I lack complete self love and acceptance
I'm trying to get there
I'll accept where I am in this moment

I'm learning about my relationship style
How and why I do and say the things I do
I'm learning more deeply to feel into the sensitivities and trials
I'm understanding more
How can I be a healthier me
Where should my boundaries be
What does the other person need
How can we understand
Compassion
Hand in hand

So many years of trying to heal from life
Will I ever really live without the pain

The abandonment issues and rejection inherited and absorbed
It penetrates my core I push away
Any glimpse of the mimicking
I speak my truth
Put up barriers
I'm not sure what I'm more scared of to be left or to be loved

Sitting with this pain in my chest
It's taken up my day

If another hurts I want to soothe the pain
If I hurt it's just been accepted for me to feel that way.

Boundaries
because others trampled all over them