Tender is the way I'd describe
The way his hand rested
On his new bride
And something blue and
Something white
And something new and
Something bright
It shone from both of them
When I saw it, I couldn't pretend
I wasn't happy then
Because I was, I could have been there
Being happy collectively
With her newly sworn in family
If I had wanted to be
If it had been right for me
Which it wasn't, by the way
Because happiness came with contemplation
And shame as I saw myself
In my disdain for them all at times
Sometimes unmerited
As they are people too
It shifted as I saw
How they all stood together
That behind all the ways
They drove me mad
I was not meant to be in their place
I didn't at first think of him
What we were, what it was
I only thought of how content
I was for them
And secondly, about how I knew
That him and I were not meant
To be the ones standing there
In the way that I pushed it away
When he talked
So I said maybe
In the future, years from now
I didn't know I didn't want it
But I couldn't say it
Describe the way I maybe could have seen
Being married and secretly unhappy
Splitting up maybe
I'm happy to be gone
I'm happy I've moved on
To someone I could in the future see
Holding on to me quite tenderly