Broken side walks Tell a story of a man who has been chasing something that he never could attain 

Sunlight gives false hope he has little hops left 

Not willing to surrender  as a dark cloud is in my heart 
I carry a weight a dilemma that has mixed results 

Should I surrender the love I have for a year for a risk 
Or should I keep it and fight for it  I walk the broken side walk like its the broken road I walked for years

Do you know what is like to be haunted? 

Every time I see a another pretty face it does not Change I just see the one that got away from me 

This image. Is a haunting image. That makes you realize that you can't fight your emotion 

This reoccurrence has a pattern  once you seen it turns me into a world I missed. 

You know you missed something when reminded of it 

I am not afraid it has shown  who really is that dream you feel every single night 

A reoccurence of a image is  imprinted into my heart and will always be patient for that chance that one can dream about

You all my heart wants

I think of you like crazy i see the rain its beauty its nothing compared to you

your my Everything i will return one day

i dream of returning to see you to bring light to this dark soul

I realized that your my everything  i need nothing else i wait years forever  for you to see the way i do

the pain inside my chest has put a wrench in my stomach as i think about it  

saying good bye to everyone  i  am gonna miss all my friends and that One person  that i will always care for no matter what

My heart aches at the thought of leaving her and my best friends  but i will be back and trust me

This is not my last time i ever see you guys i will be back and i see you and everyone will miss me to and  as i see that   beauty last time   i hope one day  something more happens because i will wait for you no matter what so good bye  but when you see me again i will be right there for you as always even a thousand miles away i will be here so saying good bye hurts us but like a double edged sword theres a plus  equaling me returning

I stare at my future i realize being there is what  makes others lives great but you kinda wonder why is my advice working for them and not me?

I never really figured it out i always get  i am there hero for there situation not anymore because  i am no

longer working to make others future great  i am working for two things to make my life great

and the second thing is to Find that ONE chance i do not care if i have to jump road blocks i do that all

the time   this one because for everyone who just loves to criticize and walk away  

theres a diffrent there one of the reasons why i am leaving because i am no longer the hero nor villain i

am no longer  trying to find  something in my home town because two things will happen i will get what i want and two the people who played me are gonna miss me being there

I made a mistake i thought i could have something else because i could not have the one

Well i can see why people are flawed i know this  why did i realize this because i think i know who i really care for

I am  at this point stronger than ever and i get it  theres more waiting and pain and anguish  then anything

I see  the light of the end of the tunnel because i am willing to keep things the way they are but  we all can dream and wish  but   since my honesty is to unfiltered

why on earth did i walk away  because i am still here and hears the brutal truth that  everyone needs to know

9 days   i am leaving  and the reason i am leaving is i need a fresh start failure here comes back like a reoccuring nightmare

why on earth am i walking away from my home town the reason is i am sick of the fickle people  who toy with me  and one more thing i will always be there for the ones i love  the friends and family i just won't be here so failure can not follow

all my failures i accept the false confidence  others have given me has a effect on my choices

A fresh start might be what i need because now i realized the hearts fickle and it can change in a instant

But when you have friends that care about you when you have family in two places

A fresh start might not be the best because its walking away from the the hardships that made me stronger

yes i care a lot about others but  coming from my point is i need something that can not give false hope i need    something thats there not a fake

Because the new me is not worried about anything but  proving everybody wrong