I love you so much
I get so scared
I push you away to save you walking away
I want you to stay but I worry you don't
So I look at everything that says that truth but mostly it's the part of me inside that's scared of your rejection
As from many others before did prove
How long can I keep pushing until you leave and I'm left standing there wondering what happened
Can I change this all around and begin now
Change comes from within
So this is my beginning of a hopefully better new start
I hope you'll come along with me

I'm not proud of my demons
But I am learning to make peace with them
The hurt I've caused it always came back
The pushing away of others I've realized discerning with that
I've seen the reasons the light sparks the dark
I've said goodbye to people I've loved the most
I've held on to things I've lacked
Forgiveness is a momentary wing
You have to keep flying with that

Time and space co-exist

Time

Space

Nothing   's missed

Body lay from minds fabric
Tapestries worked from written truths
Spoken out loud or kept inside
The energy is driven
The product the proof

Some days I feel I've seen too much and feel I've felt enough
But I also love

Has it been a fight between dark and light or has it been a fight between the shadow and the light
How many of our shadows have not been healed
Can this ever be right
To all we wonder
Though the balance of scales tips us right
Do we need the night for the oncoming daylight
Can all ever be
One
Beyond illusion
The masks
Perhaps
Only
God's love knows

I cannot clasp my yonder tale
For all is in a distant shell
It craves it's knowing glance
It's calling poetic hypnotic dance
It dwindles in the veils
The scaling winter fails
The captain's skirting sails
For all our abstract nails
And as I wonder onwards to the pluming lovers confines
I wondered
Yet I wondered
Who will love me now