Im not going to lie down and die
while I can stand and explode in your face
we can have peace in our time
once Ive erased all the mistakes that you made
and the mistakes that made you

atwixt the time i knew you as forever
and the time i knew you were gone
there were moments atween us transcendent
every
single
one

impossible
to build a life with no tools
obedience
is not an option with no rules
ignorance
is no defence in law
therefore
crime is the occupation of the untaught poor

if you could make her think
you'd be ****** her mind
a glance in her direction
marks you out as one of "those" kind
romantic suggestion
will be remembered as a hate crime
the only dating you'll be doing later
is with your name on the dotted line

my impending future
is my personal vision of hell
an inescapable carnal carnival carousel
of pity and wishes of well
pain as my only friend
unending
until my accelerated desiccated demise
id rather die
in a few days time
flying with the sun in my eyes

I am.
I do.

nothing left in a right world
conservatism and conservation are not compatible
consumerism is their watchword
devouring everything worth anything their will

lies need to be caught
truth needs to be free
anyone can see that
undeniably
so you close your eyes
put your fingers in your ears
ignore both for your happiness
live blissfully

paranoia and parabellum
the perfect cocktail
go prepared for peace
prepared for war
prepare yourself to fail

having suffered the shoah
you should be ashamed
national socialist
in all but name
a fascist dictatorship
eugenically made
and educated in Germany
antisemitic if i dare to say
youre the same
the way you treat the Palestinians
reminds me of the ghetto tales
you told to help pave the way
to the gilded land of Israel

noone can hide in the spotlight
but the man with the torch
shapes the shadows

no dissenting voice
no choice
no need to ask us
until the people rise above
the taskmasters
what we say is meaningless

all my stars were black holes
all my light points dark pits
plain to see in hindsights redshift

I'll believe in fate when it happens
til then I'm master of my destiny
that's all that matters
I'll stand or fall
but never kneel
before our masters
breathe my dying breath
at the throat of the *******
I never asked to be born in shackles
I never accepted their laws that made me chattel
if I am to die you can be sure it will happen
in a manner that can't be ignored
I'll take the bull by the horns
lead the battle

i pray for armageddon
to all the gods in all the heavens
i beg mars gather his brethren
i call upon shiva to destroy again
i summon the titans wrath to free us
from our fatal flaw of fealty
in this pantheon to idiocy
we have created
dominating ourselves
in its insidious conquest

the burn outs
fade away
lived all their life in the past
****** all their days away
many times over

i ***** all my candles
squander my skills
smother my talents
when theyre revealed
present a peasant
when pedants are near
prefer people with fur
to any human here
introvert
only known myself since birth
every human interaction
intricately observed
psychopathic tendencies
kept strictly in reserve
dont look in my direction
noone gets hurt
everybodys happy
yay

if we were each a minority of one
suddenly all our minorities are gone
the politicians have no place
there is no such thing as race
and together we can all move on

the only thing worse
than being wrong
and shouting about it
is being right
and not saying a word

cross the road faux samaritan
try to get some perspective
theres another world running parallel
you need your course corrected

two undred miles
burrabar twenny thousan leagues
away from ere
is a place called londinium
the land of dreams
the land of fears
fulla ten million foreigners
as different from us up ere
as dee are from each udder

where will i put the ball
without a net to aim for
and a man to whistle
and approve

i can give my all
now theres nothing left
done the demolition
need an architect
thorough renovation
still time yet
a little tenderness
turns this rubble pile into a palace

youve been here before
deja vu
think quickly
last time what did you do
accidents happen
lightning strikes in twos
but its your reaction
that decides
if the disaster is you

its hard to make plans
with your head up your ****
when you cant see past
the colon

i cant be any more than i am
without making less of me
im unsure
but i wish to understand
what stands between
fate and destiny

im up to my nuts in the tide
crying defiantly
warning the waves away
im not obstinate
im mired
my rime rimmed eyes
are master of naught they survey
my hands are tied
im bound to be riled up
watching whats coming my way
regardless i try
ill stop when im dried out
or drowning
take a deep breath
and start over again

Holy See holy do
so full of holes
youre wholly see through
you speak of evil
hear in evil
see no evil
do you?
look inside you
youll find who
your guidebook describes as
the beast of revelation

this thin sliver of me
amid the spectrum
of rage and depression
fights on valiantly
stopping the needle swinging
too far in one direction
atonement or atrocity
two paths one destination
self destruction guaranteed
explosion or deflation
erosion or erasure
my gauge for engaging occasions
will always be
this thin sliver of me
and its quest for equanimity

big man
brought low
noone to be
nowhere to go
no way of getting there
eating his crow
locked in locked down
knows a way out though

while your wisdom of crowds
is our rule of the mob
and where you are profound
we are obstinate
when you are always right
and we are always wrong
we're all going to have a problem
moving on

i am encumbered by a law
that restricts my every thought
and thats the way it ought to be
the law is mine not yours
doesnt need to be taught
isnt based upon your failed ideologies
do as thou wilt is the whole of the law
mine is mine yours is yours
and never the twain shall they be
morals imposed are for those
with no self control
natural selection will remove them eventually

this certain person
has always been
the certain person
i could call upon
when i had certain needs
quality and satisfaction
were a certainty
a certain something for after
certainly

if you could ask icarus
of his time in the sun
his story would be as labyrinthine
as the tales his father spun
he didnt fall
he didnt drown
his every battle won
his hypocrisy and his hubris
make him heavens chosen son

the lesson you missed
because oblivious
you were earning
is that while you were feathering your nest
your tree was burning

this world ends with me
ill close my eyes
breathe my last goodbye
to this husk of the could have been
retreating inside
winking out like a light
becoming more
than the sum of my humble being
post human
entropy
past and future concentrically
time has no meaning
til darkness eternals curtain
pierced explosively
reveals a new beginning
universal certainty

biting the hand that feeds me
is the nature of the beast that eats at me
raging caged within it beats self defeatingly
gnawing at its paw

same people sell the cures
sell the sickness
doctors are no more than ******
doing business
jacks of all trade
expect respect as masters
for their monopolised aid
Im sick of the *******

it only takes a step back
from on the attack to see
that a confrontation can be
a coming together
if aside or astride
are the only stands you believe in
youre better sitting it out
on your own
forever

i hope with no hope
that this end isnt mine
that im at a beginning
a reset in time
but when faced with reality
when i open my eyes
every day has been a loss to me
wasted life

too much pain
for too much time
nothing to gain
from continuing
to live like this
just dont want to die
all thats left for me
uncertainty certainly
until terminal arrives
my only surety
however tortuously
the end is nigh

was it that I was born and raised here
brought up under thatchers less than benevolent gaze
uneducated in the baker days
when they changed the game midway
made Es of our Ordinary As
no jobs no grades no hope no escape
youd try to explain to the dole
that reaping what theyd sown meant
paying for what theyd created
but noone evades DSS
putting ticks into boxes
slaves into cages
befehl ist befehl is the refrain
of the nasty collaborators
blaming us for the failings
theyd baked into their fortunes

what do you think
you can do to me now
when all you can add to my pain is flavour
i have already lost everything i ever found
but itll cost you your liberty
to do me a favour

off with the ex
and onto the next best
picture in the paper
only naturists dress less
open to all takers
thinks that *** equates to success
her ego and her **** inflated
rated for her *******
plies her trade upon the pavement
of the info superhighway
advertises with a sextape
source of pride her gaping ****
teaching tricks to tweens
so she can take their cash when theyre teenagers
morals of a quean
still requires a king to make her famous

wanted to say hello
before my goodbyes
didnt want to die
with these thoughts still inside
so long ago now
i hope you can smile
when our times come to mind
as i smile when the smile in your eyes
comes to mine
for my wrongs i apologise
you were right
to spread your wings and fly
i was so proud
to hear your dreams arrived
i always knew they would

a flash of light in the dark
our fiercest flames merely a spark
compared to what they are
we are the fire tamed
our embers rearranged
contained within their grated hearths
these tinder men of means
afraid to be seen
near any one of us
for fear the fires free
to take their twigs for kindling
burning everything
that maintains their hated hearts

there are things i want to say
to the nobody listening
youll be somebody some day
if you live long enough
so settle in
do everything your way
the lessons in the learning it
the journey not the destination
death decides the terminus
time is neither measure
nor a tether on your consciousness
its time to take no notice
when the watch is on anothers wrist
the sooner you remember to forget it
then it doesnt exist
the longer you can stay in the now
because thats all their is
be ignorant of others wants
with full awareness of their wishes
try to help where you can
never harm
unless they raise their fists
violence begets violence
when youre in a fight
remember this
words can take a bigger bite
so try to end it with your lips
many a night began in anger
became morning kisses
we could speak the same language
but we all respond to it differently
reaction has a knack
of turning nothing into certainty
perspective requires distance from the self
to ever truly see
whats in front of it

i loved you like you wouldnt believe
when i lost you i was on my knees
with my future torn away
on a breeze that had become a storm
you were my kite
you had me flying
propelling me forward without trying
lifting me up with a grace and an ease
that belied the load
you have the heart of a lion
wanted what was yours from the moment you arrived
on my doorstep
i was sure that you were mine
because you showed me so
now youre in my thoughts as i lay dying
forever more
until the end of my time
forever yours
next time around ill come and find you
never let you go

the wisdom of crowds
suggests he who shouts loudest
and asks no questions
speaks for all

everything is logistics
the mundane to the mystic
plans be ******
you cant wish yourself
all the way
set the target
already missed it
stamp your feet and try to insist
you werent educated in an inner city
in a state of decay