Every action has a consequence a reaction a lesson a karma a dharma
I would like to just have a bit of fun
But whose gonna take the arrows out

I was thinking
I take myself far too seriously

And
then we laughed

It happened again last night my dreams turned to twisted frights
Heavy duty bombardment of malicious fights
Standing strong to protect my rights
Kicking back to remain in the game
Fierce attacks to render weak
Blocking the blows and gripping tight hands to throw force off
Mighty brawl
No backing down
Push back hard
Stay off the ground
Has a hold on me
Who was this attacker
Why so focused on solar plexus chakra
Wake up
Shocked
Dazed
Hands clenched tight over body centre of three
Will the power to move on...
Was this for harm or for betterment of me

I feel you
I feel it all
I sense the inner knowing call
You don't need to speak I've seen
I've felt the vibrations from sacral deviation
It's hard to feel the buzzing circling sickening seal
Now I wait to feel so much more
Will you give it this time
Soul love of mine
Can I be
sure

Lightworker path sounds like a positive laugh
How we spread our gift of joy and sunshine
It's merriment is overlooked
Mistaken
Mistook
Worker of the light has lived in the dark night
Over and over again
Death of self and friend
Only insight and pen
To share the tale of wisdom spent
To never want another to bleed in Hell
To pass the torch to trauma tormented cell
I'm apparently strong enough to live this
That I keep telling my self and all is well

There are secrets, stories no one knows
We can be brave or happy on the face of things but beneath it all lie the fragments of learnt behaviours, enforced patterns, guilts, pains
Deeper feelings with meaning that tear at the soul
A want on the surface to be whole
Bleeding sorrows scratch
.....All along...
....the undertow.....

Apparition
In
which world
do
you
belong?

Your eyes to me they bring delight you see
They bring the smile that I brightly feel
Your smile it is so beautifully warming and that makes me smile even more
Your dimples so cute I love to see you in your happy glory
That is the part of the story
I do adore
The colour in your eyes they bring a sense of home
There is comfort and depth and a heartwarming beautiful soul
I love you
Just want you to know

Stretching out
Stretching wide
Stretching up
Reaching from inside
Posing in child to realign
Sending love to the heart body soul and mind

Don't own a lot
But to some
I own the world
A safe place to sleep at night and roof over my head
Running water and food
To some they don't come easy and many go without
It makes my heart ache to know in this life people endure such agonising pain and no home no fixed place
This year from past wanted to donate
Reserved meal for Christmas health checks and roof over head for a person at least
This Christmas I will be thinking of those that have less and I hope they too can enjoy a merry good feast

Realise how locked away I've been
Easier to close the door
Than let another in
Have to have discernment for sure
Though fear of vulnerability shuts back more
Gentle is the key
Steady is the hand

Angel on fire
Reaching higher and higher
You can burn these wings
She can fly by herself

O' hark Wren bird you come to my windowsill
You're on the lookout
I watch you watching all around you
You see what must be done
What is clear or what's in your way
Your song you choose to sing
You will not be frightened or threatened away
Bold and resilient
Plumage stands out
Head held high
Chest feathered strong
You will not be weathered by winters throng
Thank You for visiting and stopping by
The God and Goddess messengers of the sky
  Off little Wren goes to perch with joy in birds eye

Let's make an ASMR video together
I'll play with your hair
Stroke your back
Rub you all over in lotion

If I am to be peaceful and centred
I must be able to stand in it in the face of adversity

The stronger and nonconform ant you become
The more you meet resistance/
and judgement
Bring it on!
It's just your fear
Your want to fly
kiss me with your blessing
or wave to the sky!

I am beautiful
and so
are you :-)

Wrapped up in warm quilt
Eyes heavy now
Stresses relax to mellow moods
Letting go...drifting with tranquil solitude
Tummy filled with fragrant sweet foods
Tingling in body
Heart flutters light
To be at one with dreams
I must go!....
To all a
good
and
peaceful
night!

Why do I waste my time
Why do I settle for less than my worth
Do I even know my worth
I know each is worthy but then it takes its toll
The bell rings another round of disharmony
I'm left to
               change
it's tune

Messages to the dream
Signs of what they mean
Woman and man soon to be wed hand in hand
Mistrust towards man
Cannot comprehend trusting nature of woman
Chances are won't go to plan
That is all I see
Don't understand why he's doting so willingly
While she looks to him so openly

Young girl always saw the world
The people the bustle the hustle the worry
Never seemed to slow down
Pain and sorrow painted on a smiled frown
Felt the jabbed ****** in her fingertips
Rode up to her spine and mind
Couldn't shake the screams off
So she learnt to try
To try get by.
A memory that would never leave
The moment her hands played in sand and she forged a new wonderland
Just play was all she found
Forgot the world in a grain of sand  .

Barriers are getting knocked
down
So what if I get hit
I'm use to batting back

From a place very familiar
A place of birth
Now older it's not the heritage that haunts
It's the strange but familiar haunters that visit to me

These scars they tear at the heart
They pull at the seams
Pop the blisters
Let the ooze bleed clean
The energies giving up on me
Gravitational force of negativity
Keep on circling swirling perpetual fiend
Scuffling and laying into sensitivities
Not wanting to fight
Though still
Insides Scream
Then a light is found in the bewildering scenes
Bringing back
to
the
trophic preen

If you are low
I want to help you
I want to help you grow
Help with each feeling you sit with
Be there as a friend and confident
Pick you up if need be
It's ok
Cause I know the balance
And you do that for me

Woken up by clapping
When I was deeply napping
Unsure the cause
Then tide drew in the wars
Wanted to spray the walls how dare I not recall at this early hour
You are a ****
was the
venomous
shower
I engaged with
That is your deadly power

Already
died
internally
May as well live
Externally

I live in the divide between dark and light
I am split and joined by the bind
Oscillating lines
Some times merging with confusion
At other times nothing
Silence
The rest and the fears can pull us through
Dark can be a background to view
Showing us what effects have given us drive to do
That which has sent our minds askew
Pushing us into the blue
Light shining on the simplest grain
Highlighting our pleasures and pain
We are but two
Though we are one
Part of the trinity

A trailblazer you were of fire and heat
Cut your own cloth unravelled in silken sheet
A sparkle to your facet
Though when you met with her
She became your sun
When heat applied to stone
Over exposure drew you dull
Fading
into
Sunlight
.
.
Falling
topaz
.
on
comets
run

There's no doubt in my mind that life's journey at times will stumble into chaos
The warmth of the wheel has to cool
Even if you feel like you can't move and are stuck
You know the spokes will spin round again

Hands like ice
Body shivers
Blankets wrapped tight up to ears
Feeling the chill of cold bitter spill
Doing best to stay warm
House holds comfort with spectre spirits of soothing loving
warmth

555
Changing times

Every day those words were unleashed
Like wild wolves hungry to sink their teeth
I grew tired of the chase, the capture
Was it really me they bloodlusted after?

Words tore me open!
Ripped me apart!
Dug at my soul!
Devoured my heart

Watch as I SCREAMMMMMM..............
TERROR INVADES
AS THE BLOOD SEETHES AND SPILLS DEEP FROM MY VEINS

Body in tatters
Strewn on the ground
Hallowed out shell
No life to be found

Time changes everything
My body decays
Food for the insects
Vultures take their meaty pick
From bone to ashes
The ground becomes thick

On the winds I will blow and
on the soil I will grow
No pain no more as we reap the seeds that are sown
From darkness the fallen will rise high to the skies
Greater than was ever known before,
in our eyes

Those years of head spinning were a maze to get through
Each day a struggle to do the basics you're so use to
Couldn't stand without falling to the ground
Sick so tired
Earth whirling shook me now
Even to rest was so sickening
If you were to sleep, when you were to open your eyes it would all begin
I found my medication in the words I read
Although that was such dizzying dread
Start small
Diet
Ginger to aid the ill
Tai chi to move the body balance bring to still
Yoga poses stretched the outlook
Exercise eyes following direction to all angles
Meditation and sounds to heal
Sometimes you feel you're not doing so well
But then you look back
And feel grateful more alive
to just be well

A light waiting to break
out
Placed behind these bars
This cell
Sometimes they peek
through
Some times they hide in the shadows

Sometimes the pain stings
Sometimes it cuts your heart to bits

You bought a book on psychic development although things happened before that
You watched a documentary on the universe and string theory and something inside pinched tight
You peered out from window up high and even with past suffering from society's taunts you saw oneness of all it clicked in your bones
When in bed at night you began to see shapes and sparkled light
Memory of man when visions ran shouting in your face
You thought a dream or so it seemed until he called the same
You recalled the visions from a child when imaginations
charged wild
The night came back
Never to be the same
Sights seen that make horror film and video games scream lame
So no matter how weak I may feel
I know there's been a lot to deal
Stronger for the scare and pain

..And suddenly the world changed

Pushed into the cracks the budding little plant
Expanding in the soil
Contracting to the ant
Filling from the hollow
Darkness creeps around
And within that darkness
Light
is
found

Dancing till the world ends

&

heaven is our home

If you have a gun
You have no control

Feel like I'm in the dark
Waiting
Hoping to see the light

The waves bashed against the rocks
Pebbles Jagged
sunk
to
the
bottom
Ripples surrounded
Over
time
The stones were smooth

Inhale it in
Exhale it out
The air the breath from the universal sky
Without your pulse
Surely
I could
die
  
  I've felt choked for quite some time
Choking on my own
decline

Love is the fuel
that times
the rhyme

11:11
The signs always there
A gateway to stop and stare
Numerous meanings the world cares to share
But notice we are
Awake to alarms
Times on the clock
On displays
Sighting
Every which way
Inviting us to hear spirits call past minds sway
Guiding light to lead humanity
to
better
destined
day

Looking back see where I was
Lost in translation
Voice silenced by noise
So much fear and anxiety
Consuming life
Not sure wanted to live
Not sure I could die
Stuck in limbo of heart and mind
Found ways of hurt to self medicate
Too many pills
Destructive measures
Toxic relationships
Carried around the remnants of those breaking treasures
A lot of work to heal the wounds
Another view
Holistic route
Couldn't go on with no sense of worth
Too many years felt dead from birth
Shy child scared to talk
Wanted to listen
Thought my opinions be retort
Joked about the shyness
Thought **** it I'll speak
Whatever I did was seen as weak
Still have a way to go
But now I hope
Instead of wallow
Heart made hollow to fill back up
Feel my love is a steady cup
In time may overflow
Be myself
Not feel obliged to run with the herd
Accepting difference
Wanting to make it so
Help those who relate
Have faith to grow
Might not seem much even if it's just
To share words about lonely worlds
Others may know
not so alone

Sunsets beauty stays even after the glow
Images of the fade
reaching
to the world below
Stars burn bright
Sight seen
from
space
The dying and the light
Wishing for
its place

Oh beautiful day
Let the grey and the rain
wash the worries and fears away
The past was the yesterday
Tomorrow is the dawning
of a newly hatched lay
Take all that we've learnt
to spread and scatter
the seeds of loves
warmth and
precious
way

In
the now
be mindful
of how
why

and
what
we

do
and
say

They appear without forewarning
Marching in the night
Passing with the darkness
Creeping into light
Haunting your dreams
Peripheral blight
Though when you turn to face and really see they don't take too much notice of you or me
Toing and froing
Restless and relentless
But the more you become aware
The less they seem to scare
Maybe just here to test us
Learning
from
the
deep

Clearing    clawing   sound

Stalking   prowling    round
Kitty likes to PURRR!!..
Stroke flaming primal fur
Do You think you can get closer??
Or will I get my meal first?
Paws
for thought

It's just a tiger claws