Can you feel them?
The thoughts in my head?
Some where between then and there.
I lost it.
That feeling of ease.
This tenseness is tearing me apart.
Do know my secrets?
Have you figured it out?
My feelings for you are
No longer just self doubt



And then I look into your eyes.
And I see.
You know. You’ve caught the glances.
Those looks that have lingered to long.
And I know.
That the lightness is gone,
In its place, is this terrible Apprehension.
This feeling I can’t comprehend.
These Long silences,
That stretch forever.
The words stifled by my unease.
Only broken by our parting.
I see the relief on your face,
Glad that the awkwardness is gone.
But that awkwardness is controlling my life.
My heart is lost in the quiet,
Till nothing is left,
But mere static of what we were.

Every broken line, every fissure.. I want to smooth
Every single tear you’ve cried I want to make up to you
Every scar you have, every broken bone I want to heal
Every sob let out, every shoulder hunch I want to shine a light on

I want you to see how beautiful you are to me
I want to show you how far I would go for you.
I want you to stand as tall as the man you are to me
I want to crumble and fall and go through it all with you

How I would love to have a family with you
How I would make you breakfast, and kiss you goodbye
How I would be so lonely when you make business calls
How I would curl up to you and we would read
How I wouldn’t ever have to hide how much I’m in love with you

I know that I sounded
so put together
when we said goodbye

you always hug me
but you can never quite
seem to meet my eyes

And do you know
That every word you have ever
Spoken to me, that I can remember every one

And do you know
That every glance we have shared
Is etched in to my memory

And do you know
That every touch, every nudge
Still lingers on my skin, I can cite each one

And do you know
That every day I wish for you
I recollect a time where It came so close to being true

look at me
take me apart
with those eyes of yours
your gaze rips down my seams
heat flies from them
burns me up
please

How much do you have to miss me before
you can't wait any longer to text

how many drinks do you need to have
Before you don't care if he gets upset.

I tried to write a poem
but all I can really say is
I miss you
please say you miss me to

Desperate I tried to keep you
while the time ran down to my feet
hopeless I raged
I fought
how I cried

by time stops for no man
let alone me
so soon you were gone
all we were
is now
a memory

I never knew
I was such a coward
that I couldn't say the ****** thing out loud

but when you shut the door
and walked inside
I said it to the night instead.

Can you feel them?
The thoughts in my head?
Some where between then and there.
I lost it.
That feeling of ease.
This tenseness is tearing me apart.
Do know my secrets?
Have you figured it out?
My feelings for you are
No longer just self doubt



And then I look into your eyes.
And I see.
You know. You’ve caught the glances.
Those looks that have lingered to long.
And I know.
That the lightness is gone,
In its place, is this terrible Apprehension.
This feeling I can’t comprehend.
These Long silences,
That stretch forever.
The words stifled by my unease.
Only broken by our parting.
I see the relief on your face,
Glad that the awkwardness is gone.
But that awkwardness is controlling my life.
My heart is lost in the quiet,
Till nothing is left,
But mere static of what we were.

If I told the story of what happened here
and you went next
people would think we were talking about two different events

I just wanted you to need me
and then I let that get so big that
I needed you so bad I lost it

I still crave you
even if that craving comes
with a good dose of hating myself

I know
you want to pretend like it never happened
and you jump if I get close

So what if we never were physically intimate
I have not ever in my life had eye contact
as intense as that

I love the way you hold my hand
and your bad jokes
I love when our matching noses touch
how you laugh when I say kitten

I love you in the morning
with your pretty sleepy eyes
I love you when you say
please give this show another try

-Katherine Baldwin-

I don't understand you
you move so strange to me
every word is a wonder

Kindness pours out of you
in waves I can't sail
I've never been to the sea

So many times I've been presented
with a shinny apple of love
but it always fell apart in my teeth

You are different than the rest
A true knight
who so wholly loves me

I'm sorry for all the small talk
but I reach for anything
grasp at all straws

I miss you
I miss you
I...

We were together
In a white hazy room
you said please

and I
I
kissed your
neck, ears
lastly as you closed your bright eyes
I covered your mouth with mine.

I know you think your name
is oh so plain
but it tastes divine on my lips

Please when I call
do not hesitate
for every moment with out you
I am truly lost.

can you read in between the lines
you should know
what I'm really saying is:

I miss you
I miss seeing your face
god what a mess

I wont go back
to not saying how I feel
silence might be nicer to your ears
but it breaks my heart

right where
you stand is
always
not close enough for me

I say everything you want me to say
I trip head over feet to do it all your way

We
are slipping in to a rhythm
a natural flow

I know what you will say
and you know that I know

Come on over baby
It will be fine
just fine.

I promise, that if we have just one night together
I will forever let it go

If you see me shake
as I walk towards you
just know
that it is not the cold

So when I hesitantly lay my hand on your shoulder
and pull back quickly
know that it is just the fear
that I will never will be able to let go

I can never tell what your thinking
Or know what your going to say
I pray for your laughter
But run into bombs on the way
Never trust a man who's eyes can't stay the same.