with eyes that do not stray
seek my gaze
your tranquil stare is all i need to be fulfilled

the gentle breeze reminds me of your hands
smooth across my skin, though mine still shake
for i fear you have disappeared from my reach

you disgust me
with your polluted tongue
sullied by your malcontent
absorbed in your egocentricities
it must be exhausting to feed your conceitism
how do you rationalize your inflation?
i find it difficult not to trip on your ego
for you must realize your inadequacies
or has your narcissism bloomed early?
continue on your rampage
for it leads to destruction
i know all too well of your kind
the pompous fall in their rise to power
bleak and solitary
i wait for the day when you acknowledge
each transgression

i wish the love filled in my heart was enough
to save you from your quick demise
that i could steal back the light from your eyes
for now they hold only a reflection
instead of a deep-set understanding

i wish i could replace you
so you were here and i was not
i failed to protect you
and that is all i ever promised
i am sorry, i wish you knew
i wish i had been there often
more often than i was
my life should not have gone so far from you
know that everyday apart from you breaks my heart
and now everyday that you are gone
i feel you slipping from me

i am left with happy memories and a crippling dream
it takes everything that i have not to go to you
and lay where i saw you last
sometimes the urge is so strong
that i have to barricade myself in my room
surrounded by your belongings
i can never go back to that spot
for i know i could never leave once i found you again

i cannot erase you, that look
so terrified until you became aware of me
thank-you for trusting me
for loving me for who i am
you always saw the truth behind sad eyes
and a happy smile
i wish i could hold you, just once
see your for one moment
run my hand through your mane
i can smell you when i am lonely
although my clothes are clean of you
as if my heart bottled a piece of your essence
to open when i need you most

rest gently
i will never lose sight of you

you found me
when i thought i was alone
lost, you brought me home
you discovered me
my passion, my resolve
my feelings, with your stable shoulders
you uncovered
the pain and sadness
and banished them
and replaced them instead with your essence
you molded me
with determination and strength
by the seat on your back
you taught me dedication
you gave me trust
and in those unstable hands
somehow i was able
so i gave you mine
along with my heart and undying love
it still burns for you

thank-you
for everything that you were
for it created everything that i am
i am honoured
that you chose me
to be your partner
maybe it was because we shared
the same hurts
that we were able to blossom
together
you were so beautiful to me
i grew with you
as did you with me
i could not ask for anything
more precious than the time i spent with you
i will love you forever

keep waiting
and i will find you again
i promise

matched sorrow
spread across the distance
thinned heart
of your absence
i think it hurts more
to be aware of a possibility
were there a change
bearings behind us
not keeping us at bay
but it does not quiet
my eyes seek you
i long for your whisper
i am torn by what you say
and what i wish to convey
your sadness hurts too
deeper than you know
for now we are open
but have no place to go