I don't need a single reason to love you
I just do
I'm a slave to your existence
I took advantage of your persistence
I kept running further and further away
And now I want to be closer and stay
You stopped chasing me anyway
I want to be closer than close, I want our bodies and souls to be confused for each other
I want no boundary, no limits to our love
I want to ascend to the sky and touch Lucy's diamonds up above
I feel so sober and lost
Like time has stopped
So that I can suffer and feel the cost
It wasn't really a love story
But it was a story about love
And now there's nothing to show for it
But a couple of scars
And duller stars

It's easier to listen to sad music when you're not sad
It's calming and nurturing
Now I'm powerfully sad and I can't help but feel my heartstrings be plucked along with the resonance of a sad song
I wonder what I do to deserve such morose moments
Everything I have done has put me here, and I am responsible for my own fear
I fear for my wellness, for my wellness is based on love
I want to love and be loved, and without this I am an empty vessel,
Ready for the next person to take advantage of my convenience
I'll never hear a sad song the same way
I'll always remember this sadness and how I allowed it to stay
Sadness is just a pit stop but I'm all out of gas
I put my thumb up and face the highway, hoping for someone to hurt me less than the last
I could find happiness over time or I could become the victim of a crime
I could become the criminal myself and hurt people more and more
Innocent lovers strangled by heartbreak just because I bore
I'm a dangerous thing to behold and yet I just want to be held
And so I become a sad song, lyrics not sung but yelled

I'm paralyzed by pettiness
I wonder why karma doesn't get you sooner
You were a crutch for my happiness
Now I wallow in emptiness
You never made it out of the maze of my mind
Are you lost or are you just comfortable?
Do you enjoy setting fire to the hedges?
They used to be lush and green,
Now all I see is red
I'm paralyzed in my bed, drowning in dread
And I can't say the same for you

You continue to haunt my dreams and criticize me there
You clipped my wings to keep me close
Now I fly in circles
You were my drug, and I miss every toxic dose
Now I need miracles
It's obvious you weren't the right choice
But I'd still make it every time
Being loved, even the wrong way, is somehow sublime
But you took away the love and left me with despair
I'm still grasping for any hint of it in the air
I disguise my heavy breathing by running faster
No destination, only desperation
But I shall be my own master
One day I'll be free of your clutch and I won't be so little, I'll be much.
Much stronger, much smarter, much more beautiful and worth every admirer
And I won't need your approval,
I'll relish in your removal.

Something about the moon's phases terrifies me
Maybe it's the movement within me
Maybe it's my manifestations
The cruel end to all of my hesitations
We don't talk anymore but you're always welcome in my head
My head and heart are fighting over the same place
I hardly listen to what they've said
Go ahead and pick your choice, you can have either
I've already ascertained that you'll choose neither
But you are a constant reminder
I ruin everything that could change me for the better
You moved on and said "forget her"
But you can't forget me now, can you?
I've manifested you under the full moon
And you will always be a memory that keeps me full, too
Confused and hardly fulfilled
You were a change that thrilled
I wasn't ready for you and what you brought
And I swing like a pendulum-- more so than I ought
Regardless, I write poetry about you
My subconscious craves you
We have conversations in my head
Where could it have led?
We will live with never knowing,
Those brief moments are dead

Inner peace amongst utter chaos
I don't have tears to cry tonight
Tonight I am myself
Finally
It's nice to meet her again
I am stronger, more evolved
With you no longer involved
I can protect myself, correct myself
I will be ever better and effervescent
And thrive off my own essence

I open my phone to noise
I find peace in the silence between us
I open my heart to dream
My brain tears it up with nightmares
My throat aches for an ongoing scream
Music doesn't reach me
Everything is touching me at once and yet I am so alone
Floating in space, a forever changing soul
New to the world and hurt by it all
Invited by some yet welcomed to none
I am just another plank in this series of planes
The dimensions are parallel and nothing touches me
I'm untouchable and strong
Independent but altogether wrong
I dream and I wish and I manifest
And I will bring myself all the best
I love my body, its heart and its art
The flesh, the ink
I start to sink
I am more earth and bone
I am not nothing I am not mere
I am here
Not so far gone after all, but rather near
I'm grounded and sinking deeper
I'm buried and swaddled
I am my own keeper
I am here for a reason
But I will indulge myself in change, evolve with each season
I am that new soul that can be molded into anything
I melt between fingers and I use my own hands
I am my own creator
My wishes are demands