do not let yourself be drowned
by the absent-filled memory of a lie
smile, like a blooming flower
inviting in the sun
as if every consuming lie
is erased by each ray of sunlight
as if every gust of wind
pulling at your petals does not destroy
but builds strength
as if the rain purifies your heart
and the earth beneath your feet
allows its roots to seep in
and pull the pieces of you back together

Lost and broken
On the trail
Never
Ending
Sorrow
Tomorrow I'll feel
Again the
Relentless ache of your absence

am i cold?
a heart trapped in an icy prism
is all i exude frigid?
relentless frost on beautiful gardens
attacking all that draw too near
it seems as though
i am the only one capable
of surviving this climate
body accustomed to shivering
prone to cold feet

rose bud lips
placed gently upon lingering breaths
left to bloom in your absence
the beauty captured in your pale eyes
reflected by my own
freckled shoulders
are the dam of my anarchy
bound together to protect the tiny villages
from the wrath of my waves
you quell the raging storm
and turn it to spring with your brilliance

All that you are
Before the rain falls
Comes crashing
Down to
Earth. Although we are
Flawed, all it takes is a
Gesture to our
Hearts and
I am won over again.
Just
Keep holding my hand, my gaze with yours.
Lean into
My
Never-ending care.
My love
Overwhelms every
Pore, and with each touch, I
Quiver with joy.
Run with me, away from it all. I can never
Stop feeling for you. With each new
Threshold, breaks free stronger emotions.
Under my breast, I feel my raging heart, overflowing my
Veins. I am
Withstanding, I am able to carry on. We must rid ourselves of these
Xeric conditions and become true to one another, for it is
You and I together. And with that, I promise to love you with
Zeal, forever.

i like the way you look to me
fresh breath upon a decaying landscape
clear as the crystal water beneath my feet
the warmth in the biting breeze
turning my cheeks to roses
your laugh kills a part of me
the part that paints me black
and brings forth a golden streak
that faintly resembles yours

your fallen grace reminds me
of distant summer months
destined to sink into a quiet fall
everything green, burnt to autumn shades
trees born to blossom, bloom to decay
their leaves born
only to rot beneath winter's blanket

the ruins of you
built so tall
only to be brought down
by the stones that made you
bleak in the destruction
of your magnificence
the stones of your stronghold
turned to pebble
and lay amongst the ground
once more
your structure was never
meant for intrusion
yet it continues to fall
for the conqueror
i envy your decline
for i wield a weapon of destruction
behind the sealed doors of my tower
fire fueled dreams
and hallowed fears
locked within my adamantine fortress

loose upon the edge of a knife
set off by your disarray
you cut the strain from within
abstracted from your surroundings
negligent are you
towards the care of others
it does not affect your pain
yet we bare it with you
step back from the pull
of the surrounding, throbbing malady
and move toward the clarity
of polished brilliant light
unaware of the obscure essence
waiting in the night
draw close to the flame
protected while alight
curled away from prancing darkness
created by them
ignore their suspension
and walk freely in fluorescent cities

a single drop resides
hovering gently in pools
the holes that were remaining
sewn, but forcibly, they're leaking
slowly down the ledge
silent in their wake
too soon, they'll be filled
brimming with destruction
and leave shades of pale complexion
reddened by their maze

when i look and see that you are not there
i am reminded
and these thoughts lead me back to you
they make my chest ache, intensified beating
i am hot with grief
though i feel cold within
for you carried me away with you when you left
like you always did
every thought leads to you
for our paths were intertwined since the day i was yours
falling was so easy, fast
like i'd never be able to get up
you kept me grounded and alive
when i was terrified, you soothed me
you quelled my aching heart
but when you were ripped from the safety of my arms
i became broken again
everything that made me whole
was ****** into a never-ending black bit
filled with our blood
it's dark here
but i'm with you
for i buried my heart with you that day
and it is forever yours, for you and i are one
i am comforted
only by the thought that someday
you and i will run free together again
but until that day
i will carry on
stumbling and mislead
walking down an empty pathway
following your footprints
i will make it to you one day
for the trail you left is for me alone
i promise
i will not stray from you
for you will forever be immortalized in my memory

ever so hopeful
upon a dying whim
once so full of charm
now dwindling on your newest affliction
a passing phase of yours
to reply so kindly in my favour
but as a new opportunity arises
to abandon me so quickly
each board of my ship stripped of pride
and given no honourable decline
bowed before thunderous waves
as you sail upon a new ship
with gleaming sails
toward a new horizon
as i prepare to sink
into the abyss of knowing you

your elegance provokes me
so clear in the distance
like the wheat fields in the summer breeze
golden and fragrant
nearer to your acreage
accompanied by your freckled ambition
deflated lungs
breathless at the sight of you
wild heart in your vines
struggling to escape their grip
but i remain wrapped in your strength
unharmed and safe
unknowing to the state of my weary heart
i know not why i fight
for you hold no threat
fragile bird
why do you not spread your wings
and escape the cage of me?
for unlike you, i am not a haven
mist fills my forest and covers its lakes
haunting the stability that you possess
the fire of your paper chest
creating ashes for your footprints
that lead to me
drowning in my lake
and with the absence of terror
you quietly step into the waves
and sooth the burns in my elemental arms
the raw connection sustains us
and as i relieve you of my torture
i see again the golden fields at dawn
washed away by my water
soothed across your chest

in this life
it can only be a goal
to see everything you need to see
and experience all that you desire
be given the opportunity to fall in love
and be dealt the hand of heartache
it is not an easy feeling
it is so unnatural
for our heart to betray us
but through this we learn strength and adversity
and although we may board up our windows for some time
eventually you will seek fresh air again
and through that opening
someone brilliant will shine through
and bring you something you never knew before
maybe they will stay
there is no way in telling such things
but if they leave
you will be stronger once again
for the time spent healing a broken heart
is not where you gain your confidence
it is in the re-opening of yourself
that truly shows your strength

disrupted soul
do you seek me?
i warn you of my guidance
for i walk with shaking legs
delighted, am i
that you have met me here
in the land of unfulfillment
for tomorrow we set forth
to discover a quiet land
and on the journey, i am certain
we will find the missing colours
from grey cloaked shoulders
and dimly cast our awakened dreams
on the new horizon

soft seas of white
unbearable to the warmhearted
for crystal chalices are containers
frozen and unfeeling to the bitterness
numbed by this climate
and all wounds that freeze over
are lethal to **** in your heat
and for each spring that passes
i await my demise
but the winter before keeps me intact
i dare not walk in your summer
for surely that would be my end
so if you reach out to me, love
do not be crestfallen when i do not respond
for i poured my nature into your hollow
and was ambushed by your vacancy
i have been collapsed and discharged by your fears
for they mimic my own
and though i have cultivated my courage
you are still held back at the precipice of your qualms
to you i must seem manic
for i believe in love
i follow my heart
though it may lead to dark edges
but you, forlorn by your vigilance
stagger in your struggle to remain conscious
unaware that your wick has been cut loose
and failed to ignite the once blazing sparks of your brilliance
i pity your heat
for it has no place to burn
and soon, it too will wither into ash
and be set upon a pedestal that will restrain you there
in the glaciers that have become your keep

heart on a string
kept as a pendulum in my chest
strung along
for it mischievously beats on its own
waiting on distant hopes
of budding lilac flowers
fragrant upon their blossoming
and beautiful still in their decadence
what have you done to me?
i love you
though you are foreign to me
a quiet smile
hidden by your charm
is seldom hard to read
for you allow me to know you
although we've never met
you've captured my heart
though i sometimes yearn to repossess it
but then i am painted blue
for it beats comfortably there
at ease
for it has never felt so rested
but still
i remain skeptical of your illusions
stripped across the walls of your house
your broken stride of confidence, alluring
the way you left your innocence to be displayed
to a host of strangers, captivating
and as i watch you jump
with all of your confidence into the crowd
and drown yourself as an example
you give me courage
you are my confidant
a prospect of dreams
endless and gleaming
upon the break of day

i quit
your slow seduction
your eyes of crystal sorrow
for the matter of my heart
so fragile upon your rise to power
has seen nothing but the dark
trotting
down the solemn path
past the sign that leads to you
but i'll break instead for misery
of how you have forgotten me
and although your return is bitter
your sweetness still lingers here
but i see through the grim, cold stare
you are not the one to quench the fire
heavy upon my savage chest
unable to sew, are you
the pieces back together
you offered a hand
but before i could give back into you
i fled
away from your fields of green
and sunlit parody
back to my forest
protected by the shade
sealing the wounds of you
with molded leaves
awaiting my truth

gentle hands
woven through silk hair
between parted lips
dies your hunger
each breath of remorse
killed by sighs of relief
the clash of your words to mine
after sweet kisses
you contrast me
a compliment to needed heat
my tie with ice, comforting
while others are covered in bites
your burns cannot affect me
for there is plenty left to melt
but let not my water flood you
for quaking beneath the ice
lies my heart
thriving in your fire
bathed in the complete chaos
you cause with your gaze
please
if you seek my truth
take it quickly
for if you linger
it will freeze you too
and the damage will be recorded
on each forgotten slate
of a broken memory

lips of wine
unopened chaos
rests smoothly in your smile
forget not to oppress yourself on me
for i dare not sleep without it
a shattered confidence
weakened by your glory
put beneath the flowers
rotting at your feet
yet i lay here, still
quietly with my sorrow
for one look bathed in light
holds me to the floor
absent from clouded eyes
i see your inner garden
once there blossomed flowers
but now they are choked by thorns
tall grass trampled down
by all that you have traveled
and a once tall tree stands alone
bare and dying too
and the grayness in your somber stare
puts its eye on me

darkened eyes
why do you follow me?
your stare
so grey
near to the early morning light
but instead of shining with the sun
they grow dim

darkened eyes
what has made you so empty?
when i look at them
i see the wells of your soul
breaching into the hollow of your chest
dark
like the sky in winter
that forgot its stars
and the moon is covered
by wisps of grey clouds
hovering above us

darkened eyes
yet to see the sunrise there
i wonder
if the smile placed strategically on your lips
has ever warmed you

cold eyes
absent from the hot embers that burn in my chest
aching
to be set loose upon the city
wild and untamed like i saw you once
but now
you have vanished
along with the flames

darkened eyes
look far from me
for my heat cannot be kept kindled
by the distantly crashing waves and silent winds
biting at my back

left at the shore with open arms
allowing the waves to crash into my already broken body
i cannot leave this spot
where the memories collide with my sorrow
the water gives me more sentiments
than i was able to emote while i stood near you
it refuses to give in
the relentless pull of the tide from under my feet
and its great force pushing me down
my body may be broken
but my soul remains intact
farther from you i am content
here
i can lay to rest the body that you took from me
here
i will allow my soul to break free from this tattered vessel
hollow
and let the earth and water give birth to something free