Tired and weary but awake
Perhaps try to go back to sleep
Though
Never be like
before

It always hurts
Though it heals
Rub it in
Take the sting
Aftermath
How does it feel?

Song of a prison
Sings in every cell
Song of a prison
Knows far to well

To break these chains must crawl through
chambers
hell

Song
of a prison
Fits far
too
well
Shackles melt
with
the
heat

Profound healing
Revealing deep-rooted feeling
Pain on a journey through the heart
The wound rests open sharing through devotion
Playing out its recorded part
Shadows diverge from the dark
Outstretched hand holds shadows hand
We will walk together warming and fading as we travel
Reuniting our spark

Doesn't matter who you are
Underneath the bruises and scars
We all want to feel
Good
You can pretend even at your bitter end
That you really don't care but deep down you know hurt brought you there
If we could live more lovingly
Would we
Feel accepted by others and self
See our beauty shine from within
In our hearts we can always begin
See our worth wrapped in delicate skin
The pain and wounds just make us human
We all make mistakes
That's how we grow
No need to deny
We are fallible
You are beautiful
Filled with love and light
Sometimes we just let the dark night take hold
Hope you find the strength
Great delight
Faith
To let deep hurts and anguish
go..

It's not easy to face ourselves
To look within so deeply to see and feel the wounds and be with them for healing
It hurts a lot
Though I'll feel the pain to lessen the grip to lessen its tormented gain
To understand and see it's not all of me
Being compassionate for self this radiates out as you learn more hidden depths and compassion for another
For why we do as we do
How we live as we live
How we can take and how we can give
The understanding grows...
...Deep

My guilt eats at me each day
It's ok
I deserve it
But others don't
So I'll have to change

You held my heart
and
brought it back to life
You
touched me
right

Feeling sick in bed
So afternoon of rest
Tea and cake in bed
Guided meditations for the head
Sleep to loosen bodies tight tread
I look rough and face has zits
No makeup face today
Sent out love and receive my own internally
I wasn't perfect anyway and that's ok
Each unique in their own blessed way
Cake was nice
Tea was sweeet :-D
Waheyyy!!!

Soft and sharp
A little rough edge
A soothing harp
Similar to opposite
Understand Lost in transit
Clearly apparent  Not how it's meant
Magic to the ears Horrific torment
It's all in receiving  It's just how it's sent
We can be different But in nature the same
Some words can heal Some words can pain
A lesson to the wise A fools game
Listen to the message How it feels reveals our crediting name Distinction a conviction an infliction or growth gain

Angels light divine and bright
Strongly felt incoming night
Softens skin from within
Grace to place the world just right
Loving you even when you feel the stage is set and all you know
Is how you seem and what lies below
You are but more
On Angel wings are driven to soar
Do not undermine your worth
For your flight was paved at birth
Control what creeps up to corrupt the soul
Freedom lives in you being whole

I feel her dying and that's ok
Not sure if I'm grieving for the emotions the past or her
I'm happy to let parts of her that no longer serve die
I'm happy to keep the caring sensitive kind parts to her but I feel I'll be content to let the worrisome, insecure, fearful, undervalued, disrespecting parts of her die
I see my future and it's not her who belongs
She lives with wings

Toxicity it can live in you or me
If we be honest completely
The accumulation of which we grasp to be
To have in our midst
Clawing for our fix
From all the times we went unfulfilled
Our empty broken shell
Scattering bits for others to walk on
Cutting from our steps
Following in our shadows
Reaching out to grip
From their own ghostly hollows
Can we break
The cycle

Perhaps with love we attract the kind of love we are not ready for
Then perhaps it isn't love at all
Just a distraction
from
our
self

Feel too old and weary in this life
Sometimes I think I've seen enough
A world of pain
When will it all be too much
I know your thoughts
I see behind the smiles
Anguished by lack of respect and in turn I neglect
I know it's wrong but I tire of these out of tune songs and the lessons to always correct

The words you say are just right
Guided by the light
To live
A new day

I regret the last post!!
:-o

Eyes
Smiles
Eyes
Frowns
Eyes
Scowl
Eyes
Tired
Eyes
Down
Eyes
Happy
Eyes
Scared
Eyes
Noted
Eyes
Scarred
Eyes
Fierce
Eyes
Fret
Eyes
Harm
Eyes
Met
Eyes
Known
Eyes
Worthy
Eyes
Far
Eyes
Pleasant
Eyes
Part
Eyes
Lost
Eyes
Heart
Eyes
Discomfort
Eyes
Barred
Eyes
Jealous
Eyes
Tarred
Eyes
Mellow
Eyes
Starred
Eyes
Connect
Eyes
Dart
Eyes
Content
Eyes
Vent
Eyes tell the soul how thoughts are spent

I hear the bells ring for peace but all I hear is the noise
I think about those forced to fight
Those lives lost by our own blind sight
Killing not another but self
Those who ran
Brave to face away from the harm
Still seen as the cowardly man
What a shame
And yet the fighting still echoes on

My voice and opinions have been silenced on many occasions
I can see how I may reflect that
However the voice of your self deserves to be heard even if it's only by your own ear and spirit

A lot of wounds coming up to be healed
The subconscious unsettling to bring up what you feel
The insecurities isolation loneliness and faults
Held under the microscope to be looked at at great odds
Suppression holds the ache for longer
Viewing makes
the
eye sight
stronger

We are changing like the shadows of our minds
Fresh openings to the scars we left behind
Painting sunlight from drifting shaded lines
Eyes follow fade from black to white
Seeking beauty in new finds
Stepping in balance to steady swinging vines
Knowing not all is known
Learning
Perhaps never being right

Light
closing to Dark
The only way to come out is to go in and dive deep
Not knowing if life will end to eternal sleep
you will stay lost in the dark
or a lights spark will
slowly
begin
to
creep
Answers in the shadows
Plummeting
Surrendering
  to all,
you
see

I try so hard to break away
As it's not with me you want to stay
Then in dreams you come to me
Souls together in harmony
No separation between
Spirits dancing freely
Easy
Effortlessly
Melancholy on waking

Two pigeons on a rooftop
Courtship dance
Was this a first pairing for life
Or fates second chance
They look out together
Parallel Romance

Feeling you
Without sound
Without touch of physical hand
Silent kisses from your
loving mouth

Please love me like
I am love

Dreams turning restless in my head
Fear lifting out to purge on screams to shout
Faces grotesque
Beckoning to test
I face
Even in sleep and half dream state
Tonight's
Dragons at my side
One rogue
Red hot blooded
Fire in eyes  
Wanting to take all that's mine
Stripping bare skin from Dragon kin
I fear somewhat
Though protective in nature
Dragons of Guide
Courageously
Took to the
Skies
Onwards we ride!
Into
Battle
Towards
Dark
of
Night

School days
Taught me nothing about who I was

Life taught me that

Floating in the tank got me thirsty for more
Sinking to the bottom felt heaven was right next door
Taken by your rough hands and smacked around the head got me scratching below the surface to wear the blood as coat of dead
Chains to all my limbs found contorted charms
Twisted and amused finding mercy praying palms
So pain me by all means but I've already been torn apart
I can be your sweetest nightmare or wickedest dreams
Don't take it all to heart

As I lay on the mat
Stretched my legs up for more flexibility
My dog licked my left side of my face for 15 minutes
I let him
I giggled at that

I kept pushing away
I see how annoying it is for another to go quiet and distant
I was afraid of rejection
I got it again
I spoke my mind if uncomfortable
It wasn't comfortable
He wanted an easy life
I didn't know how easy my life would be
I wanted them to accept me when I couldn't fully accept myself
They taught me to heal deeper by my fears
I'm learning to embrace more of me
No longer together
I still care and will love them anyway
I want them to be ok.

The truth may lie in the last place you look
And once you find that
You may need to look again

Sleep in bed so blue
Each night look up to the moon

It's not easy feat to be the Queen/King of Darkness
It would be sweeter to be a ruler of tranquil seas
But that's not our royal we
We rule over blackened stormy sea
Hit hard with the shards of broken glass We bleed
Our eyes see in the pitch black
We stay strong
Never knowing what will attack
We can't face away
There's no time for that
Every fear
Each Demon and ghoul must be processed
Observed it's a mirror glaring back
Been bound
Caged
In deep fright
Though we have learnt to adjust to the oncoming night
Spores spur us to go on and fight
It's survival of our world
Our life
We transmute darkness to light
make it our home
A throne
to
right

I have seen glimpses of Hell
And glimpses of Heaven
All we can do is live to our best intention
We are far from perfect
We are human
Mistakes will be made
That is certain
It's how we learn from them and how we develop compassion
for those who walk the world
It's not such a straight path
Light and dark at time link hands
Both teach another sun and shadowlands

Wild horses song
been following me around
for weeks and days
Each time I hear I think of you
  and how I would never want you to go away
Songs sums up emotions of feelings to date
Never want to be bitter or treat you unkind
You are the wild thing that lightens the spirits
Always running through my mind
I think in this life we have both lived and died
Perhaps in another we rode side by side
Maybe in distant time, place
the same
We will ride them
some
day

Rainbows appear with the sun behind you
The rain up in front
The precious gemstones may gleam when least expected

It's all a matter of perspective

When I leave...
and die
Will anyone stop and cry?
I hope not
I want a buffet DJ and karaoke standing near by
Life is to be rejoiced!
Plus there's onion rings and apple pie!!
Lush!!!
Shame I won't be up for lunch :-/

When in ruins and broken and nothing else to break
Clear up the fragments
allow for space

Rebuild in it's place

It's funny how we can determine our worth through a job
I let mine go
My house has rarely been a home not healthy in its bones
All possessions are damaged goods
I need to let them go
Bit by bit
I throw them away
The letters
The pictures
The memories
Cannot be reframed
Soiled by a house in disrepair
Not sure where I'm going but it's not back there

Anxiety helps to comfort me
But it doesn't really
It feels real it hurts like hell
It's a ******* liar as well
Made up of all the broken eggshell
Trying to keep us safe
Protected in our cracked encasing
Peeping out to see the danger and our victim
Thoughts brought up by the chicken crap we let drip in
Deformity hatching
Letting us try to fly with clipped wings
We birthed it from our own hollow and others hollow opinions
Fed by lies and fear based skies
Raining down on our sodden wings
Puppeteer puller of strings
Numb it with some pills
Immune  
Feel it still
Refill
Still ill
Throw them away and watch the rain

My memory is like

Spent so much of life
dying inside
Maybe it's time to spend
remaining time
living

We are the leaves falling off the tree
We are dying
To be reborn

The morning routine of wondering what day will bring has a habit of songs played from 'on this day'
So on social site one song played year before today was fall at your feet crowded house
I thought nice tune as I headed out
As morning panned out I hit a bumpy load feeling pain mental and physical
Trying to hold it back but part of grief kicked out
I struggle with not being authentic
As song comes on radio as about to leave for home
"And whenever I fall at your feet
Won't you let your tears rain down on me?
Whenever I touch your slow turning pain"  
It's playing same song again
I kept the tears inside til I got back
Shaking hands from panic attack
Play the song to listen again
Suggested "Don't dream it's over"
I don't play but go away to eat and rest
Downstairs friend sings same song
Poetry prompt for today was rainbows and gemstones wasn't feeling shiny or colourful
Then found out how rainbows show
So I went with what was read
Now to rest this weary head