why does the monster have to  come out of the shadows  

why have i become this evil being with no cause

is it because i fail and i have decided to Take whats mine

Choices we make reflect our actions trust me  i am not your savior i am completely a demon  to your parents eyes

the Corrupter which is false oh well past is past because i am a dark soul but i am still caring and will forever  Love is a sick sick feeling full of  idiotic happiness and false reality sky high then your on the ground broken in half

Aren't  all of man kind carry a black spot that is pure evil pure sick twisted hunger for revenge and the craving of wanting more and more

Whem you see a obstacle you can wait for it to go or do something drastic the fact  that someone like was born with a crap hand does not mean something great can happen  truth is I can hide and watch and wait but I choose to live and overcome that obstacle a Prievous year I had  a flaw of love lorn as I will always care for her but I may found something so I thought I was hurt I radiated disappointment in my  eyes but hey I like a challenge  I may have  become that guy who's a loner a guy who isolates himself from others but I tell you something  what I want  I will get this time what's gonna stop me a another fellow a judgemental authority figure  all I have to say is obstacles are meant to be smashed

how does one  manipulate others   how does one  manipulate each other i dont get it.
this world was at peace then  random one pokes at them until a ****** war starts.
you may be the biggest ****** for it but you can cry and moan and ***** because you recieved a beating that you started  i say your manipulation   will be your down fall you can tell your mom your dad hell call the cops  because    theres one option in mind shut the hell up and fight what you started jesus   these people are the  biggest hypocrites  i ever seen   because this one person has ruined my life ever since he was born so when your falling off a cliff you can fall to the rocks   like a the little coward you are  your pestilence smells like   a rotten apple core

The feelings of others are up then down my heart follows

what i want  and what i care for i don't have a choice if i had a choice i would wait

But since the heartache attacks me like a disease i hope your happy  but i suffer from heartache

well i 'll heal from heartache always sure i never had it leave my system time for a change

for this ache to go away i'll need you to help me to live life to the fullest i would give everything up to change your mind

My true self to be found i realized i need me to be happy and be there for others

Because my true self is something that can not be broken because i realized

yeah i would love to be with her but guess what i can't but does that stop me from living my life

I realize my time will come when my dreams do come true you see there's more things in life

I am not alone i got friends that care about me i got a chance to live a dream i been waiting for a year   you know what my true self is a hero in my eyes

This darkness that plagues my heart carries me to a thought of despair no matter what I can't stay happy I have done things I am not proud of i lived a lie and this darkness has made me not myself for me to fight this out I have to walk alone once again because it's about **** time  I got something in return because when I return the place of my birth I will do everything in my power to make sure all opposition falls one by one because this darkness that has consumed me I will use it and I will channel it and when I finally have a chance I will take it even it kills me in the process I will have The girl of my dreams one day I hope but I will have to take down every road block first comes competition then the blood line and after it is all said and done I will finally succeed failure is not a option

what happens to friendship when some outside  power comes in  trying to **** it
you see your my best friend but i need to tell from this dark place is you gave everything away for nothing

and you had the nerve that i would do the same thing no i prefer my friends than my **** buddy excuse my language

you see dont come crying to me when your down on the ground  because i just say it was your fault

you always will be my best friend but once again your making  a mistake  so good luck with that pyscho because for now i walk alone

Vengance is a feeling that you get when someone wrongs you.

you see i wouldn"t hurt a fly normally but this is not a fly this a threat to my home

you took my two dogs away you take our rights away i am sick of it

i may not own it but what you do effects ALL OF US

you see i do us simple i put my mind into something you what you created because when i find out who called oh  my goodness your in for a treat.

i am gonna offer to settle this like men one guy vs one fraud in a fight to the finish  

you see i fight for those who are wronged like i fight for every boy and ******* the sideline  my revenge is gonna be sweet sure they do say revenge is bitter. well your wrong i vow to end your group of lunatics.

I showed my secret that i was hiding  i realized what i was doing.

The fact is that the restrictions came down upon her but whatever because that means more effort

a challenge to my true feelings  i let you know because either way i will get there and it takes a a lot

more work well i help because i am not giving up the last good thing in my life

Rumors you can slander me you see i did not  care if your jealous of me because that person you say

Quote on quote ******* around with someone rumors are not gonna hold me back because...

I care about someone else i worry she has heard it and that scares me because i might lose my chance

I hate to say it  but that person they say i did things with  i do not see that way so your just making yourself look like a fool i find you f*CKERS  and trust me give you a piece of my mind

i am insecure about losing things i lost friends  because i followed my heart  and when  i

have chances to make something good i just squander it  every time  being in love has

been hard for me because every time i am never the guy  i am just used  for them to get

back at their former relationship  a war is  always struggling inside of me because i want

to confess my hearts true feelings just don't want to ruin what i got already

call me insecure i just care to much to ruin something already great in my life

Every time i see you is see this twinkle in your eye that draws me in.

i know i have feelings now i cant stop thinking about you day and night

i want to know if there is a chance i will try my best because when i saw you give me that look of happiness

It gave me hope that i do have a future  i wish i could come clean but  i just can't    those sparkling eyes
just  may have saved my life

Authority is like someone trying to control your life

The poison of being  having limited influence over somebody

Authority is like a Nasty Virus that you have to remove with hard labor

Authority is a Nuisance  that always come back to rear its ugly head

Authority Is a good and has its dark flaws  sometimes their orders you just want to escape them but sometimes its the right thing to do

a sin is a mistake on your morale code

you make that mistake on purpose or on accident

but you see  theres a key i regret some of my actions some i don't

but what i regret is that  i may have done something wrong but i am a man that will fix it on my own
a sin is a mistake but you see this sin is worse i fix it and before you know it your in to deep

a sin is no joke a sin isn't just a religious thing its a normal thing in our lives

i walk by in a solumn state of mind.

I realize what i have missed in my lifetime."

The heart can do strange things to a man love can change you."

i know i have had to fight my inner demons not change i have fought it off with scraps and a fist.

Can a man who does not care what people think about him what his actions are.

Considering his love has not been returned will she take in consdieration that he would take a bullet for her.


The fact that he is a great friend just a misunderstood fellow who could fit in a  indy film with a crew of rejects.

As he hits the end of the road he sees her alone realizing walking away from the hearts true feelings."

The man walks back and starts to run into the battle field of war the bullet hits him and his inner demons say any last words.

The man simply replys i won"t let you control me bleeding and all he charges them with his hearts desire and when the dust settled."

he stood in the hearts battlefied full of broken bodys and failures of his past. As he is walking back for her he"s *****  and injured.

Has peace finally come to him it has no more battles,no fighting demons  as he reaches for her the hand into the world he once knew crashed.
His bitter rage he smashes the wall freeing it but the battle that was over had hit them. Egos clashing, , arguing ,backstabbing but people were happy. Not for long though   as people felt the bitterness the man had gone through as he finally finds her she is there for him. His happyness was there the whole time but doesn"t like to reveal to much.  he realizes melancholy seconds later equals to succession.

that flaw i have foreseen has done more harm than good

i am very sorry if that was the case you see when you choose to live by your heart you bound to do something stupid

Yeah its a flaw that   has a effect in the emotion of Love friendship you name it has killed family bonds

you see yes i can be jealous yeah its so painful when you know you want or love whatever your case is that you can not attain it
the fact that i can not control how i feel is a nuisance because if it was my choice i would never let myself fall for someone unless i knew i had a chance

Yeah this jealous flaw can make or break me it has done harm yes but you see  being the nice guy with jealousy does not mix it changes you to a bitter raving lunatic with borderline lack of sanity
i carry this flaw and i fight it and i hope it does not ruin this chance  i may have

I walk down the street thinking about life" and my road to redemption that i have never finished.

I fall into the ditch seeing broken hearts victims of the classic disease of friend zone."

When will i be cured of friend zone when i clearly see something great along the way of this public enemy.

The diseases carried of these victims are melancholy, depression , heartbreak.

not wanting love is just trying to be alone when in reality that you can"t fight the heart.

Why is friendship get the way sure its a risk but its a risk i am willing to take even if i have to jump through fire.  

The flame is huge every time i am thinking of this topic why friend zone have to exist why?

Well ask me about this topic i tell you that you girls always choose the guys on the field not on the sideline.  

As i leave this ******* forsaken ditch you see what your actions can create.

I for years been considered a social reject heck  once you accept your identity its hard not to question it   because i have tried to be nice and caring to everyone not to much a veil  
Being a reject has perks your looked down but when you pull something off you hit out of the park
and respect is shown to you i am a reject fighting the system of what THEY want guys to be  is always about what THEY want you see i do not care because i am  reject who's life has been tough since birth so who' deserves chances more people who are handed everything that is given or someone who has to scratch and claw for everything they get in there lives you can answer that

i long for something new in my life i long for a chance to do something to live a dream

i long to be out there  alone trying to forge my own destiny i long to finally find that one

i long for it as much as i long to be   not held back by anyone anymore because of my disabilty

the longing will come true the truth does hurt for you critics because i can do more than you guys could

I go to sleep thinking about  how my life has crumbled to to the ground


I   stand staring at the beautiful moon  realizing   what i must do  the darkness has not  told me bad advice

sometimes the dark places in ones hearts can either be their salvation or their worst nightmare i channeled both  

You see that the moon reminds me of Her it reminds me what i could have but i just due to circumstances by higher up i can not

I will take my one shot and trust me i am not your average guy because your looking at guy  who has been put down broken , stabbed in the back, treated badly because of my  stupid flaw

at this point i have  no other option but  taking this chance by throwing all i have left on the table  

because this one shot at redemption will be the higher ups downfall and it will be my salvation   because like i say the villain gets whats coming to him and the hero gets the girl

I made a mistake i thought i could have something else because i could not have the one

Well i can see why people are flawed i know this  why did i realize this because i think i know who i really care for

I am  at this point stronger than ever and i get it  theres more waiting and pain and anguish  then anything

I see  the light of the end of the tunnel because i am willing to keep things the way they are but  we all can dream and wish  but   since my honesty is to unfiltered

why on earth did i walk away  because i am still here and hears the brutal truth that  everyone needs to know

9 days   i am leaving  and the reason i am leaving is i need a fresh start failure here comes back like a reoccuring nightmare

why on earth am i walking away from my home town the reason is i am sick of the fickle people  who toy with me  and one more thing i will always be there for the ones i love  the friends and family i just won't be here so failure can not follow

I am Miserable at best the truth is that i think my emotions cost me something  love

You see i would give my life to be with you but at this state  of the oppressed  

You see Darkness has been trying to take me over and i been fighting with my heart

You see i am at miserable at best because  i am not one to quit and when i see  a challenge i overcome it

Yes i have fallen and failed you see i wrote you something that showed my hearts true feelings you see i am miserable at best  and everyone whos been in my shoes knows This feeling as torture , great, a night mare, a dream   you see i know that i may never have this chance but all i ask or wish for is to be given that ONE SHOT and i will stay miserable at best because my life is not easy and it is not that i hoped for but it changes

A dark thought carries like a spider replicating itself  This dark though i carry....

Embracing the darkness to get what you want sure you get what you want FINALLY but in reality theres a cost  Humanity lost, looking like a total a**hole , becoming what you do not want to become  this darkness i should not embrace is jealousy because when i am jealous i am crazy i am not me its like a demon has taken my body to commit certain  horrors upon Humanity   Embracing the darkness gets you to your dreams and goals but at the same time the you give up everything else to attain that goal  which i won't do i will take the high road to see her again i will not stop and i will do it the right way but being a man and confronting this feeling head on and any man gets in my way   just to say  i can control the darkness inside of me and wont change me because when i use it two men will enter but one man will be left

i wonder if  i am gonna live my dream?

I wonder if one day i be  going to state as  a part of a team that is great

i wonder if i find that one girl to fill that hole in my heart

i wondering if i can ever  look down the aisle and see me standing in their the champion of the rejects

her stare her voice so sweet

last year i remembered we talked we poured our hearts out

i was a great friend to you but all you did in the end was walk away

because i truly loved you at the time i didnt make my move when we hung out

well i moved on i said good bye to you i no longer do but those memorys made me who i am today

one day we can be friends again whenever but right now you dont want to even try so whats the point

now i walk the line of the nice guys who failed but this war does not involve you it didn't have to end with silence one day i want answers to finally to learn the ways of a crazy year gone wrong

i stand on this cliff wondering why hold back something that is good

as i watch the  ******* chosen one take the one from me you see i was *******  you see

this war i will fight until one man is left standing you see there is one ***** job you see i am always the one being ******* over and over again and trust me i don't care if you think i am gonna be  the one who ruins your  little angel you see my intentions are pure unlike this mysterious son of a gun  i know theres some prophecy to ***** me over its a matter of time your faith and crazy DIES when i finally get the pay off and you be the failure

i Call myself crazy i Call myself a idiot for what because i open up to people to easy

Is that something i can control? Is affection ,love or infatuation natural.,

I call myself crazy well because i am crazy for good reasons  very good reasons the fact is one can fail and doubt themselves so long


Call me crazy call me a idiot but i am not gonna throw this second chance at something fresh and  Beautiful away i patiently wait for a connection to hit before the crazy boy who has always wanted someone in his life is now matured and knows what he needs most importantly

you see  you can ignore me you can treat me like crap but you need to  know the truth

So you found a jack *** from another town good for you because you just started something that you cant stop

i will find him i will hurt him i will show that you are making the biggest mistake on the planet because i dont care because you come back to me crying  and do you want to throw away a friendship for some *******   wow very professionally

you see you want me to get over this but you see it drives me to be better do i care what he thinks no

you see i jumped every roadblock in front of me and you place  more you see tell him that he has a target on his back and  for you well good luck because you might lose me i am done with all of this crap

A new dawn is upon us  a Man with revenge on his mind is coming  for every person who held him down

Will they see it coming no because they do not know what he is capable of doing to get his dark dark revenge

Is he a puppet of the darkness , is he the true anti hero someone needs good questions by all who have faith

But faith wont save them because this guy will  not forgive or forget

So i am the polarizing figure because I like to be honest with the ones i care about

You see sometimes the truth does hurt because  your idea of IT makes me sick you see i am not the typical guy

You see i am a nice guy yes but trust me there's another side of me due to emotions far from my control is that  i care to much

You see i do not care if my chances are far to slim i am the polarizing figure because no one has the guts

to speak out against the forces holding people like me down you see some people channel it through Cutting  violence , and attempting to make themselves worthless you see we are not worthless THEY are worthless

Because I am something else i am not the Guy  i been told that because of some plague i was born with i

can not  do certain things by my own freaking mother  you see i say game on because i can be the most

relentless guy on the planet  and as i channel my feelings toward that special girl in my heart you see why

I am polarizing   you see i guess being kind to others does not cut it  being a sweet gentle being does not cut it.  so  call me what you want because do not expect a fight out of me

hidden feelings i feel this way for someone honestly i should not morally be in love with

i hide my feelings hoping one day i can unleash them onto this world

hidden feelings that drive me mad in my dreams we are together more ways then one

my hidden feelings feel in my heart because i want to be with her but i just can't risk my

friendship she means that much to me  but i am the one who will not be the one because no matter what  i be there

Bitterness eats at me like flesh eating bug chewing at my true self

Those various moments i regret i wish i could take back i must stop the darkness from taking over.

the darkness tells me its ok to do the wrong thing well darknesss go **** yourself.

You can be right once in a while but you take it to far excuse my language this dark time stays  over my head.

I live a lie in reality i just want her to cut the chain first so i am free  and that one Person i once cared for who is treating his son a terrible childhood.

I have my reasons to be this way you see i try to forget by doing so i became the person i didnt want be again. the ******* who is bitter over everything i am trying to get back to normal but its gonna be a uphill battle.

The war ends with everything is normal and no chains attached to my heart.

Redemption that's the only road i been on for a while now

A chance to right something inside me that i been missing

I have shown strength time and time again each time i fall and get my heart stabbed

I get up and keep on walking down the road  one day i see the light at the end of the tunnel and i have

a beautiful thing in my life

as i am walking through the darkness staring at the moon light thinking of all i been through
i  may  not be seen by others as  what HE should be but i could care less
i overcame road block and road block i beat the odds  i look at that moon and think is she worth it
as far as i am concerned i am calm it wont phase me but she always have a place in my heart
my heart may beat for her it may pain me  to think of her and him but you see at least theres peace in the dark.  i see  that i did is bring her up why would i expect her fall in love me.  i should not be like that i may care about her a lot but you see there's one thing this moon light  reminds me of that feeling that i thought i  had a chance well he could be a ******* he could be  man ***** he could be nice or he could be something that i foresaw a another mistake you see this darkness and my thoughts think a like you could just make the biggest mistake of your life overlooking someone who cares about you more than him so he can tell me  back off in the future i say game on you took what didnt belong to you so i say its fair that i stay in her life and you make a mistake well haha  i win   and i am at peace while you walk into the light sad and broken like i was.

I walk down the heartbreak road just wondering what is that what he have that i dont

I stumble across the memory the first time i saw you looking at me which gave me hope that i am no longer alone

I walk down the road again with regret why does this happen to me i see the pain cuts my heart slowly.

i gaze  across  at the sight of those blood red flowers knowing that someone else but i hope for is

that you do not see him that way.    because this heartbreak i feel i know i might be going crazy you see
i realized that caring for someone is not enough you have to sugar coat it like a spoiled child

Sorry but you see this road i walk down i suffer and will hit redemption road and i will find this dude.

I say why doesn't he step in my comfort zone and i dream of knocking him out but you see that would be to rude

Because EVER since i layed my eyes  i wanted to know what  go's on in that pretty head of hers

and i see a great person that i want to be with so what i dont fit this bill i could care LESS because you do not have to suffer from a disabilty you dont have to suffer from being always broken you don't have to suffer from a ruined child hood  and you do not have to suffer from being a victim to a horrible crime!  you see i had the odds stacked against me and guess what game on mother F*CKER this is war

she asked me why i am not letting her back in my life
its simple who likes a piece of trash ruining your life.
seriously to admit she snuck behind my back and then deny it what a twit.
the heart refuses the beast that is not the most brightest thing on this planet
i may be a jealous ******* but you see i cared for her well being and she throws all of this lies about change of character in me. i changed really i am the same guys who made mistakes and cares for the people i love.
in my thoughts if felt bad at first then i savored it and burnt the memory's away i  say good bye good riddance.

How many times do you need to fall down before the realization of what your gut feeling is

How many times do being a failure affect you?  why is it that you clamor not to be alone.

I ask myself that over and over again why do i doubt when i should be trying not giving up which i don't

Falling down is fine when its your fault but when its because some Idiot of some kind decides to stay involved and steal everything you have

Fine steal from me  i dont mind because i do not have much to be honest what can i lose at this point  seriously i am not a idiot

i been called many things but i rather be hated for who i am then liked for what i am not  and as far as i am concerned

I am not alone i tons of Partners in crime ready to strike but really i dont need help  all i need is for You to fall down you feel broken i been broken for years never healed fully every time i am about to heal its scars to a bigger mess than before

But strength is gained Not from working out not for being a complete jack *** either but growing up falling down making mistakes and trust this  envious being i am not standing down from any thing or anyone if i want something i just plainly not take no not a theif but should i say i strike when my time is right

a heart who's been torn to pieces  may close its doors for good reason

They may be tired of ones manipulation and change of mind like a picky son of a gun

when you could have something you can trust and not a liar  who tells you false truths about him

well why dont you come and tell him who did this so he can face man to man liar against the a honest man

He expose you like the fraud you are

why do i have to be subjected to this treatment

why does one do this to me to have something taken away from you

its like a championship boxer losing his dream to compete i fight to fix everything

i am saddened yes but guess what i am been through this before i cant be broken

i fight for everything to be back to normal first a friend freaks out on me then a loved one falls to the dark vices of society what the ****
is this bad karma from the higher up well that higher up ******* i am right here  you want to **** me?

the love i once gave well i close it i worry about me and only me thats all i want to be alone away from this ******* emotion

i maybe confused you don't know you might as well quit while your ahead

prove your worth because i am not worried i had so many things happen to me in one freaking week

well i am stronger and better overall well i was staying above the water then a hurricane ******* down to the sharp rocks

The little bug talks and moves about like hes  the size of his older brother
when the little bug sees his older brother he pops a smile at his brother has a broken spirit
he brightens up the world like the sun blossoms midday.
as the older brother is trying  search for himself to be back to normal
little bug hangs out with his big brother he can tell that he is happy to be around him
but the small bug  grows he can tell if somethings wrong and will try to be a great bug and fix it

she tells me all these things but it turns out that she  is talking that way to other guys
she says i am the only one  but i saw things that prove that she has been that way towards others
i know she is hiding it and playing innocent  her innocence  is a lie i was foolish i saw them together walking i did not think much of it but then i  saw something that proved that i could i feel like i got rid of that one thing that brought the darkside out.

one more year of youthful mistakes one more year of dealing with ludcrious teachers.
one more year of watching friends leave for the world outside of school.
one more year of  dealing with doubt  anguish  at the fact that i am a ***** up.
well one more year of a chance to achieve a dream that i vowed i would do i would make state.
that goal has driven me since i joined mock trial i started with the wrong reasons i wanted it more than that mistake being fixed.  the one i thought i wanted turned out to be a lie but heck those mistakes wont bring me to my knees i am fighting that last year to do something amazing to live a dream to find the one.

when you welcome the fall out of a choice you decay  and welcome all kinds of pain and suffering

i am decaying i am a mess i am the monster i did not want to become

I knock heads at this point to get what i want so    guess what i speak the truth i would act on my feelings but whats the point when you maybe be gone  

I am not gonna become the bitter monster again i was having something good and it was taken FROM me again so guess what God or whatever is up there F*CK you  because this fall out is a warzone and i be the last man standing

why i am still waiting for the one

how long do i have to wait considering love is just mess of emotions combined into one

waiting is right for the girl to basically pick the wrong guy while theres the right one right there

i stand here waiting for the girl of my dreams but when will it come only time will tell

is it humane that peoples blood sweat and tears are spent in sweat shops

how is it considered humane to burn villages with hellish flames killing family

how is it humane that animals are mass slaughtered in modern day death camps

humanity has its dark crevices considering that people who steal from toys and tots

blind followers of a cult of false beliefs what is considered humane  has humanity sold out to   the dark side of humanity if  it is inside of us how we not embrace it  if we embrace some of it and keep our good side could that be the problem to this recurring event in the earths history the world will never know

all my failures i accept the false confidence  others have given me has a effect on my choices

A fresh start might be what i need because now i realized the hearts fickle and it can change in a instant

But when you have friends that care about you when you have family in two places

A fresh start might not be the best because its walking away from the the hardships that made me stronger

yes i care a lot about others but  coming from my point is i need something that can not give false hope i need    something thats there not a fake

Because the new me is not worried about anything but  proving everybody wrong