
Refined
Mastery
of
Tomorrow

The abandonment issues and rejection inherited and absorbed
It penetrates my core I push away
Any glimpse of the mimicking
I speak my truth
Put up barriers
I'm not sure what I'm more scared of to be left or to be loved

Mmmm... I can taste you on my tongue
Filling up with insatiable hunger
I want you in my mouth
Licking each
excitable
drop
Don't you just
love
bagels and cream cheese
Mmmm...
Tell me when to stop ✋

Close eyes to the world
Look within
Place your hands upon your heart then we can begin
Feel the pounding of your heart
Feel how it beats for you
Each pulse alive for you
It wants you to live
Show it your love and admiration
Fill it up with compassion
Allow the love you have so readily given away be with you
You deserve to feel your own heart
Give yourself comfort and care as you would a friend
Let any emotions come to light
No judgement attached
Be there for self
Give self time to love and mend
Open your eyes to the world ......
and smile :-D
You are doing your very best <3

Pointing at your targets like they are the ones to blame
Shooting them down in gargantuan shame
You do not like it when the finger points back to you and you are the one in a minefield of pain

Speaking your mind thoughts feelings and expectations never comes easy but it isn't easy to just keep going unhappy without speaking your truth
Those that appreciate you will understand
Those that don't ...
Well ...
How much did they care?

What do you do
Do you sleep late
Contemplate and plan the things you want to do
Do you watch movies
Play games
Be silly and act the fool
Do you get up early
Seize the day
Speak kind words even in trial tell yourself it'll be ok
Do you spend time alone
Converse with friends family a lover on the phone
Do you spend time in company you enjoy
Do you giggle like a school girl or boy
Let your hair down
Do you hold it all together when it feels it'll fall apart
Do you paint draw write create art
Do you pick your thoughts intentionally
Protect your space carefully
Do you meditate rest take time out mentally
Do you have a long hot soak
Nourish yourself physically
Do you give yourself a love note
Seek life's antidote
Do you release the emotions to lighter float
Wrap the layers of insulation coat


How do you take care of you?

Do you just read.. a book or two?

The universe responds to your frequency
We are energy so is the universe
We vibrate with that energetic correspondence
So this I understand
However alignment is an ongoing process
You cannot force the inner to meet the outer
The layers need to be shed gradually
You cannot force a belief upon another
If the belief is one they have learnt to belong to them
The belief will be questioned in time
When the host is ready to receive the message
When the being works through the conscious patterns and layering understands heals and becomes
Becoming when they feel the inward shift
Then to the outer world
we too become

Clouds forming images in synchronicity
Phenomenon
Far...
Beyond
me..

I get homesick
Even in the many places I've lived
For a place
Not sure even exists

I'm not looking for anyone
I'm looking for the one
The one who will stand at my side in this human life
Otherwise
I shall stay alone
Embrace the love inside

My life is not the 'norm' I live with my dog and ex boyfriend
I've been asked questions numerous times on this subject. Usually well do you not want to get back together? We would be if we wanted to. How does that work? With patience and growth. Have you tried dating? Yes we have. Usually followed by a kind of understanding when others see life isn't conventional, or the I'm not sure I could be understanding of that situation. The latter makes me feel strange like I'm a bizarre  odyssey never to be understood or accepted by a future love. Then I come back to me feel the love I am and realise they are just not where I am, why would they understand? It all comes from your own perception and life experiences.  All I understand is two people loving unconditionally in good and hard times being there for the dog we both equally love. Trying to live our unconventional lives as best we can. That I can understand :)

Shall I compare thee to a summers day?
Yes! I say
Then diving deeper I think away..
Hmmm.. If the sun were a little shady and the clouds took the glow and the birds chirped but pretty loudly rattling the
Windows
If the breeze too icy on the knees
Teeth chattered uncomfortably
Yes you can compare me to a summers day
In the uk anyway

As eyes meet
Hearts race
Feelings flood
Falling deep in gaze
Touch electric
Permeates sky
Kiss me now
Ascending butterfly
'Ohhh.. all a shiver'
Shaking as you kiss
Catch me now
Could surely die
Lay down drowning in this
Quenching the thirst
Fired flames are rising higher
Passion enraged
Immersed with the fire
Intoxicated flare much more than desire
So close and deep two worlds naturally conspire
A love no bounds heartfelt and true
All aquiver with notion
of you

Archangel protector deflector of the night
Sword splicing cutting baleful ties
Archangel wise putting out scorching fires
Release stabbing stitch to the flame
In your divine light you revive new life
from
the grave

Let's explore each other
from inside
out
Heart
to heart
Kiss to
mouth
Tender touch
Covering
skin
Love me as a woman
I'll treat you
as
a King

Dive
into
the ocean
Flowing with the waves
Passions on the high- rise
Love in every
way

Sun to heat the cool air
Breathing
deep
to
time
Take in sensitized feeling
Tune with cosmic rhythm and rhyme

Plummet
to
the
unearthed
Shooting over
stars
Coming home to heaven
For love is who
we
are

Walking by the florists
A voice called in ear
Said go in apply for job nothing left to fear
Ignored the signs the calling tune
After missed opening heart felt sad full of gloom
So days past got on with daily tasks
Wanted to get inner glowing feeling back
Following week heart echoed voice
Spirit sang and presented choice
The messages were there on route to path
So plucked up courage shadowed doubting mind of lack
Glad signs were finally followed
Now more uplifted
Universally gifted
Future is improved
Life in floral bloom

Always feeling never enough
And everything you do, will not be good
Its a hard battle and difficult prison to break out of

Every time a love is lost, does the blood spill out a little...
...drip by drop draining us til the heart beats with a lesser pound?
Is there a way to fill us up again?
Blood transfusions any prevail?
A kiss of life, restart the heart?
Resuscitation- fully restore us back to life?
Will it ever beat same strength as before?
............................ <3 .........................

Touch my face tenderly
My hands have gone numb

Lush green grass with daisy chain
Open plane across the field
Hearts so sweet
Where lovers meet
To bring them home again
Happy times
Yours and mine
Tasting strawberries fed to each
Lips moist with fruity juicy treat
Cupids bow touch to both
Spring times
intoxicating
exhilarating
mouth sating
appetizer
and
aperitif

***
without
love
no longer
an
option
Without, no desire
Will
put
out
the flame

Kiss my thighs
Feed from
a
Queen

Even from my earliest memories always felt alone
Now I can take some comfort from that

I'm not even sure they know the pain they caused
Resentment built up inside
Was it ego shame pity or pride
Then set up a meeting to look through their eyes
Witness to the life cycle they live and try to hide
To see from another side opened up a box of compassion to wipe up the releasing tears that cried
Clearer understanding
of the why

I'm tired of wanting
When really I want nothing
Maybe love
Although that's something already own
Just needs more time to grow

Think I'm scared to be strong
Somewhere in the past it's all gone wrong
Power and cruelty can sometimes blend
Turning allies into enemies
Turning away from your self
Humble is the straightest line
Though to be fear and weak does not serve
I guess some balance needs the mind
Always centre from the swerve

Take
            your            
  crumbled bits    
     and   
 build your castle

Trickling
droplets
fall
before
your feet
The sky clearing day of emotion
to release
Lighter now before the dawn
To start a fresh
for heavens
morn

Sensitives tend to seem like the most broken because they feel so much
They feel their own emotions
Their own thoughts
They feel the energy around them
The change in the air
They feel the energy of others
Even thoughts and words they don't share
Crowded places mixed messages rife
Sometimes solitude feels like a welcome respite
Warmth can be so overjoying
Cold a sharp frostbite
Daylight in the warm delightful
Daylight in the cold lost appetite
Night can be peaceful or full of insight
Dreams can be real escape or a harrowing fright
Friends can be real or pretend to be kind
Opinions can open mind or cut to the heart
Spirits can be a comfort or a startling dart
We can get tired all too soon
We can feel drained or fly to the moon
At times we just want to rest
Though we are creative at our very best

Panther
Sleek with black coat
You know when to stay in the shadows be one with the dark and when to be seen
Shine gleaming from your eyes
You see more than you give away
Sensual nature
Graceful
Playful
Spying your prey
Fearless
Clear sight
Moon power
Night
      Alive    
  Devour

Part in sleep
Spilling out
Words of muttering something about being good enough and love
A recording to play to think of
Urge to open eyes as I vaguely recall
There in the room a red colour heart on the wall
Smiling as it fades
Was it there at all
Meditation next day gives an ******* thrall
Passion circulating within
Deeper than any touching skin
Universe what position you have me in
Felt so good
It couldn't be sin
Healing light to love
and passion
begin

3am
Witching hour
For so many years became my alarm clock
Didn't need to see the time
Just woke

I was never really present because I could not keep replaying the old relationships and wounds
I couldn't fully let love in
Lesson learnt

I'm not necessarily here to be successful
I'm here to inspire

Wish there had been peace on the beach
Rather than storming them in battle under siege
Military force
Deadly hour
Costing life
****** shower
All in all for land pride and power

You rip me open
But all I see is dark

The tree it's seen the seasons
The changing shifts and falls
The tree it's been still standing sturdy strong and tall
The tree has bared witness to the scying calls
The tree it's held position with the crying skies
The tree it has its moments to bloom to shed for leaves to
drop
to
die
The tree it stands as monument to each battle cry
The tree it goes on growing ever nearer to the sky

How I must change
They pain feels stuck again
Moving toward where hearts lifts
Too much conflict has bound the wings
Telling self don't deserve good things
Peering into shadow sides
To come through tunnel
Ride through life
Take the lows but know the highs will flow
Its time to take a warrior heart so this one needs break to conquer and restart