How many times do we die in life
Were we ever really living ?

Mmmm... That honey sure tastes good
dripping off your fingers

Full of thorns
One ***** will make you bleed
All around dies in ash lined ground
Blood trickles
Seeps
into
the
roots
of decay
Soaking in
Growing Grief Sin Misery
Flourishing in Rosy Grey

Dreams
blend in
to reality
So is it
just
a dream

Always fear of the wasp kind
A pesky insect couldn't abide
Only stung once in life
But as child the memory was horrific
This year for months had to negotiate window open and closed
A hive of activity above the rows
Swarming about sometimes come in to check home out
Would hide by door
If close fall further back into retreat
Not fancy them applying stinging spree
The more eye saw the more to see
Not really interested in causing anarchy
Fly from floral pattern to swirls on the roof hoping for some plant to root
Started getting closer to open window wide could get out not stuck inside
Got to a point on handheld tissue they would hop to venture out without wounding plot
Then one day
Call out had been made for colony to be smoked away
Neighbours couldn't cope to have them creatures stay
I understand a pest to family
But wish nature and man could live in much more harmony
Now gone
Unstung melody
Though not a victory that taste so sweetly
To the wasps that lived above me

Set your thoughts adrift
Build them onto Viking ship
Let them float away....
As fire burns to ash
Sink into depths of sea
Water cleanse with purity
Fall heavenly asleep
Rest among the deep
Tranquility and peace
Take my thoughtful place

Conversations numbed
Words
left out
Parts hidden away
Not through shame
Sometimes diminished misunderstanding
with less to say

It's so much easier to heal online because of the anxiety and empathy
It gets in the way
you see

Demons lull
with
tormenting
lullaby
Clawing at
insides
Compiling missing parts putting back together to make abstract art
Tearing into the heart
Shredding it apart
Voices of ridicule
Calling out as a fool
It's not they who's cruel
Dragging down into the mud
But they forget
It's there
I grew

There's a shadow
    across
               the window
The light makes it clear

Does mental illness really exist?
Killing in the world
Do you want to be apart from this?
Cruelty to the animals
Do you want to belong to this?
Oppression to the masses
Do you hope that this passes?
Suppression of our senses
Would you rather not mention?
High prices and toxic slices on natures vegetation
Segregation in worlds population
Borders of control to soften the blow
Deprivation
Frustration
Do I fit into this placement?

Dissociation

I feel healthy now
Do you ever Wonder
Why?

I dreamt I was in a horror house
Each room a different torture fear and dread
The stairs a spiral it all came back to you there was no way out only to venture through
The creepy whispers began the ride
Stepping on from each curtain call
A man old and tall a vibe didn't much like or trust
I kept him close but up in front
Strange in manner and speech something sinister lurking dark underneath
He gave me some scissors can't recall why
He gave me the chills and kept asking for them back it felt off
Only once taken to the next level did I hand them back as I closed and held the door shut
A corridor rooms trimming the path
In one copulating couples frantic with lust as men lay chilling in  ice filled bath
A man with a blunt instrument and a heavy wielding axe
I need not know anymore organs wanted for guts and gore
Apparently victims decision to give it a go
Perhaps wrong choice of words as I left after hearing that
With side vision of bludgeon head whack attack
Not sure you could come back from that
Landing a lost women blind eyes dripping with blood I held her hand asked if anything to do if I could
Leading back to her room a grimace and laugh across her face she was able to see it was all a hoax but the ghost of true fate did awake and to that she met her match
Black mass taken as her deathly catch
Shifting shape to serpent came to me after that
I closed the door to her hiss
In I stood with a woman kinder now something lost some sorrow
felt somehow
Adolescence son they hadn't met in some time
Bound to the room with a presence that spoke but an object refusing to let go
We all spoke we made a plan to get out we all knew it's what we must do
Then I woke up to the sun

Let his mouth touch so beautifully with mine
as poetry is in soft light

A country cottage little cliche winding path
Roses planted in the garden as flowering buds border the home
A place where garden and house combine to grow alongside each other
To be feeling fresh air in both lungs, outside and in
A place to call my own where the wildlife roams willingly and I finally feel free
Maybe adding a little view by the sea :)

Rip my heart open and let me melt within your flame
I burn for me only
I'm still
on
fire

Serpents desire
To rise
Slithering through the illusions and the lies
Opening eyes to which you feel despise
Cutting it up
Cauterize
Venomous bite
Only with the fear
Nature divine
Once love is near

Your compassion tends
the wounds of the
world

Endings before beginnings
All is changing
Rearranging
Moving around the furniture
Let's hope the armchair is placed in a comfortable position
And the bed is filled with peace and love
The windows open to the sun
Nature is in bloom
Harmony flows through every room
...

Each day a new symbol
Sign
Synchronicity
Vision
Dream
No ear in close range that wants to listen
I turn to God

Words
drip
          onto skin
Soothing
with
sensitive touch
Smoothing
over
                    curves
and
lines
Feeling
        light
pressure
sink
gently
with
each
stroke
Body flows
to
release
and
comfort
Easing
into
rest..

It's all in your head
The imagining
The thoughts you dread
The scripts you've repeatedly read
The what if
The could be
The we will see
Some times I reach for release
And follow my heart
Going in deep

Fill me up with your love
I am open
X

She feels so much
Deep in her gut
Some days feels like her hearts been stamped on and punched
Then thrown away
But when she smiles
Eyes wild
Excited child
The world comes alive
She thrives and dives into the cosmic flow of inspiration and amazement
What a glorious creation
Time to play and have some fun
Sharing the glow with every one
Touched by her ecstatic buzz

I saw an apple one day with a band of O
I saw a rainbow the other covering church and home
I'm seeing numbers 4's and 5's constantly thrive
I read a message then it's content comes to life
Images flash before my mind
Dreams spill as I open my eyes
People become the mirrors of time
Time becomes the frequency in line
Lines are waves speaking hello or goodbye
Distant are the memories memories were our thoughts find
Voices join together words align
Growth gains pleasure some pleasures get left behind
Opposites come to meet too similar a pain may greet
The light shines in the dark
The dark attracts to the light
Energies bring us down or up high
Though sometimes as we hang our feet dance in the sky
As we buried in the dirt our roots begin to blurt
Resistance beckons the hurt
Flowing is lighter
Holding is tighter
Passions burn brighter
Desire is a fighter
Ego falls again
Then we birth from fallen women and men
Feeling the love in everything
Wanting for nothing
Then love again

He knew just what he was doing
He got all the right places
That movement
That ******
Action
Effortless
Such suction
Deep into the crevice
Great with a hoover
Terrible up my hmmmmm...

Fear of death
Facing the fear
A hearse parked up outside my house
Eye to the coffin
Blessings to their soul
I also dreamt I was stabbed
It wasn't just a dream it was lucid
I let the knife go in
I felt it go in
Then I woke up

You can see what you want from the outside
You don't know how someone is living in the inside

Big hearts masked by the dark

When did we lose our way

I woke up and I went to hell
I saw the demons came
The shadows
The voices call out my name
The visions they envision they plague
Then the angels the song unnamed
The blissful cave
I cave to thee
Let it be
The wings love me
deeply

Dreaming of a future with less struggle
Not to worry bout the restrictive huddle
To feel the joy of movement
To dance inside this skin
To have time to be with family and friends and ways to treat them to days that we will never want to end
But for now...
I dream

For all those moments you die a little more inside

It teaches you to live

These Mirrors
Hold too many visions
It's shine can be blinding and illuminating
The shadows can be contouring and devouring
It just depends on how we see
Highlights to walk
the
halls way

Door ways
all
around

Beyond the haze of life
There's a place where I roam
A place to the otherside
A space of spirit home
Colours vivid and bright
Animals wild and free
Tribes dancing chanting rituals rites
Healing takes it's throne
Deep into the unknown
I wonder completely
Visions shown

Take me into your hands
Rub me gentle and slow
Massage tenderly
Perky will grow
Breast care is
valuable to know
Do it alone or a close friend
someone willing to grace with
a healthy healing glow

Live
Forgive
Love

I'm disappointed in others
I'm disappointed in myself

Feeling like a failure never came easy
I have decided this to be truth of me
As my life is a hash of what I wanted it to be

The middle ground knows it's hard to see
But between it all lives the beauty
The gratitude of what is and the delicate simplicity
The acceptance of the now


The higher self knows all
It glides far over the wall
It sees the deeds the seeds the rise the fall
Does it beg for more
Or guide the call

Where am I now

I fell in love with that music today
It made love to me in every way
Chest pounding
Toes curling
Stomach dropping
Elevated bliss
The music flowed through waves and penetrated at the core
Emotions flew
Tears rolled down face
Angel wings at foot of bed
Took to Angelic resting place
Passion now reinstate
That's how love should feel and taste
Who could ask for more

Magic
blends
with those
who
believe

I've taken so much more than I can bare
I let you into my life again
I gave you a chance to do it all differently
I gave you compassion and understanding for your difficult time
I made you laugh
I made meditations to help clear your mind and heal your heart
But you didn't want to know
Bit by bit truth came to unravel
The lying eyes you've been hiding behind
Playing with my heart my love my health my life for a second time
I've been feeling like I'm on a merry go round
A rollercoaster ride
And I feel sick now
I've watched as you vented your anger towards another and still tried to see your side
And now you show me all your actions been a lie
You wanted her
The one you went to after you broke my heart the first time
The years I spent healing myself
And when I'm just getting better you think it's ok to come in and just say hi
And pick me up when I made peace with the goodbye
Now everyone is bad in your eyes
When I was struggling need a supportive line
You told me you still want her
Am I just a play thing with no shine
Not to me I'm not
Worth so much more than you will ever know

The dark was calling one way
The light the other
Turned to face the light
Although was in dark room under cover
Wish the battle would end
Can't we just rest in peace and not toss and turn at wits end
Try the very best to be good
But don't be misunderstood
Possess a dark side
Haunting presence cloaked black hood
Sinistrous beasts burden the night
Serpents living in blood
Can give a deadliest fright
However we may fear something ominous which could be of the light
Shift in hindsight
Just trust and keep the faith to stay right

X can be a kiss of love or a mark of death

A star can be a shining sparkle or a fiery breath

A fiery breath could be a rebirth or a forceful hell

Force can be with action of productivity to do well or to take and destroy others as you swell

Swelling could be an expansion or overfed bloat

Overfed could be fatten it could be expansion

Bloat could be soft and flabby or protrude extend beyond project out

What are you projecting

What is the deeper /hidden meaning all about

I'm going for a wee
Having a cup of tea
And doing some tai chi
In that order hopefully
I knew there was a reason I wrote all this poetry
Maybe??...

From where we came
From order
From the ground
Taking each stair
Into the doorways of opportunity
The grand entrance
The arch ways
The community of faith
The dark far reaching caves into the now future and past
The warriors of war
Those who assist
The knights of templar
The humans of good will
The opening
At the mercy of the sea
Waves flowing lashing back over to me

Just because you feel sad, alone, and unhappy
Doesn't make you any less worthy
It's just the way you feel right now

I find myself dying again


I just have to drift off somewhere between the waves

Go within
See what's with-out