Those years of head spinning were a maze to get through
Each day a struggle to do the basics you're so use to
Couldn't stand without falling to the ground
Sick so tired
Earth whirling shook me now
Even to rest was so sickening
If you were to sleep, when you were to open your eyes it would all begin
I found my medication in the words I read
Although that was such dizzying dread
Start small
Diet
Ginger to aid the ill
Tai chi to move the body balance bring to still
Yoga poses stretched the outlook
Exercise eyes following direction to all angles
Meditation and sounds to heal
Sometimes you feel you're not doing so well
But then you look back
And feel grateful more alive
to just be well

On the outside I may seem calm and at ease
On the inside I'm screaming to be free

Candle scents
Beautiful essence
Jasmine
Tropical blooms
Lifts the heart
Fills the room
Sunlight warming skin
Smiles glow in happy feeling
Sipping on a tasty brew
Contentment in a cup

Im going to take myself away
To explore more hidden pleasures
I'll strip and let my body touch with the air
Energies flowing in
Stroking senses  
Skin cherished
Feel body beautiful
Outside and in
Waking to new desires
Shaking from the thrill
Until
Nothing left to spill

Each night
I dream I'm dying so when it comes to death I'll be more prepared

Get your self to that loving happy place
To the beauty and heart full of grace
Be thankful for the world we make
The greatness and the small



But for today an echoing ache

It will all come back round to it's resting place

We can love
through
it all

They appear without forewarning
Marching in the night
Passing with the darkness
Creeping into light
Haunting your dreams
Peripheral blight
Though when you turn to face and really see they don't take too much notice of you or me
Toing and froing
Restless and relentless
But the more you become aware
The less they seem to scare
Maybe just here to test us
Learning
from
the
deep

555
Changing times

The waves bashed against the rocks
Pebbles Jagged
sunk
to
the
bottom
Ripples surrounded
Over
time
The stones were smooth

Oh beautiful day
Let the grey and the rain
wash the worries and fears away
The past was the yesterday
Tomorrow is the dawning
of a newly hatched lay
Take all that we've learnt
to spread and scatter
the seeds of loves
warmth and
precious
way

In
the now
be mindful
of how
why

and
what
we

do
and
say

I have a place I'd adore to be
It's my happy home
A room of joy
Good company
Family and friends together sitting cosily  
A room with warm roaring fire
Rosy decor
Laughter shared
Children and pets playing delightfully
Everyone smiling as love has its home

I feel the bitterness rise
But I don't want to betray myself

Sunsets beauty stays even after the glow
Images of the fade
reaching
to the world below
Stars burn bright
Sight seen
from
space
The dying and the light
Wishing for
its place

Sail on stormy seas
Forge
through
waves
so
deep
Man the decks 'a plenty
Steering left to right
Rocking n'
a swayin
Throw                
                      caution to the wind
Thrive on battered weathers
Adventure set to win
Horizon
                           sunny distance                            
New
islands            
in
plain                
             sight

I should sleep more but I don't want to get addicted
The dreams and rest can be intoxicating
I feel it as I rise
God knows what's inside

Enamored against his will
Her love became the chill
that warmed up
his
frosted
heart

You have to start loving your pain
Or you will hate it
and breed
             more

Ships passing in the night don't want to come too close or break upon each vessel
Colliding until wrecks ashore
Daybreak bring passing fleets
back
to
port
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Ceiling above shifts and moves
Dreams speaking unspoken words
Lift and pull rest and waking lull
Seen mesh with unseen
Wave length unknown
Lights out
Off we go. .

Toxic bile
Pain for mile
A stone no roll can brake
A tender heart
Torn apart
With a dying no love can wake

If you're not busy laughing
You're busy not laughing

From a place very familiar
A place of birth
Now older it's not the heritage that haunts
It's the strange but familiar haunters that visit to me

I can feel your energy
The words that you write
The age of your soul
The songs that reside
The mask from behind
which you hide
The poetry latent
lament
weeping
waiting to confide

When I go out I create the feeling I would like my day to bring
Is it happy calm amazing fantastic magical fun loving comforting
When I stay in I tend to feel let the emotions rise up and in
Write read meditate bathe soak exercise breathe release
letting go again

My most devoted friends are those I've never met

Broken beings trying to be
Living with the misery
Taking the air from the dusty breeze
Longing for release

Soul
Full
peace

You bought a book on psychic development although things happened before that
You watched a documentary on the universe and string theory and something inside pinched tight
You peered out from window up high and even with past suffering from society's taunts you saw oneness of all it clicked in your bones
When in bed at night you began to see shapes and sparkled light
Memory of man when visions ran shouting in your face
You thought a dream or so it seemed until he called the same
You recalled the visions from a child when imaginations
charged wild
The night came back
Never to be the same
Sights seen that make horror film and video games scream lame
So no matter how weak I may feel
I know there's been a lot to deal
Stronger for the scare and pain

..And suddenly the world changed

When I'm down
Kick
Kick
Kick
and Kick
One day I won't notice

     Or feel a thing

Serpentine sleeping inside
Ground shakes
Fire ignites
You begin to wake
Come alive
Up you climb
Slithering
and
Writhe
Making body your own
Taking what you need to feed
Discarding which you disown
Coiling around and around
Energy circling now
Each layer removing
Heavy mount
By any means
Feeling crazy
but all is not how it seems
Visions dancing in periphery
Shadows meeting in nightly dreams
Fears full
Sleeping Screams
Shifting mindset from blinkered screens
Physical symptoms catastrophic bouts
World spinning thrown
round
Til it all comes
crashing down
And you begin to see life
Clear
Serpentine knows
What's best for you
My Dear

Old soul
Tired mind
Thought about the outcome
Knows what you will find
Beautiful heart
Soul for all of time

If I could just be the space that lies between
each thought

each word

each memory

I wouldn't have to feel a thing
I would be free

Standing in your power
Moonlight shines the way
Purification
Justification
Judgement
Balance
Pillars of truth unfolding
At the mercy of your sin
A portal of life to begin
Regaining the measure once again
What crumbles on the step shall fall in
Steps to climb to win
Led by guiding will
Illuminate the movement and the time that stands so still
Sands clasping at the fingers
Water flowing to the hill
Chasm swirl
Torus counter earth
Mixing bowl
Magical

Rebirth

Smiles and tears all day
It aches but takes the pain away
All at the same time

Seems like in relationships it just teaches me where I need to work on self worth
As when I love another outside me
I'm only left feeling incomplete
lonely
Though I hurt less
alone

Do you want a taste of me,
or to feel me?
There's a difference
between
the two

Black & White
Yin & Yang
Captivating drawing presence in
A trance into the contrast and parallel
The beauty in the dark and light dwell
Calling into balance
Awareness
Rise and Fall
Complementary enthral
Opposites to bring whole

Smiling all the way home
I walked with skip in step
Surrounding nature's beauty
Life's radiant breath
Leaves rainfall on the ground
Colours bright from floral bloom
Emerald and amber garland hanging frame of picturesque view
Love and earth in harmonic tune

I just do it scared
and
keep practising it

He pulls her in close
Both stood in front of the mirror
He turns her around to see
He whispers softly in her ear
" I see it in you"
She replies "What?"
He replies
"Me!"

A garden of extensive beauty
Luscious greens swaying in the wind
Vines climbing reaching high
Flowers growing in the meadows scented smile
Fountains of youth
Rows of bountiful fruit
Lakes of shimmery sparkle
Pools of warm waters embrace
Sunsets of passion
Sunrise of lights ray
You are the setting scene
You are the King
You are the Queen
You are the love of a new day

There's a hole in my aura a scar I must heal
There's a burning in the solar an effigy to feel
There's a sorrow in my heart from the winters summer has concealed
My mind can plague or amaze
Thoughts can progress or drag sober or lag
Spirit flies above lack
Love calls me back

I will devote my life to you and let your radiant light flow
and
shine
through

I will not lie down with your abuse
I will not bow down to your disregard and misuse
I will no longer feel shame for pain caused by your wounds
I will not apologise for the way you handled the truth
But I will be honest with you

You've lived the lows
You've died inside
You've met the love that stole your heart your mind
You've despised the self
You've cried
Too many times
You can't go back
Onwards you must climb

People fear that which they don't understand
When will we fully understand