She's like devil himself
Except she's real
I ask her how she looks at me
What she thinks and how she feels
She just smiles
And says "That's not the deal"

She can't be trusted
But she's all I have
And like an old rusted car
She's the best but breaks my back
And when it's over
I'll realize that I love being trapped

I'm bound to fall
It's just who I am and what I do
And when I tell her so
She will laugh and sleep with you
And stumble home
Smelling of someone else's truth

I think I like it
When she tells me she's not in love
Because if I'm being honest
I have never really been enough
And I've made my peace with that
Just as long as she likes it rough

Yes, this silence is killing me
Do you really think I'm alright?
That I was willing and free
To miss you every night?
I still remember the sound of your voice
But it's just a memory
And it will fade
Like a singer's melody

I know that you don't love me
And I'm alright with that
I can't force things to be
And I've made my peace with that
But that doesn't change the cruel fact
That you're gone now
And I will heal
I've got to move on somehow

I know you've got your reasons
And I'm not here to those away
But it's hard when I can't see them
Or see you everyday
Down and out and lonely and blue
Stuck behind the train
There's only one thing to do
When they don't call your name

Make it out to the surface
From the undertow and the cold
And even though you're worth it
I can't wait until I get old
I can move on, I promise that I will
And you won't hear from me
But no matter what, I love you still
I just can't wait forever, you see

I'm a lying, cheating loser
With a gun pointed at my head
I still remember everything you said
Maybe I'll be worth more to you when I'm dead

There's a summer sunset I haven't seen
And it's haunting my dreams
The daylight breathes and blows away
The scent of you and everything you'll say

I can still hear the words
But I'm still unsure
If you really meant them
And why I resent them

Daylight, dead of night, any time
The thoughts don't stop in my mind
I think and talk about it too much
Everyone around me has heard enough

I'm too drunk to write
But I'll write anyway
Lately, I've been drunk night and day
It helps my mind forget
That she walked away

Take a deep breath and let your life begin
Close your eyes and find meaning within
Disappear if you disappoint
Bust your blues and split the joint
Calm your nerves
And be who you deserve

Turn off the old mind and finally relax
Space and time can get you back on track
Flee the scene and whisper to the sun
That all is well for now you have become
Who you are
You were never that far

She's beautiful
She treats me bad
She's still the best I've ever had