All or nothing
I've reached this crossroad
Before this, I've been hiding in fiction
In every word I've read and wrote
I'm stepping up to the plate
Because I can't stop the world
How much do I want to live?
How hard am I willing to battle?
Can I count on you
To lead my through this Wonderland?
If I take the easy route
Would you still hold my hand?
The road I walk on now
Is shrouded with hate and shame
And I'll have to fight impulses
As I'm inclined to stay the same
Because the future's in my palms
And I'll meet a dead end
If I keep up this way
And don't stop this trend
Standing at this pivot point
Preparing for what comes next
Since the hardest part of getting better
Is taking the first step
Things have been crazy recently. I've started talking to adults about my emotionally abusive mother and my dad's been talking about moving in with him or someone else and getting help and also I have a huge other world of problems like my suicidal ideation and my eating disorder and I feel like getting help and facing my problems is impossible and yet it's so close.