It happens to us all
The time when our words seem to lose their thrall    
No longer does our pen
seem to want to write anything eloquent
So we grasp about
Flail and flounder
Searching for
       anything....
              everything....
                      nothing.....
Just to make words on a paper.....

Mother may I?    
May you what?
May I reach the stars?
May I dream anew?
May I question life and also you?

May I  sleep in late?
May I drink the dew?
May I jump in puddles?
And muddy both me and you?    

May I be a superhero?
May I wear a cape?
May I use you stethoscope?
May I be like you and save a life today?

Yes, my sons.
You can do all.
And if it knocks you down,
Remember I'll be there to catch you if you fall.

The roses of yesterday
               wilted
Their purple hue darker
Strong stench of decay

The lilac of when
              continues
Their color still bright
Its perfume still strong

It is not done
                   pause
A battle worth fighting
Light defeats the darkness everytime

She sits upon her throne
With a crown upon her brow
A tangled mess of dead vines and bone
She holds a scepter of rotted bough

Her throne is black as obsidian
The arms are made of skulls
Around her are her subjects
these regretful wails of souls  

This is now her kingdom
This place she was delivered
All consuming fear and fire
Where prayers cannot be whispered

Even though she did not want
She will be forever despite her quell  
She pleaded and begged all for not
She is now the queen of **Hell

I lay in bed and my ghosts surround me
A synchronized waltz in full swing
I bid them to go, to leave
They in turn look and laugh soundlessly    

My past it is haunting my mind
Like a movie playing before me    
taunting, leering, scorning me
How I long for it to stay where it is, behind

Faces with soulless eyes reveal themselves
Reminding me the wrongs I've done
They beg me to instead of hurt, help
Help though I cannot give, i have none

Waltz after waltz, face after hollow face
scream after silent scream!
I wish they would just let me be, leave

I wish this were nothing but a dream
I am afraid though that hell I am in
Again, upon a dulled black throne
After all, I have been corinated their *Queen

Thunder rolling across the night sky
Electricity charges the air
The wind blowing
Rain cascading down

She dances in the storm
Arms open wide above her
Smiling like a lunatic
As she let's chaos take her

With every fork of lightening
She bends her neck down
And every clap of thunder
She throws it back

Her dark hair flows behind her
During this her rain dance
With each drop of rain
She dances faster

There is a fire in her
It cannot be contained
It will not be snuffed out
Even dancing in the rain

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Thank you Bill Hughes for this. Always a pleasure working with you.

I peered into the eyes of yesteryear
Into the depths of the sky
I saw a raven flying high
It hovered looking me in the eye

It showed me the past crystal clear
It showed me the present
That I don't want to see
It showed me a future
Of what is will
Another of what can be

Unblinking it soared
Into the great unknown
Taking with it a part of me
Leaving me here alone

A fortnight has passed
And still I see
With crystal clear eyes
The past of what was yesteryear
The path of future is mine

I reach for something
I believe is in my grasp
I run headlong to it
Stopped short by chain
Violently snapped back

I dig my hands into the dirt
Attempting to still reach
The collar around my neck
Stopping breath
Making me weak

My nails and neck
Become ****** and raw
As I attempt to relieve myself
Remove the confines
That encompass my soul

The binds do break
I lay spent upon the floor
Catching breath
Smelling freedom
I begin to reach once more

Pick me up and read me
You find the title intriguing
Stroll your fingers down my spine
As you anticipate what you will find
Gently you open me up
Caress the pages of my book
You start to skim right through me
Then find you're lost
Knowing you must truly read me
Starting again from the begining
You take in all the yearning
Slowly, methodical you read
Knowing you should stop
But larger to learn is the need
Then you come across an empty page
The story is not over you sense
You begin to feel dismayed
Out of nowhere there is a pen
You start a new chapter*
*You let yourself in....

Lay with me in this lovers embrace
Let my cold hands caress your face      
My coolness brush upon your lips
Your light will not shine in my eclipse
Feel the fire within this ice  
Take my hand and succumb the heist
Lay with me at your end of days
Let your last breath be the one I take...  
For I am  the reaper of souls  
Tonight it is yours I chose...

There is a fire deep inside
Burning brighter with each night
Memories make flames grow bolder
Possibilities near tear asunder
Waiting, hoping for things to come
Knowing an ember shall burn too with sun
Sleep is restless, never present
Daylight breaks, burn not descent
Ever rising to the moment
**When once again red marks atonement

Back road red dirt
Sipping Zima with the jolly ranchers
Hanging with the guys
The girls just too much drama

Having to be carried in
Only 17
Momma shaking her head
Waste basket and a hair tie for me

Growing up small town
Cruising the drag
Drinking at the tin barn
Watching fights turn into love
Memories were made
The ones that'll never fade

Had my first boyfriend
From the rival town
We were the talk of everyone
Twenty years later
Giving it another go round

Had my first kiss
Parked by the y
Being carried in again
Momma just shaking her head

Cruising the red dirt
Mesa's all around
No guardrails to protect
When my heart was broken and down

These are the memories
Ones that'll never fade
Hitting that red dirt
Even to this day

I sit here pondering on what I should write
My mind goes left
My mind goes right
The left is all unicorns, fantasies, and such
The right holds a more scientific touch
My left is screaming love and lust
While my right states clearly
Honestly, you are not ready to trust
So on to the pen and parchment I write
While my thoughts go left
Then turn and take a sharp right

Romeo and Juliet, such a tragic tale of woe
It truly speaks to one's heart
Speaks to one's soul
How every girl dreams of being said Juliet
Of having the houses fight, Montague and Capulet  
Girls will beg and plead, for a nanny such as she
One who will let their lover come to the window and take her virginity
These girls will also be ok with death
As long as it ends just like Romeo and Juliet.    
But what they do not know, what they cannot see    
Is that true love should not **** thee
There should be not a fight
Of who's house holds the most might
True love should not end as tragic as this
True love should continue to flourish with true loves kiss

He ruined her by not professing his love. Though his actions seemed to speak volumes, it was words she  needed to hear.
So she  heartbrokenly  walked away having never trusted a love since, just resigned herself to only words.
Wanting and needing that love again.

I have sacrificed so much
More than you know
I sacrificed my happiness
I sacrificed my soul

I hate to sound so needy
Selfish in the flesh
I have sacrificed so much
I did it all for you

Now you go and leave me
At a time I need you most
You didn't die or anything
You leave knowingly, leaving me your ghost

I wanted to leave you myself
To this day I wish I would have
But I stayed for it was expected of me
My soul placed on the slab

I want to also tell you this
But I know I never could
I'll keep this all inside
Just like a good daughter should

Black cats race down the street
They all stop and stare where the cross sections meet
Normally you wouldn't care
Normally you wouldn't shiver under their stare
But on this night
With a chill in the air
As the fall leaves rustle under the glare
A full moon hangs with a wicked stare
You hear something on your right
You look but nothing is there
Out the corner of your eye you catch a glimpse
Something dark, you can't see, just feel it's presence
You start to shake
Your mind going wild
The fear tonight you cannot reign
It is Devil's night
It is SAMHAIN!

Black cats race down the street
They all stop and stare where the cross sections meet
Normally you wouldn't care
Normally you wouldn't shiver under their stare
But on this night
With a chill in the air
As the fall leaves rustle under the glare
A full moon hangs with a wicked stare
You hear something on your right
You look but nothing is there
Out the corner of your eye you catch a glimpse
Something dark, you can't see, just feel it's presence
You start to shake
Your mind going wild
The fear tonight you cannot reign
It is Devil's night
It is SAMHAIN!

Screech of the tires
A call goes out
They jump in their trucks heading to scene
Unknowing what there they'll see

First to arrive
Assess and treat
Pack them up
On to the next scene

Call comes through
Multiple injuries coming
Flip the rooms
Know your role

They start to file in
One gurney at a time
A team takes each one
Each team tries to keep lives

Door number one screams for mommy
Door number two, whispers what did I do
Door number three
Working hard to save the life

First responders and nurses and docs
Working as one
A well oiled machine
Keep it together they whisper in the shock

Life eagle called now into play
Silent journey over
Deep breath on landing
Time to save a life today

Four sets of personnel
Trying hard for one in room three
Heart comes back
Then just as quickly leaves

Stable at last
Into the eagle they place
Silent prayers go up
Please make it to the next scene

Adrenaline rush over
Some go to clean
Others fall to the floor
So much blood it seems

A whisper of a breeze
flits over each
A calming one
Breaking harder, knowing what it means

The life they tried so hard
Never made it to scene
She came back to just say
It's ok, you tried to save me...

Even though it was a comedy
It hit close to home
Comedy is just drama
With a little fun

The mask does nothing
But hide a crying face
Comedy is making fun
Of the heartbreak

You laugh until you cry
Nothing new at all
Except it hits your heart
Makes you feel it all

Comedy is just a mask
You put on for the show
Deep inside you feel it all
In the still of the night
You let it go...

Her father beat her when she was young
She survived
It became easier everyday to forget
she breathed

She lost her brother as a teen
Watched her mom die a little
She survived
It became easier everyday to dull the pain
she breathed

She left the abuse of her first love
She survived
It became easier everyday to overcome
she breathed

She understood when the love was gone
She came to resolve and left
She survived
It became easier everyday to let go
*she breathed

She used to revel in your touch
Become giddy when you were near
Fantasies adorned her thoughts
Thoughts of one she held dear

Now her skies are grey
Steel as a sword
Insecurities now abound
She feels desolate, worn

I hope you're happy with yourself
You cruel and selfish pig
Now she's crawling again
Unable to stand after your gigs

She tries to let love in
Consume her as once before
She finds it near impossible
She can barely get off the floor

Silence is deafening
Words left unspoken
Screaming in my ears
How I long for your words
                                            ignite the fire

Avenues left unexplored

                      needing, wanting to investigate

Leave me not in dark

                   tell me how you want it too

Hush the unspoken words

*take away the deafness