I worry about you
I wish I could make things right
I wish I could hold you tight and cuddle the night away

Never forget how amazing you are
Never forget you are beautiful inside and out
Never forget you have a lovely caring heart
Never forget others care for you
<3

They tried to love me /  but I always put a barrier in the way

I don't want them to be hurting
I know they have pain right now in their lives
I wish I could comfort them but I cannot
I know they have good family and friends so I wish them well.

I projected my insecurities
They came back to me

I kept pushing away
I see how annoying it is for another to go quiet and distant
I was afraid of rejection
I got it again
I spoke my mind if uncomfortable
It wasn't comfortable
He wanted an easy life
I didn't know how easy my life would be
I wanted them to accept me when I couldn't fully accept myself
They taught me to heal deeper by my fears
I'm learning to embrace more of me
No longer together
I still care and will love them anyway
I want them to be ok.

I've acted from both fear and love
             I see where they link and overlap