Speaking your mind thoughts feelings and expectations never comes easy but it isn't easy to just keep going unhappy without speaking your truth
Those that appreciate you will understand
Those that don't ...
Well ...
How much did they care?

It's not easy to face ourselves
To look within so deeply to see and feel the wounds and be with them for healing
It hurts a lot
Though I'll feel the pain to lessen the grip to lessen its tormented gain
To understand and see it's not all of me
Being compassionate for self this radiates out as you learn more hidden depths and compassion for another
For why we do as we do
How we live as we live
How we can take and how we can give
The understanding grows...
...Deep

He is beautiful inside and out
I would like us to be beautiful together

He tells me he loves me
When I feel up I can understand
When I'm down I cannot
I feel washed up and not good enough
Will I ever compare to a Summers day?

I now have a guilt I've spoilt our time
Again
I hope I can reset and restart

I want to enjoy our time together and not fear for when he's not here
Can I not just enjoy and love in the moments we have together

Mother Father wounds mother I haven't seen for nearly two year
    My Father love is criticizing in my ear
I miss my mother
I miss my father's full acceptance
So inbetween I wonder trying to find the another to accept me wholeheartedly
Though do I completely accept myself
I wonder wholeheartedly
I try but I falter at times and the insecurities play out
I want to play with my securities and enjoy them
Maybe in time I can