Those higher ups who i thought they were helping me

To ruin me you see whoever is trying to ruin my life is a piece of shT  

Because I poured my heart out  i shown her how i felt and i made her happy  

and for what to be  a heart broken mess filled with jealous rage yeah ***** it ok i  am done being treated this way.

So yeah ***** the higher ups theres a reason i do not believe in God  or anything you see in reality they just want to ***** me over it makes me sick to my stomache

so i want the truth and i want to know who is it gonna be the guy who cares about you and is willing to DIE FOR YOU or some piece of shT who has not payed his dues  in life

I showed my secret that i was hiding  i realized what i was doing.

The fact is that the restrictions came down upon her but whatever because that means more effort

a challenge to my true feelings  i let you know because either way i will get there and it takes a a lot

more work well i help because i am not giving up the last good thing in my life

every time i see that beautiful smile of yours my heart erupts like a volcano

No matter how hard it is for me in my life i am glad you show concern for me

that smile i see it i realize i am looking at the girl of my dreams

i see something i care about you see friends  Lovers  i always be here that smile makes me feel like  that i am someone not some thing to help as a coping mechanism

Your smile is what drives me to get up every day the chance to talk to you makes happy

Rumors you can slander me you see i did not  care if your jealous of me because that person you say

Quote on quote ******* around with someone rumors are not gonna hold me back because...

I care about someone else i worry she has heard it and that scares me because i might lose my chance

I hate to say it  but that person they say i did things with  i do not see that way so your just making yourself look like a fool i find you f*CKERS  and trust me give you a piece of my mind

Nerve racking moments are always there

the most nerve racking thing is that i could fail on trying to be there for you

Nerves get in the way they tell me do not act its the right thing to do

Those nerves are idiots in the dark falling down its abyss

Nerve racking but i am gonna do it for me for everyone else who has ever felt the sting of  falling for someone or something

so here i go and yes or no friends or not i need to try because i am not being alone anymore

Redemption that's the only road i been on for a while now

A chance to right something inside me that i been missing

I have shown strength time and time again each time i fall and get my heart stabbed

I get up and keep on walking down the road  one day i see the light at the end of the tunnel and i have

a beautiful thing in my life