I thought I was punished for seeing such dark
I don't know, maybe I am
But the more I've learnt and the more I saw
I think it's more a preparation rapport  
Knowing the dark to find such light
To be aware of struggling battle but have peace
with good intent in mind to right

I want to enjoy our time together and not fear for when he's not here
Can I not just enjoy and love in the moments we have together

Negligee slipping off her shoulder
His hard beating chest pounding to undress
To caress and feel her depths
Eyes soul-stirring connect
Lips break the silence
Kisses sweet and juicy
Soft then fully
Thriving with every thirsting breath
Slowly he slides down night dress to admire her curves and supple *******
Fingers tracing shape and voluptuousness
Stroking licking ******* her tenderness
She moans ******* *****
He loves the impression his taste has met
Hand prises her thighs apart
Fingers brush a work of art
******* lace and pleasure grips
She writhes and shakes her thrusting hips
Her excitement is on his fingertips
He feeds her mouth
Then inside he slips
Tickling her soft and slow
Riding her ****** flow
Her desire
His fire
Higher and Deeper they go..

Our frequencies attract
Yin and Yang
A cosmic bang
The universe
is
expanding
all
the
time
So evolving together
or
      we realign

Skin peeled back
Organs rearranged
Stirred
Heart stabbed
Pain in leg
Arm
Head
Back
Ailments ease
Liquid seeping ears
Surrendering to up high
Releasing fears
Let it be
Let it be
Lessen the structured grip
of outwardly
Focus
to
light
energy

When the suffering comes it hurts
The heart feels tight
The head muddled and fuzzy
The mind irritated
The body pained and numbing
The ears hear all too well the spluttering conversations and monkeys chatters swell
The mouth bumbling lines that don't quite feel right
The spirit knows
Insight
The lesson and the emotions will be shared in time
Unity
Combine our dear sentiments

Dreams came in like
Crashing Waves
Bashing and
Thrashing against
Rocks
of
Harboured graves
Wanting to release
to
pools
of
peace

You left
I wasn't ready
Were you ready to say..
goodbye
Now
separate in physical form
Connected
by
our
hearts

Too much dark consumed the soul
To dig way out to reach a goal
Finding all will come and go

Leaves you in the here and now
Take a bow!
X

Some people's deep
Goes far beyond
the
grave

I'm growing myself and loving me there
You see the past I've met love from lack that I've shared

Share your pain
You never know when another stands in the same rain
Share your light
A chance to make it shine

Always said what he meant
Cutting it fine
Score between lunacy and sublime
Living for the beauty and the outrage of a crime
Passion blazed across his fiery eyes
Sharp steel
He made you feel
There was no going back
Plunging forwards
Hold onto your horses!
"There's no time for that!"

Cast a shadow to us
To face the sun
Keep your light within strong
Moon will recharge reflect back
Illuminate when it's
time comes

In sorry if you mistake my scars for weakness
I'm sorry if you think I'll be putty in your hands
I'm sorry if you think I'm a little lady
I have a voice
Show me a real man
Either way I will still stand
So step aside

He had nothing but still
touched my soul
and said God Bless

Woke up
to see
eye
looking
back at me
Big stare
Long eyelashes
Negative flashes
Was it letting me know
Was it projecting the show
Was it saying no more
Or evening up the score
In any case it woke me
from that
tormentful
dream

Sometimes the pain is so strong
You need nothing

To go on

Can you hear the angels calling to you
The words no need to say
A knowing within yourself
Numbers to guide upon the way
Whispers to echo thoughts flowing chain to chain
Poetry pulling at the core
Spilling pen to paper
The more you trust and believe
Be open to receive
Synchronicity
Universal unity
Living in divinity

Play the chord
How's that sound
Is it in tune now
Pluck the string
Is it harmoniously resonating
Is there a healthy tone
A happy flow
Or does the note fall a little flat
A bit off key
Match the response to the melodic frequency

Spill your guts out on the floor
Grind and writhe til you can't take anymore
Feel it fill you up in horror
Darkness invades be no tomorrow
Let it spew
Let it
      slide
It builds and sticks
to
insides
Hurting, it is too much
It's your medicine
Can't you taste the punch
Now swallow hard and replace
with
love
You're healing
It's in your blood

Answer the call of your spirit
Go to where it lifts
Each has their own signature and personal creative gifts

Hands on
Warm glow
Head resting on comfy pillow
Blanket sweet
Crystals neat
Vibration sensation at my feet
Thoughts coming up
Feel want more to let go
Touch to the feet spiral of rainbow fly up to greet
Sticks of a cross with white lights all aglow
Sun shining through from the window
Water after energy flow
Talking to a friend you feel you know
Tears of release
Flush of relief
Voice says keep letting go
Be here now

Between sleep and dreams
All is not as it seems
Your eyes have awoken from sleeping state
though your mind rests in an altered place
Peeking through the veil of human sight
At first the apparitions can be dark as night
Luring over you with intense imagery to fright
As your thoughts evolve and your fears subside
Perception changes and views more of the light
Shapes and pattern come to life
Flashes illuminate
Words write
People appear
Orbs form dance and disappear
Messages connect deep inside
Other realms from closed mind hide
All is not as it seems
Between
sleep
and .....
dreams

Want me to love you??
Love yourself!

This love it makes you love hard
It loves through the pain and the tears you have cried
It pulls so deep fermenting inside
It lives through it all
It loves unconditional
Doesn't matter what's said and done at all
It grows with the fall
So understand it may hurt but hold on be strong as you can
Cause God and the Universe
are hatching a master of a plan

The radiators been leaking all day
Buckets filled
Emptied
Back and to
Drips from the ceiling
This house like the money pit
Try all day to smile
Be grateful
Know a lot more worse off
But state of these rented accommodations inside just reeling
Drink some more wine
Before water too leaks from these eyes

The pen entranced
to
meet
with hand
Words flow
from
the mind
The pen takes lead and scrolls the lines
To make the page it's own
Wizards
Poetry
and
Rhyme
Console from Higher Prime

Y
an
open
letter
U
know
Y
It's heels face out from the ground
   Palms  
  to
   the     sky

The sky looks heavenly
Golden clouds passing by
Pale blue between sunlight
Golden leaves glowing warm and bright
Pair of birds bound
for
onwards
flight

I sink but don't drown
These tears I've cried before
It never killed me
I've died inside over n over
My soul is my home
My love is a tower
You can knock it down
Then I'll rebuild again
even higher

Dreams of flying
Angels wings
Buffalo in open fields
Maybe in dreams need to be free

Meditation was deep
Hand came out of water feet washed on beach
Carried by the ocean dragged panicking into the deep
Pulled underground where hell is met
Down the dark caverns of pain and torment
Scrabbled back up
Gripped by an eagle
Dropped to the sea where open mouth of shark awaits feed
Into the mouth
Swallowed up
Somehow shot out
Back with the eagle flew to ledge to peer about...

I've acted from both fear and love
             I see where they link and overlap

Dripping
Shaking
Sweating cold
Death of life consumes the soul
Transformation
taking hold
Darkness digs sharp into the bones
Suffering deep
Surrender self for greater whole

Thankyou for the put downs
The turning away when I need a friend
The pushy comments when I'm tired and breaking
The watching as I weep
I'm sure it'll make for a stronger me
You will need to look at yourself when you are through

As eyes wake
The day soon as want to shake
Feeling low just want to hibernate or meditate
Not finding the pleasure in the things I use to

Joker in the pack
Never had an ace up his sleeve
Laughed and mocked for which he lacked
Soundtrack of broken grief
Damaged and left bruised
Trying to heal
Pain would reveal
More pain to feel
As skins mark fade
New game played
He was the pawn
Sullen born
Bred by fear
Fear grew to hate
Hate to retaliate
But he did
Was it his fate
Taken his evil
to
the
grave
All those he maimed and survived
Point blame and the hate thrived
To live over again
No one laughing in the end
Was heard whimpering from sunken grave

Why do those that have lived through hell
Never can share the tale to tell
We keep it inside the trail we hide
Even if spoken out
It's read as metaphorical
We know
It's more
literal

In one time you may live
In another you can die
Death scene by my bed tells a tale that life can change or align
If you perish now do you or some part seep into parallel line

Spiritual awakening isn't all airy fairy and light
It's as hard as ****
You break
You break
You break
Pick up broken pieces
Find place of gratitude
Learn from lessons given
Then another comes tumbling in
The walls crash down and you break
Crumbling back
to
ground

City skyline
In deep decline
Watch and see men on streets plea for small bite to eat
No home, no company  
Low opinions stare down at their feet

Drugs aplenty to occupy social minds
See the city party goers on coke to have a fun time
So much above them
But they choose to stay below skyline

Sadness fills my eyes

When my twin flame left I had to go inside and learn to love myself through the pain of what was, what has been, and what was perhaps to come
I learnt to forgive
When my soulmates left
I learnt to dig deeper into my soul

I think so much
It drives me sane

I've noticed
The days that could of gone
So differently

I've noticed the days that could of gone so differently

The middle road
Walking the line
Losing the balance on the bends
The one side has its past place
The other a shimmering glaze
Though I've been told not all that glitters is gold
So I walk the middle line and try to see in both directions
Though the movement is slow
I walk and crawl as I go
I hope I still grow
As I work my way
to each cross road
I carry on with my
bread crumbs load