By the way
Before I pass out
I want to say
that you're a babe
And not like a beach babe
or
like pancakes or anything
like that -
But like a babe, babe
Like the most gorgeous girl
Your voice is playing games with my sheets
and I can't sit still
I'm trying to sleep
but
I'm too excited
that
You'll be in my dreams
My pillows can't stand me
I can't stand where you are
And
You can't stand where I've been
And none of that will matter
After we get where we are going
Where does it start?
From the heart?
The heart deals like a shark would at a park in the dark
& I feel just like that **** shark
Drowning in all the bubbles you just blew in my mouth

For now
Only a hit will do
A drink too
You might as well
Make it two
I'm playing myself now
playing the fool
I need this fuel to undo you
You swallowed me whole
Is this how you'd un-chew me?
Undo me
How to misconstrue truth -
Either way
our ends got loose
& either way
I knew I loved you

My pocket is glowing
In most places it happens magically
But tonight it's just someone texting
grief and tragedy

I want an endless time to be peaceful
and alone
or maybe with someone
working and thinking
or maybe just being
carefree and dancing
or lazy and sleeping
but what I really want
is for it to be my *choice

Love & loss
these women
Are like knives
That slice through your throat
Over and over again
Tearing skin
Losing breath, voiceless
And leaves you wet on the floor
unsure of things you'd instilled in yourself
Way before
Unsure of who you fell in love with
Empty and caving in
balled up like another mistake
& watching you replace it

I'm just another
bag of bones to you
because that's all we are anyway
insane eyes
crossing in every direction
getting us nowhere