17 years ago a struggle started to find within what  i have been missing   you see i been missing  a lot of things

The fact is that here i am not the guy  for anything ''

I am not who the person who is typically someone that is treated with respect

Not many people believed in me

Well those 17 years of anguish hard work failure   come to a ahed because  i wanted at first was to hurt anyone who ruined my life but i decided on this

You took something that took me 17 years to attempt     its simple i use my superior intelect to take what i need in my life

so i get the one taken from like that now i have no choice

So  what fine **** that i just walk alone   **** it

You see its bad enough that  my life ***** as it is  but why force somebody change everything for their own personal gain

I wont leave you  **** it you wanna take me put me in a casket and dead thats the only way i will leave

So i am the polarizing figure because I like to be honest with the ones i care about

You see sometimes the truth does hurt because  your idea of IT makes me sick you see i am not the typical guy

You see i am a nice guy yes but trust me there's another side of me due to emotions far from my control is that  i care to much

You see i do not care if my chances are far to slim i am the polarizing figure because no one has the guts

to speak out against the forces holding people like me down you see some people channel it through Cutting  violence , and attempting to make themselves worthless you see we are not worthless THEY are worthless

Because I am something else i am not the Guy  i been told that because of some plague i was born with i

can not  do certain things by my own freaking mother  you see i say game on because i can be the most

relentless guy on the planet  and as i channel my feelings toward that special girl in my heart you see why

I am polarizing   you see i guess being kind to others does not cut it  being a sweet gentle being does not cut it.  so  call me what you want because do not expect a fight out of me

I go to sleep thinking about  how my life has crumbled to to the ground


I   stand staring at the beautiful moon  realizing   what i must do  the darkness has not  told me bad advice

sometimes the dark places in ones hearts can either be their salvation or their worst nightmare i channeled both  

You see that the moon reminds me of Her it reminds me what i could have but i just due to circumstances by higher up i can not

I will take my one shot and trust me i am not your average guy because your looking at guy  who has been put down broken , stabbed in the back, treated badly because of my  stupid flaw

at this point i have  no other option but  taking this chance by throwing all i have left on the table  

because this one shot at redemption will be the higher ups downfall and it will be my salvation   because like i say the villain gets whats coming to him and the hero gets the girl

all i  have that is between you and i at this point is one dance  

One dance that i  never forget One Dance i  have to prove how much you  mean  to  me

That One dance  is all i GOT  to look for  now because   my  life is changing  my family might be moving

And i be left here to stay in the home that the past years i been in

This one dance may either break my soul to a even worse state or it will mend it hopefully

For two weeks i am have not thrown hope away for what a miserable life well guess what

The fact that i walk alone against a entire army to prevent me from   any and every chance i have

well for two weeks i been thinking why quit when you can say you know what take your restrictions , your replacements , your turncoats   and have them feel how i feel right now you see it does not matter  because UP THERE  i am not what is considered IT you see IT is  just a chosen piece of garbage who does not work for anything his life   so guess what  think about this how would you feel if i ruined YOUR Moment how would it feel if you were in MY shoes  huh not good because  i do not care if this ruins everything i worked for  because what i am gonna do is gonna be remembered as a mixed reaction some people will say good for you and some people will say why Jordan why  well right now they can know why because you see being the nice guy for years i been told it gets me no where you i have balanced it and now this side of me will do WHATEVER IT TAKES so  your gonna have to **** me to stop this the headline reads that i get my dreams and the pieces to fix my broken soul leaving  to the end of this  dark gloomy story the enemy gets whats coming to him and the hero gets the girl

In a week i get my chance to right the biggest wrong in my life and if your not clear is i am not looking to ruin anyone's night by any means but i will do something that no one has to do
to break this idea that We Nice guys finish last     you see i am coming for one reason and it is to fufill lifes promise you see i am fighting everything in my path my family turning against me a jack *** and something more clear its funny that   being filled with hate is not the best for someone like  me because when your past is always trying to knock on your door you make the same mistake  i made the mistake of  letting my emotions control me you see  when something is started with me i **** well i am gonna finish it so time to show the world the truth about what i feel