Feel like I'm in the dark
Waiting
Hoping to see the light

11:11
The signs always there
A gateway to stop and stare
Numerous meanings the world cares to share
But notice we are
Awake to alarms
Times on the clock
On displays
Sighting
Every which way
Inviting us to hear spirits call past minds sway
Guiding light to lead humanity
to
better
destined
day

I've a thing with darkness
It holds me in its grasp
Reaching out to touch me deep
Cutting chippings from the rasp
Whittling to its root
Healthy stem is left to shoot
Raw edges growing into hedges
A border
Leading
to
the
dawn

I have a place I'd adore to be
It's my happy home
A room of joy
Good company
Family and friends together sitting cosily  
A room with warm roaring fire
Rosy decor
Laughter shared
Children and pets playing delightfully
Everyone smiling as love has its home

You have your views
I'll have mine
We see what we've seen
Known what we have known
Lessons learnt through mistakes made
Karma paid
Though the need to control another will never work
The beliefs many ways to see
The darkness the light the spectrum the haze
The glee the sadness the constriction the expansive ways
The shades of grey
The bright colourful days
One thing that may seem real may be an illusion to you or me
Our eyes see through to our periphery the behind past our  fronted forward ways the side step the leap and the stay
The wounds of hurt have obscured part vision
The cave became our sanctuary
The light sometimes a blight as we saw the shadows so deeply projected and directed
Though to see feel and understand these wounds brings in more room to understand not just for selves but for another too
Through this we grow
Sharing more of what we want to show from a more balanced state

It doesn't matter if we are not together
My soul will still love yours

They appear without forewarning
Marching in the night
Passing with the darkness
Creeping into light
Haunting your dreams
Peripheral blight
Though when you turn to face and really see they don't take too much notice of you or me
Toing and froing
Restless and relentless
But the more you become aware
The less they seem to scare
Maybe just here to test us
Learning
from
the
deep

Standing in your power
Moonlight shines the way
Purification
Justification
Judgement
Balance
Pillars of truth unfolding
At the mercy of your sin
A portal of life to begin
Regaining the measure once again
What crumbles on the step shall fall in
Steps to climb to win
Led by guiding will
Illuminate the movement and the time that stands so still
Sands clasping at the fingers
Water flowing to the hill
Chasm swirl
Torus counter earth
Mixing bowl
Magical

Rebirth

I can feel your energy
The words that you write
The age of your soul
The songs that reside
The mask from behind
which you hide
The poetry latent
lament
weeping
waiting to confide

Sunsets beauty stays even after the glow
Images of the fade
reaching
to the world below
Stars burn bright
Sight seen
from
space
The dying and the light
Wishing for
its place

Anything you can believe
you can see
A universe
of
connectivity
Swimming in
your
omni ~ sea

It wanted me to be scared and feed off my fear so it chased me in
my dreams
I woke up and the black mass moved away

Come closer
I won't bite
Ok a little
Lie
Kisses so soft your essence can't hide
Lips ride
Sharing our tastes satisfies
Dive in deeper
if you want to get high

Broken beings trying to be
Living with the misery
Taking the air from the dusty breeze
Longing for release

Soul
Full
peace

Smiles and tears all day
It aches but takes the pain away
All at the same time

Old soul
Tired mind
Thought about the outcome
Knows what you will find
Beautiful heart
Soul for all of time

Toxic bile
Pain for mile
A stone no roll can brake
A tender heart
Torn apart
With a dying no love can wake

The chaotic commotion of calamity moves down the tracks
Motion to move smoothly unhurried relaxed
Journey the bends with ease less taxed
Unwanted scenery of grey rain gloomy clouds
Looking to the gaps of blue
Any light peeking through
If hard to see
........................
Take a new seat

Nature
in
our bones
Connection
to the ground
Rooted in stems
Forests in my mind
Sometimes wither
Fall behind
Cannot reach out between the leaves

Speech like as babbling brook
Bubbling bumbling words get stuck
Panic attack struck
Ooooooohhhhhh....
Hope it soon goes
Hooooooooo...
Sounds blurt
out

Hands are cold
Feet won't warm
In bed covers form
In my mind the sun shines on
Filling up each day
Compassion and love
Eternal stay

Serpentine sleeping inside
Ground shakes
Fire ignites
You begin to wake
Come alive
Up you climb
Slithering
and
Writhe
Making body your own
Taking what you need to feed
Discarding which you disown
Coiling around and around
Energy circling now
Each layer removing
Heavy mount
By any means
Feeling crazy
but all is not how it seems
Visions dancing in periphery
Shadows meeting in nightly dreams
Fears full
Sleeping Screams
Shifting mindset from blinkered screens
Physical symptoms catastrophic bouts
World spinning thrown
round
Til it all comes
crashing down
And you begin to see life
Clear
Serpentine knows
What's best for you
My Dear

We are dying to ourselves
Our past has paved the way
The experiences shaped us
Sometimes got in our way
The surroundings opened or closed us
The longings tore our hearts
The not belonging fraught us
Told us we should part
We are dying to ourselves
The ones we thought we were
The ones we thought we had to be
Which shaped our darkly lair
We are throwing away the old
Tearing it at the seems
We are observing past patterns and pulling out the guillotine
We are dying to ourselves who we once were who we believed and deemed
The breaking down is painful but so has the images and beliefs we have seen
How do we become now
How do we begin
We start from what we love
The heart and souls dream
We build
The dream team

I can't move
I'm frozen in fear
Paralyzed
Tangled
Caught in your ropes
Hands bound
Can't cry out
Can only see
Be witness
Vision in the dark
Cry
Out!
Over now
Til again my fear breaks
free

Sometimes I don't feel so nice
Sometimes I feel annoyed
Bitter
Not feel light
I notice judgements cross my mind
Though I will be kind
I know no human is perfect
At least, I can see

It came through pierced veils
Dark night
Broken heart
Pray to God
And now I feel alone

When we should feel connected
I
watch them in their slumber

I feel the bitterness rise
But I don't want to betray myself

Leaves turning to another shade
Redding glow to winters fade
Harvesting of what became
Of what shall fall and drop
Ombre sunsets
Kindling
crops

People fear that which they don't understand
When will we fully understand

I just do it scared
and
keep practising it

Soft white earth untouched
Pure
Fresh clean elixir
Garden to cleanse tastes palate
Beauty perched in the air

Get your self to that loving happy place
To the beauty and heart full of grace
Be thankful for the world we make
The greatness and the small



But for today an echoing ache

It will all come back round to it's resting place

We can love
through
it all

What are your intentions
Do we make it clear
I see those who ment to support or love sneer
I see those who have no reason to give goodwill smile
We are a funny mixture of disappointment and worthwhile

Im going to take myself away
To explore more hidden pleasures
I'll strip and let my body touch with the air
Energies flowing in
Stroking senses  
Skin cherished
Feel body beautiful
Outside and in
Waking to new desires
Shaking from the thrill
Until
Nothing left to spill

Each night
I dream I'm dying so when it comes to death I'll be more prepared

You are not your pain
It's just there while you work through the issues

So I hear the world outside getting louder
The voices raised
Chaos filled
It's rowdy at times in the streets round here
The insecurities and aggravations take flight
I know what will sort out the roots of hurt
Alcohol and a good fight
When will they want to make it right
Look
inside
It's just another Saturday night

I will devote my life to you and let your radiant light flow
and
shine
through

If I could just be the space that lies between
each thought

each word

each memory

I wouldn't have to feel a thing
I would be free

On the outside I may seem calm and at ease
On the inside I'm screaming to be free

Ships passing in the night don't want to come too close or break upon each vessel
Colliding until wrecks ashore
Daybreak bring passing fleets
back
to
port
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Skin Blood
Bone
Brains Heart
Soul
Body a container for the soul
Ain't any less
This I know

Sabotaging self
Drifting in the sea fearing what's below and above me
Stuck in stage of limbo not knowing which way to go
Part of hope is sinking
Part of hope is drifting
A part wants to live
Some bits to forgive
Others to show them what I'm made of