heart on a string
kept as a pendulum in my chest
strung along
for it mischievously beats on its own
waiting on distant hopes
of budding lilac flowers
fragrant upon their blossoming
and beautiful still in their decadence
what have you done to me?
i love you
though you are foreign to me
a quiet smile
hidden by your charm
is seldom hard to read
for you allow me to know you
although we've never met
you've captured my heart
though i sometimes yearn to repossess it
but then i am painted blue
for it beats comfortably there
at ease
for it has never felt so rested
but still
i remain skeptical of your illusions
stripped across the walls of your house
your broken stride of confidence, alluring
the way you left your innocence to be displayed
to a host of strangers, captivating
and as i watch you jump
with all of your confidence into the crowd
and drown yourself as an example
you give me courage
you are my confidant
a prospect of dreams
endless and gleaming
upon the break of day

i quit
your slow seduction
your eyes of crystal sorrow
for the matter of my heart
so fragile upon your rise to power
has seen nothing but the dark
trotting
down the solemn path
past the sign that leads to you
but i'll break instead for misery
of how you have forgotten me
and although your return is bitter
your sweetness still lingers here
but i see through the grim, cold stare
you are not the one to quench the fire
heavy upon my savage chest
unable to sew, are you
the pieces back together
you offered a hand
but before i could give back into you
i fled
away from your fields of green
and sunlit parody
back to my forest
protected by the shade
sealing the wounds of you
with molded leaves
awaiting my truth

gentle hands
woven through silk hair
between parted lips
dies your hunger
each breath of remorse
killed by sighs of relief
the clash of your words to mine
after sweet kisses
you contrast me
a compliment to needed heat
my tie with ice, comforting
while others are covered in bites
your burns cannot affect me
for there is plenty left to melt
but let not my water flood you
for quaking beneath the ice
lies my heart
thriving in your fire
bathed in the complete chaos
you cause with your gaze
please
if you seek my truth
take it quickly
for if you linger
it will freeze you too
and the damage will be recorded
on each forgotten slate
of a broken memory

lips of wine
unopened chaos
rests smoothly in your smile
forget not to oppress yourself on me
for i dare not sleep without it
a shattered confidence
weakened by your glory
put beneath the flowers
rotting at your feet
yet i lay here, still
quietly with my sorrow
for one look bathed in light
holds me to the floor
absent from clouded eyes
i see your inner garden
once there blossomed flowers
but now they are choked by thorns
tall grass trampled down
by all that you have traveled
and a once tall tree stands alone
bare and dying too
and the grayness in your somber stare
puts its eye on me

darkened eyes
why do you follow me?
your stare
so grey
near to the early morning light
but instead of shining with the sun
they grow dim

darkened eyes
what has made you so empty?
when i look at them
i see the wells of your soul
breaching into the hollow of your chest
dark
like the sky in winter
that forgot its stars
and the moon is covered
by wisps of grey clouds
hovering above us

darkened eyes
yet to see the sunrise there
i wonder
if the smile placed strategically on your lips
has ever warmed you

cold eyes
absent from the hot embers that burn in my chest
aching
to be set loose upon the city
wild and untamed like i saw you once
but now
you have vanished
along with the flames

darkened eyes
look far from me
for my heat cannot be kept kindled
by the distantly crashing waves and silent winds
biting at my back

left at the shore with open arms
allowing the waves to crash into my already broken body
i cannot leave this spot
where the memories collide with my sorrow
the water gives me more sentiments
than i was able to emote while i stood near you
it refuses to give in
the relentless pull of the tide from under my feet
and its great force pushing me down
my body may be broken
but my soul remains intact
farther from you i am content
here
i can lay to rest the body that you took from me
here
i will allow my soul to break free from this tattered vessel
hollow
and let the earth and water give birth to something free