so what i am not seen as  a guy who is considered relationship material but i do not really care.

because you see i  am a changed man i  no longer am the guy who takes failure and holds it i just let it go and continue on

So what you found someone else because i might have found someone else  so what i am a success i feel like i am on top of the mountain.

so what if i cant have you i can be happy still sure i wish i could but why be so down about it i be coming to be me not worry about  anything else

when you welcome the fall out of a choice you decay  and welcome all kinds of pain and suffering

i am decaying i am a mess i am the monster i did not want to become

I knock heads at this point to get what i want so    guess what i speak the truth i would act on my feelings but whats the point when you maybe be gone  

I am not gonna become the bitter monster again i was having something good and it was taken FROM me again so guess what God or whatever is up there F*CK you  because this fall out is a warzone and i be the last man standing

I have to fight to stay in my home town  because i have something good finally and now i have to

walk away and let my place be taken from me that wont happen i promise that i will be the last  one
standing because family does not go behind your back to control you

I will fight because you want to take me and be your little puppet for a long time but you see because this plague in my brain does not mean i am stupid and cant fend for myself

This moment will prove why I should Be IT instead of being the guy everyone knows that is forever alone.
But you see i am not IT nor forever alone and i am no ****** who cant change himself either you see there are people to and as far as i am concerned family would not do this   so Game on *******

I walk in the street staring at the sky and look for the answer who is the one for me?

Where is my answer I don"t need a god to find it i  may have found it

I try to wait for my shot i been waiting for a long  6 years  i found something good but i will not make

that mistake.... again

My past confronts me still it was a mistake i will never make again.

I moved on from her but i may have found another but the diffrence i that i still care about the other but i

am not gonna wait for something i cant attain  my  feelings are minor i just want to live life when in

general everybody's time comes sometime  i just want to have something that is gonna heal me up 100%  

Soul searching is one thing i have done for ever because i know what IT is nothing more than to hold me

back because i admit i am not the guy  you expect to be there  because you see the one flaw is my gain.

I am gonna be the guy who succeeds i am the guy who is always over looked then i just wait for a

A good thing in my life  is not someone it is me being happy nothing more as much as i want someone

to care about me   i can only hope...

My true self to be found i realized i need me to be happy and be there for others

Because my true self is something that can not be broken because i realized

yeah i would love to be with her but guess what i can't but does that stop me from living my life

I realize my time will come when my dreams do come true you see there's more things in life

I am not alone i got friends that care about me i got a chance to live a dream i been waiting for a year   you know what my true self is a hero in my eyes

no matter what i do someone else has it easy

I may be nice and sweet and thats only for you

You see to some people i dislike i can be the biggest **** on this planet

You see honesty is where  i am no matter what i wait for that one shot that is long over due

No matter what i will be here waiting  if i have to leave a few years  i come back for you  

Because  i will be waiting i will time my shot right and this time lightning won't strike twice