How does it feel to have reality dismantled
Even if it is subjective
It hurts

My emotions are flat
My head is open now more than ever

I love you so ******* much

This is what you asked for
I will tell you what you want

Scars as gateways into my plastic heart
worn and beating out of time

When will you realize that you are out of time?

Can you not see
Could you not tell

I could use some good medicine
For my headaches
For me to take before I call my therapist
For me to pretend I'm not sick

My relationship with you is what carrion is to a vulture
I am hungry and I am cold but I can never sleep
It seems that everything programmed to defeat me has fallen through this time

I want to search your cavities
I want to wash you free of your sins

I want to deconstruct you
I want to break you down
so let me inside of you

we control our daily medicine
we dose ourselves

we open windows
only to jump out of
but never to look back

the storm has taken the pain away
but the storm will not last long enough

all of it is a lie
stop suffering for it

all of me is besides the point
all of me is dwindling
slow, ****** agony