Feels too much

Beauty in natures green
Beauty in the trees
Flowers shape of this world so many secrets unseen
See the magnificent in the many small crawling creature
In others find the good
Multitude of valuable feature
Further and deeper to delve
See a lack at the helm
Driving the vessel to comfortable sea but with no real treasure of abundances
Use to the depths that cruise around not stopping for quality found however do see the joys in what is around
Perhaps a venture out is a must
Bathe in the crystal seas and lap up the waves the tropical plants scent the summers haze as we enjoy the play lain on sandy beach
Have to find the worth of confidence to reach

The boy loved so much
He was told to toughen up
He was shown how to be strong and punch
To release his feminine touch
He wanted to be loved so he changed to fit their ways
Day after day grew the crushing pain
The want to run away
Just to be himself
to
love
again

You've been haunting me
ever since my vision
Is it just a phantom
My spirit hopes not

Oh blackbird
You are the death of me
You're the devil in one hand
and the spirit animal
on the
tree

These waves ask me to write
High and low tides of life riding to the shore
Moon directing cresting curling course
Stars nightlights for the dark
Sun warming to the day
Deep as the ocean swells and bed sometimes so far away
Releasing to the elements earths most humble way
A raft upon a current
Drift with waters sway

Keep on growing to be stronger
Otherwise at odds
At breaking ...............
.......it just prolongs it

I fell
in
to the dark
so I could
see
the
light
in yours

In a slow groove
My mouth doesn't even want to speak let alone move
Energy shifts between hope and hopeless
Can see it all
Can see less
Pointing to wonderful
Feeling full of mess
Shining on the sorrow
Beauty in the destructive chaos
It's growing
Expanding
Slowly
Nevertheless

In the place between sleeping and awake
Over the years I've seen many a picture
form
a face
Though looking back
I've never seen my own image staring back at me
Until now

Sweep up your troubles
Let the worries drift to the dust
Out from your home
Out on through
the gap
Up
unto the air
Floating away
on a butterflies back

I was told to grow my ***** last week
I'm just waiting on the top soil

My tribe are the family I've made my own
They are the ones that have been by my side
In the lowest of times
In the stormiest of tides
Not many I've let in or many that see me right
But true to words they love and care
Thicker than blood
- A pact we'll share

I've touched myself in ways in places in pleasures in sensations
No other ever has
Perhaps there is room for change

Forging
further
into the forest
Into the thick of it
The deep dark brush grows up and up
Though I wander
further
Not scared to stop
As the more I venture the closer I get to the edge  
Light shines
on
the
other
side

Battle of light and dark
Not always so easy to see
The dark soothes the light
The light shines on dark
Blackness in both
Light in too
Stay in
heart
That's where you'll find good will
Try do no intended ill and take time for mind to be still
Even on lit path we encounter and face shadow sides of dark

Crying doesn't come as easily as once did before
Feel too many tears have been shed
Down on the floor

This home is beautiful
homely
a few cracks
Apparently your home can be your state of consciousness
I could see that
My last home was hell
I could see that too

My heart stills hurts
I can pretend all I want
But it still
hurts

You see your darkness as black
It's just human nature
in all masks
Nothing you or I do truly lack

I am not my name
I am not a martial status
I am not my job
I am not who you perceive I might be
I am not even this body
I am spirit
Flying
free

Moon comes up
The night comes out
The air cooler now
Resting body eyes close down
Blanket covers gentle sounds
Covers tug and veil opens surrounds
Heating up dripping brow
Hands clammy clenching round
Reaching to mop pouring pound
A lighter frown
Shaking the spill drifting around
Dreams leak with conscious mind
Boiling point hitting hard
An ocean flood from own fenced yard
Stream of elements bard
Fire burns on the skin
Inside
I'm
drenched
to
the
core



A
Drop
More

It's not from the outwardly stare
It's not from the clothes that you wear
It's not by the flattery of words that you share
It won't be by the way you undress what's outside
It's more than just the glaze from your eyes
It's the lock the key you turn to open up to inside
It's the depth that resides
It's the way you penetrate between and
beneath the lines
It's the touching of truth with the fears
and dreams most will try
hide
It's you
Your core
Your Strength
Vulnerabilities
Sensibilities
Wonders
Knowledge
Wisdom
Heart
Soul
+
Faith
You see
That's the only way you can get
inside
me

Under a waterfall
Heavenly
dew
rain
down
Pour
onto
this
vessel
Health
Wealth
Love
Abundance
to
jewel
this crown

Bullied most of  life
Even now they come at me still vultures for a fill
The hurt still runs deep
So they creep
Though I am forgiving
I understand they are hurting to pain
I won't play the game
anymore
I release
Though I'm aware of the score
It's a inferiority sense of power
Insecurity to deliver
A way to feel control
Though there is
none
It's all gone
And critism
Do you think there is nothing I haven't heard or said to myself
It's falling away
from
me ...

Why does the sky cry?
To water the seeds below
To nourish the ground
To release from murky cloud

To open
to a clearer
day

Sometimes
I want to close my eyes
And
never
wake up

Always seen as the player
But they never knew he was looking for his one

She's at it again
Going off like a shot
While he's burning bridges
Losing the plot
Fuses and fireworks
Setting them off!
Time for another gin
Let's fill up a trough!!

Learning from accepting less
Test after test
After test
Failing
Falling
Rising
Shining
To fall
Even
more

Restless
Restless Restless
Relentless
Feet tapping
to
the
unheard
song

Love and Pain
Next to Next
Inhale pain
to
send out
love

Come
into
my
waves
I'll show you infinity
through
my eyes

Body a shell
Layer to inside
Cover over light
Sun rays from the eyes
Taking in daylight
Directing back to shine
Shell washed up on the breeze
Floating with the air
Lighter than a feather
Risen up to high
Human reason come creeping in
Weighted to the ground
Fear
settles
down

I want to enjoy our time together and not fear for when he's not here
Can I not just enjoy and love in the moments we have together

The fire burns inside
Feel the flames rise and fall
Pit of furnace scolds and folds
Ladle from caldron surges steam heat burn
Roof of home suffocates build up of smoke incensed
House will burn or flames die down
Nature grow from soiled ash ground

It's all about the love
Loving ourselves
Loving others
Loving enemies til there are none
Hate won't exist, if all to do this
What you see in another's eyes/a reflection of you
It's all about the love
A touching truth
Hope to live this through

Expansion
Inflation

Birth
to a new
nation

I thought I was punished for seeing such dark
I don't know, maybe I am
But the more I've learnt and the more I saw
I think it's more a preparation rapport  
Knowing the dark to find such light
To be aware of struggling battle but have peace
with good intent in mind to right

The colour extends and blends
Spreads out from the skies
Flows in the air
Ends from
your
eyes

Oh yes! I love your smell
Your touch silky smooth
effortless
You know just how to make me smile
I glow when you are near
On my lips
It's you I want to taste
Rub all over me
Get deep
Go right in
Don't worry not a drop go to waste
I like this new skin regime
Coconut oil tasty scented paste Mmmm..

I saw him
We were together on a beach
Me him and our kids
Then I opened my eyelids
And he appeared

Alka- seltzer
dissolving
Film
Remains

Death dreams plague the mind
Am I moving forward
Or leaving it all behind

Fears hold hostage
Confined *******

Nothing comes to me

Nothing is gained

Then
from nowhere
Chaos
Create
Change
Earth Mother Shadow Brother Night Deep Abyss
All backed together to verge and stick
This picture gathers
and
New forms made
Making provence
of
Dimensional
Planes

Moth fly towards your light
Though remember not all is moons rite
Wings beat in the dark
You are still whole between the stars