you haven't texted me in two weeks.
I texted you once but that was such
an adventure in feeling unwanted that
I will not stick my toe in that pool ever again

I dont know what happened
maybe you found someone who is better
at listening to the events of your days
or
maybe your guilt caught up to you
though why now after all this time makes no sense to me

I tell myself that you are ordinary
that there is no spark
but even if I swallow that lie
I cannot ignore the pull of your eyes
and my willingness to do whatever you ask

So until you reach out
I'll have my pride to keep my company
and ill pray you hear one of my songs
or that I'll grace everyone of your dreams
but i won't give in
you have won everything from me
I can't give you this.

Vist me in dreams
No one will know
Well, just you and me

Sweet as a sigh
A secret whisper
A muffled please

I sneak through the garden
flowers bending away from me
I hunt for the most beautiful among them

The old and dying are safe
so are the fresh young buds
oh but those beauties at their prime
are my target, my goal in sight.

I clip them at the base
fragrant and still alive in my hands
I add them to the others I have already harvested.

These will be perfect I think
Just right for their new resting place
I arrange them on my table
and smile at my conquest
and their comrades outside sigh.

Words don't seem to flow when I'm fine
Not many things to say when I'm happy
Heart break speeds my hand time after time
I'm sorry with you my muse is empty

It doesn't make you less then those boys who came before you
But still you beg me for a line
Envious of the pages I have written for others
So tonight what I have constructed is for you my love:

*My life with you is greater than any poem or rhyme.