Cherishing her as if she were a star
and although it was far it granted a wish that close to his heart
but her shimmer quickly faded
he thought they could’ve made it
but because she destroyed herself from within
there was nothing left but darkness
and that wish could not exist without her
the wish was her...
she came and left like night and day
do you ever stop and think where the stars go to play when they're away?
and if they come back
why not simply burn into the atmosphere like the rest
and grant a wish of another whose heart is deprived of desire...
A cycle of disappointment
So what if airplanes in the night sky were like shooting stars
Ain’t a wish gonna come true tonight.

We wish everyday for something
never means that we will get it…
sometimes things just shouldn’t be
Then why can’t we go and forget it
Because no matter how much we want
Your heart and minds want what they want
A constant struggle between the two
But they’re the components that make up you

Love’s Advocate Speaks Life

-Jimmy Desire



All the gold in the world

Doesn’t compare to you love…



Both are treasures

In which case,

Makes them hard to find

They corrupt the mind

Causing their victims to want more and more

Pirates,

Scour the world

Inheriting deception and creed

For the things they claim they need

Companions become enemies

As this intoxication spreads,

They lose sight of the important

They saying is,

“One man’s trash is another man’s treasure”

So they find what one has lost

Reclaim them as their own

Then obliviously loses apart of themselves



The hunger that starves your heart

Is against human nature

Feeding it

Maybe the greatest satisfaction

Yet the little things in life

Can bring you just as much pleasure

So cherish them

Because they’re just as important

Meet at the crossroad
a disclosed location safe in the cover of shadows
silence our ally
street lights - kryptonite
we shield our eyes
and listen intently to each others' minds
without conflict
trying to reconstruct it
...maybe one day...

All I ever wanted was you
and you can't believe that its true
cause I haven't been able to show it to you
words created from frustration
"I'm through, **** it, I'm through..."
Truth is my life was always easier with you
When I took the time to get to know you
hold back judgements to understand what you hid in the confines of your mind
So much so, at one point I could reply
"baby girl forever I'll reside at your side"
Your the only one I'd ever mutter those words too
so be still baby, I ain't going no where.
I'm determined to make you know
that you are one of the most important people to me...

Music and Love
-Jimmy Desire

As I sit here waiting for tomorrow
I remember the past and what it has brought me
I often forget how it was then compared to now
Smiles to giggles to Ha-Ha-Ha’s
The farther I go back the more I see
Man its crazy
Thoughts of you never seem to stop
We used to flow together like water
Drip Drop Drip Drop
Tick Tock Tick Tock
As the time goes by
Happiness turns into madness
And we don't know why
At first ignoring each other was just a game
Then it started to become a part of the picture frame
It seems that we’re both to stubborn to admit we’re wrong
But when worse comes to worse we gather up the courage to remember the song
A beat that plays throughout you and me
And although we don't see eye to eye
The music will continue to play through the fire
And even if the beat of our song changes melody
I still want to be apart of the duet we were meant to be
It doesn't have to be the same as before but we can improvise and make it better
Re-Invent the remix, not quite different from the original
A small change in words but same meaning
Well I guess only one question remains
When the music starts playing, can I count on you to be ready and
willing right by my side?

lost in my train of thought
music is guidin me
no signs of slowin down
snap me back to reality
cuz baby i'm cruzing
where i'll end only i will kno
unless we stay connected
follow me
intertwined with my mind, telepathy
see what i see
life movin fast
billboards displayin moments in the past
bluring out negativity
regret's a strong *******
its been holding on too long to me
a tear streaks down her face and it tears down another side of me
a shadow encases her whole and suddenly i can no longer see
i can her whisper the words
"please just stay away from me"
until she fades
moving on...
a young man approaches me
I shake his hand
finally ready to face the world he decides to turn his back on me
stunned i look on
until i realize he's no longer within my reach
another door closes...
another one opens and i'm blessed with a childs laughter
the silhouette struggles to stand trying to find balance
if only he could comprehend the lessons being taught to him
he falls and regardless he tries again to accomplish what he sees others have acheieved
determination...
I turn to find a wall
texture is rough but presense is familiar
strong and unbreakable
and yet i chip away at its will as the years fade
cold, no longer as strong as before
easily breakable
no longer can you defend us
stand behind me
let's see what i'm made of,
please let me try
I can't stand to see you fall and i know i never say it but
Mama you mean too much to me...
Found but still lost
a mirror in front of me
confused to discover
exactly whats become of me.

As I Hold You In My Arms Part 2 - One Night
James Desire

-“Situations will arise in our lives but we gotta be smart about it”- Usher Raymond - U Don't Have To Call

One Last Time...

Now its getting late
the DJ makes an announcement - “This is the last dance”
All throughout the night
they found each other through a similar melody
and its strange because before tonight, they couldn't fall on the same path
it seemed as though there was no remedy.
He searched through the crowd once more
and saw her standing with a friend
extended his arm, so that they may share one last dance.

Its as if they knew it would end this way...
They’re eyes spoke,
his pupils, his hands, his heart
trembled in anticipation
as she graciously accepts his invitation
and he took her hand
whose warmth calmed his fear
reassuring him,

He held her close as he always did
and she lay her head upon his chest
listening to the rhythm of his heartbeat
for he was lost for words
and it seemed absurd
for he had what he wanted within his reach
Yet he couldn't act the way he expected to
As these thoughts ran through his mind
he felt her grip tighten breaking his concentration
as to remind him that this moment was theirs to share
and that he should recollect himself and enjoy it here
because wandering in a cluttered mind
he couldn't possibly find
the answer that stood before him

-As all this occurred the chorus plays-
“And if I ever
(ever fall)
in love again,
I will be sure that the lady is a friend
And if I ever
(ever fall)
in love so true,
I will be sure that the lady’s just like you...”

As they danced they recited these words together
as if it were a promise...

Then it all clicked
and finally he found the courage to press his lips against her neck
slowly kissing each portion of her delicate skin until he reaches her face
He pauses,
knowing that if he acts he can’t turn back
so he chooses a path
and instead of embracing her
he holds her in his arms for the duration of the song
thinking that it wouldn't matter if it was him or not...

It was just one kiss,
it was just another night,
and it meant the world to him,
there was no reason to ruin that
but he regrets it...
he should have taken the risk
a beginning of a long line of regrets
but he finally realizes when opportunity knocks on your door
**** the gun back,
let your presence be known,
and pull the trigger...
Bang!
How hard was that?

And if I didn’t spill my mind all over your surface
I’d probably go insane with these thoughts racing through my brain
This pencil perfectly transcribes all I decide must leave my conscience…
Meaning, “I can’t get you out of my head” because you plague my train of thought
While through your eyes I’ve become quite transparent
Well so be it, again, I don’t ask for much but a place to release these stranded emotions
a place where it all can be put down,
erased, and bulit up and reconstructed with some time
maybe here and there I'll put in a little ryhme
and then, maybe then, I'll gain a peace of mind...
So in time I’ll heal I just need a constant dosage of my remedy,
Just a case of insanity,
Poetry

corrupt ever word ever written
plus I put the blame on me when it probably shouldn't be
but,
reconstruction seemed well worth it

thing is,
well worth it expired three years ago
and I have to accept the fact that you went bad,
a path chosen while you were trying to stay strong
I guess you can't come to grips with the fact that you may be wrong

a mask is a mask
in time it will need to be removed
then what will you do?
deny the truth?
go on girl,
thats all you

- clap, clap, clap-

you play the part perfectly
got the audience to believe the act as well
but we can see through your home remedy
so increase dosage or throw away the recipe
because you haven't fooled us at all

I'm not even sure you comprehend what you're doing anymore...
what happens if we leave?
will you finally find satisfaction behind the shield you've created?
because all your doing is changing the people around you
You are who you are
you haven't changed you...
and maybe all you want is change,
a place to restart?

start with your heart

Jealously brews insecurity
I guess that’s why the word love never held true to me,
Insanity…

You were the closest I had to it baby
Respecting your wishes, our eyes never meet lately
They wander around like hide and seek maybe
It’s crazy, i remember vaguely,
Sometime ago you told me we couldn't
That our friendship was too important
and that i should let the past fade
Like a second after history was made
But what are we without it?
Strangers with no connection or recollection
Of the algebraic equation we never found an answer to
So what’s say you?
Should we take a snapshot with the flash top
And wipe our minds clean of everything
Or illuminate the situation, try to use communication
To fix what we said we'd cherish and keep.
Not matter what.
So I'll swallow my pride
and ask you again to just sit by my side
Talk to me...

Its strange because time and time again I swear I’m done writing
yet your essence is poisonous
and against my will I pick up a pen and describe exactly how I feel
I can’t say everything I said before applies now,
mere strangers its hard to remember one thing and see another
Baby I’m so sorry that I bother
but if I could I would dip this pen into your essence
so that you could love these words too

I have this love for writing on this thing.
no mess on it
just flow
as the director intended so
another production of Desire Enterprises
lacking the basic exercises
but what’s a better time than now
because as I’m sure I’ve said before
“Practice takes patience
and patience takes practice”
no hesitation brother you’ve just got to attack it
so once again let me introduce myself to this
sweet sweet addiction.
Usually barricaded  
by the walls of my mind
see lately I’ve been learning to evade them
been taught to look beyond them four walls
for what I believe may contain my train of thought
so I’ll reach new horizons
I’ve learned the many ramifications of living within my comfort zone
and know nothing of the boundaries outside it
like standing up on stage and presenting my craft
no strength in my foundation like I’m about to collapse
freaking out remembering Rigley’s reminder to get a grip
even when you feel like you’re about to slip, take a breath
Speak each word carefully, Make ‘em feel each one you spit
Lord willing I’ll do just that, shoveling up little nuggets of gold
I’ve got people thinking, well **** the little brother’s got soul
I’m like nah, I’ve just been breaking the mold
back in the day they used to clown me for acting “real different”
black kid in a primarily white school, it could’ve been real different
but couldn’t help feeling out of place
now a days, I take it all at a steady place
growing up is a process man,
felt like I was lagging behind, but there is so much more left to see
I mean look at all the places, people, twists and turns we encounter
life is such a blessing, how the hell could I not enjoy it?
**** that, better believe I’m gonna embrace all that I is.
Be You, Be You, Be You
man that’s all you’ve gotta do.
Another amazing star amongst the many, shining bright in our universe.
Shine with me, we can only get better.
Don’t you ever falter, make your presence felt.
Make the best of the cards that you’re dealt.
because before you know it, you’ve reached the end of a verse.
Page, Chapter, Story or whatever you prefer…
The end may **** sometimes
but it opens up opportunities for new beginnings
That was sudden but it made you think didn’t it?
I live for this connection.
because if I kept you reading, I intrigued you.
it seems you can be reached, it seems I just like to breach into the temples of the mind
like old lectures from old teachers about how we wasting precious time
or how the future round the corner and its time to shape up
stop pushing snooze on the button homeboy its time to wake up
yeah, it be nostalgic on those hazy days
once and a while its okay to have them lazy days
but never stunt the progression of your growth
reminder of the sacrifices made to keep you safe
continue to share these these “little nuggets” that you make
and let the world relate.

Bianca Lorenzo
Your pretty wings stretch farther than the arms I long to hold
to fly into the breathe that speaks of sultry whispers in my ears
is what I dream of.
Your eyes can't reach my beauty
my soft exterior won't allow it
I seek the remedy that allows my heart to beat when i can't see you
so I close my eyes to feel the strokes that part my indecisions
Love took time by storm when it left us alone in quiet rooms
you leave my tongue heavy with the words that I can't roll out
and my heart beats in intervals of two
once for me
and once for you...

James Desire**
Reach for the sky
so that these pretty wings may carry you too
because we both dream of a shared solitude
that would ignite our souls and express our passion
so why not make our dreams a reality...
Steel chains cage my heart
with a lock in the middle that requires  your touch
free me and reveal everything that the smile contains
hidden inhibitions that call out your name
Our bodies rage in responce to each others animalistic phase
a struggle to tame our hearts begin whenever we reach this stage
so i'll give you all my love
and feed the beast that resides within us both
so we can both find ecestacy in each other....

Reach…

-Jimmy Desire



In the silence of the night

He lies upon his bed

Unwary from the time that passes

He thinks of you

Staring at the ceiling

He remembers an old saying,

“The Sky Is the Limit”

Anything is obtainable,

If you just reach for it

As he submerged himself within his sheets

He forgets these words

And the meanings they preach

Because he doesn’t have you

Now lost and blinded by sadness

He yearns for you,

Morns for you because

He’s felt like he’s lost what he’s never had

And yet he can’t be mad

Because the world has taught him to love and cherish

Anything that he would ever have

Grateful,

For the lessons he’s learned

He does the one thing he knows best in return

To appreciate everything good in his life

And remember that although things may not always go his way

That there will always be another day, another opportunity

To do better, to be better, and to have better

Life is unpredictable,

Be ready…

April 2, 2012 – James Desire – Refine Your Mind

Dandelion spores
Drift with the shift of the wind
planting the seeds for the new generation
they’re influence reaching far and wide...
As is life’s course,
As we begin to mature and build our aspirations in reality
So there will also be a time when we discover what we must do
And in-turn drift in the direction that life leads you
So that we may build something for future generations to come...
We are living for more than just ourselves,
Realize that our lives are much more extraordinary than it may seem
That we can benefit from each other
Help one another grow and develop
I often contemplate on how my life wouldn’t be the same
If I hadn’t crossed paths with the numerous souls who were once nameless faces
Incredible, is it not?
That anyone could influence the life of another
And granted currency is an important aspect of life but it isn’t everything…
Yet the government seems to help corrupt us with its image
So a word of advice to you,
Be wealthy in knowledge
For acquiring that will grant you all the riches you need
And once you acquire the tools
Share them with others so that the wealth will grow.
Your selfishness may stunt you
But your generosity will reward you
Remember that always

…Just a few thoughts while lost in time,
and a few rhymes while lost in mind,
Make up the few lines to help reach my prime…
Poetry this art is mine.

It’s been a long time
Since I faced this canvas
Maybe it was a lack of time
A vacation with no rest
Actively brain dead, I couldn’t test the ability to conjure rhymes
A failure to excavate and train my mind
Or maybe it was because I had lost my inspiration
A certain spark or connection to my lost art
For someone who once felt complete, this is certainly a lost component of my heart
I ramble and I apologize but this barren realm sometimes requires this
Let me discuss a discovery that I made
Rather something I hadn’t noticed I lost
A longing for love…
To find one and bask in her radiance
And enrich her with the emotions I have since kept latent
I used to believe I was searching for purity
Someone simply made for me,
But experience would soon prove those thoughts foolish
Because sadly life will always inflict the heartache Ashanti described
To those who didn’t know it yet strap yourselves in for a bumpy ride
But the ride will equip you with the knowledge and experience needed to keep growing
Anyhow I digress, see this topic was often something I stressed
But lately, I’ve kept it at bay, admit to myself it was okay
Exposed myself to what the Christians would claim are sins
Stupid morals and standards
At such a young age who the hell was I to judge?
We’re all still learning, don’t you dare ever hold a grudge
I just want someone to hold
A girl with a confidence all her own
But still depends on my love
Her imperfections whatever they may be
Will make her perfect because she is
For me
And when I sleep I will rest easily knowing
She makes me happy
Genuinely content as a take one last look at her in my arms
Until the sun rises above our heads once more
A kiss to her forehead and I whisper,
“Sweet dreams my love,
Sweet dreams”
But until then I’ll keep the faith
And see what paths in life await me
Until I am once more reintroduced to love.

It’s been a long time
Since I faced this canvas
Maybe it was a lack of time
A vacation with no rest
Actively brain dead, I couldn’t test the ability to conjure rhymes
A failure to excavate and train my mind
Or maybe it was because I had lost my inspiration
A certain spark or connection to my lost art
For someone who once felt complete, this is certainly a lost component of my heart
I ramble and I apologize but this barren realm sometimes requires this
Let me discuss a discovery that I made
Rather something I hadn’t noticed I lost
A longing for love…
To find one and bask in her radiance
And enrich her with the emotions I have since kept latent
I used to believe I was searching for purity
Someone simply made for me,
But experience would soon prove those thoughts foolish
Because sadly life will always inflict the heartache Ashanti described
To those who didn’t know it yet strap yourselves in for a bumpy ride
But the ride will equip you with the knowledge and experience needed to keep growing
Anyhow I digress, see this topic was often something I stressed
But lately, I’ve kept it at bay, admit to myself it was okay
Exposed myself to what the Christians would claim are sins
Stupid morals and standards
At such a young age who the hell was I to judge?
We’re all still learning, don’t you dare ever hold a grudge
I just want someone to hold
A girl with a confidence all her own
But still depends on my love
Her imperfections whatever they may be
Will make her perfect because she is
To me
And when I sleep I will rest easily knowing
She makes me happy
Genuinely content as I take one last look at her in my arms
Until the sun rises above our heads once more
A kiss to her forehead and I whisper,
“Sweet dreams my love,
Sweet dreams”
But until then I’ll keep the faith
And see what paths in life awaits me
Until I am once more reintroduced to love.

You claim you want to change
but always find yourself back on that train...
Lost,
I know you need be on your own way
but a part of me wishes you could've stayed
because I miss you
and I can't shake this feeling my heart makes.
but this process takes time,
so I'll be waiting here when you decide to come home.
I just wonder where you've gone
and what you've been through
and I know I shouldn't worry
I know I can't save you
but I pray everynight that you'll find the strength to save yourself
because you're leaving a trail of destruction thats breaking a heart made for two
Meaning you're not only hurting yourself
but the ones around you.

I just want to be
Successful
she asks,
"what does that mean to you?"
I say,
"it means that I will do anything to make a difference...
be it through my words or actions."
one in the same
meaning never lacking
this will bring me true satisfaction.

We want what's best for the future,
or at least we should right?
Remember to always care for yourself
and take the time to care for another
because in this world of ours,
we really should care for each other.
For example,
Our pledge of Allegiance declares,
"We are One nation,
Under God".
Yet we let our differences separate us.
like we all know 9/11 was a tragedy,
but to point fingers at the innocent
don't make sense.
but what does anymore right?
like the debt we receive to acquire
a higher education
and our country promotes it
like that's just the motion.

I'm just scheming and dreaming for a future that ain't so sure
I guess I think if I speak up more,
someone will eventually hear me.

Simply Love
-Jimmy Desire

Have you ever been so captivated by somebody’s lips
That you get lost in the touch of their fingertips
So deep that oxygen can no longer find you
Instead you breathe her thoughts,
So that may you further understand the matrix that is her mind
And time utterly binds you because your body can only take so much
You break free
then rush to the surface only being able to inhale the idea of love
The intangible becoming quite tangible
Creating the ocean you were originally drowned in
Excuse me, your lost?
Well re-trace your steps and you’ll find when you were drawn in,
Caught,
Or for a lack of better words,
Taught
That your heart rebels

Truth or Fable?
Could a new world really exist and be able,
to enrich our lives?
Columbus thought so
He sailed there so that he may find the worlds’ treasures and claim them for his own
The idea of love is selfish
A single word that describes an entire race
Similar and yet so different
It’s a mutual journey with various results
Selfless
We share it
Because like in the pride lands
The circle of life represents a cycle that we all are a part of
So in the end we will all find it
And to our last dying breath we remember those who we’ve hold deep in our hearts
Hopefully at that time we’ve instilled our lessons into the future
So that the cycle becomes full circle and goes on and on…

Lost
More than ever
6 am on a Tuesday

Asking,
where do I go?
I guess this is what you meant, huh Ana?
I’ve got to work on myself before anyone else
But I’m prone to denial and procrastination
it’s a cycle for real
Life keeps getting too real
Had a convo with my pops a few hours ago
and now the kid isn’t sure how to feel
wanting nothing but to fulfill their wish
but have no idea about where to start
too busy fooling myself that we live in
“Never Never Land”
The kid ain’t ready to grow up
Peter Pan, Peter Pan
I’ve said it before,
You’re the man!
I’m forever scuffing with my shadow
in the hopes that my present will alter from my past mistakes
but you aren’t worried about a thing huh?
Just that ***** hook and the wild boys
but in my reality,
I’m surrounded
Conflicted,
not like the one who probably forgot
something I’ll never forget
that night I spent time to write all the lines
from my mind that I thought described you
Shoutout to Lana Lang,
I really hope that man right for you.
And don’t worry you don't cross my mind too much
Words are never exchanged
so I thought maybe here you’d listen again
Fool,
remember the one rule:
Let it be…
I apologize for the lack of focus
It’s been a while I suppose.
Since I’ve called ******* on myself.
I mean what the **** am I doing?
what happened to the mentality that those teachers instilled in you
Yeah you’re ****** at the outcome of UMD
but you were supposed to dig your way out of that hole
make the comeback that was expected of you.
it’s like you’ve forgotten all of those lectures from the likes of
Rigley, Jones, Bent and Weatherhead
you’re destined for more
if you don’t believe it you’ll never achieve it
and further more,
if you don’t apply yourself you’ll never see results.
Even Ms. Sanchez said a few words that stunned you
like, “it’s just funny because I bet you procrastinate as well”
lead by example
like how you gon’ preach something you don’t practice
she’s plenty right.
disappointing right?
the fact that you keep trying to keep people from falling apart
when you are the one in fact who keeps breaking down
but they’ll never know
because you believe its not important
and you let it sit on the back burner
till it consumes you like this…
I guess this is my role.
walking down this solitary road
like I’ve nowhere else to go.

I’ll never expect a soul to understand
pen in hand,
sleepless nights in never land.

Smile…
-Jimmy Desire

A smile,
A genuine smile
Emits the warmth
Of sunshine
Rays of expression
Absorbed by people
Deprived of happiness,
Depressed
The warmth is contagious
See with one comes another
The dim flicker gradually evolves
Finally,
Having absorbed enough
It shines
Blooms...
Into something called Human Nature
We may forget at times
Even something as simple as a smile
Can be the motivation
To tackle another challenge,
To push forward
To Live Life...

It's a reoccurring cycle,
Let's Light Up The World

I found her one day
mistakenly, I must say
I couldn’t help but stare and wonder
who she was and how she began to plunder my mind
Yet I could do nothing but that...
Wonder
How her very beauty intimidated me
Introductions were brief as I retreated to safety
In the solitude of someplace familiar
I wonder what’s come over me...

Her smile lingers in my mind like a veil of radiance
It brings me warmth and reassurance
You see she cleanses my mind of doubts and concerns
Brings me confidence and fear at the same time
But I like it,
This emotion is confusing and the scale is never balanced
This world is out of whack but you emit stability
It’s crazy…
I don’t know you but to lose you is like Shakespeare
A tragedy

I in no way want to portray her as perfection
But I swear given the time
I would come to love her imperfections
Help her reach her aspirations
**** I mean
All I really hope is that we can share this sensation genuinely
Because I’d rather her be something more than just a memory
As I sit here in solitude
I begin to muster the will to get up and follow through
Stomach the butterflies and this terror like stage freight
And reach out my hand to ask you out tonight
I guess the next move is on you…

[I can’t say I like her
but she reminds me of the happiness I want to obtain,
and the kind of person I want to share love with.]

"So What If?"
-Jimmy Desire

if you continue to expect to be hurt,
when will you be happy?
don't shove aside possibility,
how do you know it can't be
just because the thought hasn't processed in your mind yet doesn't mean it couldn't be
lemme just orbit around your mind until you get to know me
until a time where even when I'm not around
you can always find me
know that my presence lies within your heart
right where it should be
and baby if you tend to get materialistic
and my words are just words like sand in an hour glass sinking to fast to grasp
grasp this,
there is no one on this earth who would rather kiss your elegant lips
take the time to explore the library that is your mind
or even feed you your daily dosage of poetry. a crucial element that makes up both you and me

please believe that this is I...
stripped to my very core
hopefully this can be a shred of evidence explaining exactly why you mean everything to me...

Free-write, A conclusion
-James Desire

I remember back then
Back when, we sat overlooking the unsuspecting world
Discussing our futures
Reminiscing on past days
I wrote down a few lines to remember the occasion
Something about wondering if you were one to fade with the seasons...
Take a listen:

"Time comes and goes with the seasons
People seem to follow the same trend
I guess I'm looking for a little consistency
Like the few leaves that refuse to dance with the wind
Will you too be one to drift away?
I look for the answer in your eyes
But maybe I should wait for winter to come..."

I concluded that only time would tell,
Just one of the answers that I knew I'd find out sooner or later.
Yet doubt still resided in mind
Further reflected with a rhyme that I made:

"Through the sunny days, cloudy nights
And the uncertainty in her hazy eyes
I will continue to adore her willingly."

Made a decision then and there not to back down
Just so I'd see where that would lead me
And just as the year was coming to an end
You grabbed my arm and we walked side by side for what felt might be the last time...
We reached our destination as the night sky lit up in celebration of the year to come
You stared off into the distance as if to remember the moment
My eyes remained fixed on you
My body, tense and anxious with anticipation
Tried my best to gather up confidence
Took a breath to ease my doubts and concerns
And proceeded to find an answer...
Because you see time was no longer a luxury I had to offer
But you didn’t seem so sure.

“I guess that was the moment of truth huh?
The fireworks went off and you got to thinking maybe it shouldn’t be you huh?
But it seems I’m the one to blame because you warned me back in fall
That if I were to fall any deeper, I would end up disliking you
Shame is that the result isn’t as you predicted
Rather I despise the manner in which you conducted
But what does that matter because the matter is said and done
And I’ll admit the result had left me a little stunned
But I’m better now
Had time to reflect and contemplate
Just another life lesson…”

Fall and winter gone
Spring now in our midst
And you're nowhere to be found
Or maybe I just stopped looking
But it’s cool though
No need to ask what you've been up too
I know you’re busy doing you
So enjoy and may this season be generous to you
But before I end this story,
I've got one last piece for you:

"People fall in and out of our lives like the seasons changing
so don't ever expect a thing from someone who owes you nothing
time alone will be the indicator,
so when the leaves fall then later chased by the snow which eventually is melted from the various plants that must grow
to the shinning sun whom gives them energy to do so,
let the hands of the ones who stand by your side show
those are the ones unfazed by natures flow."

~Lessons Learned On Life's Terms~

Take a peek inside...

Stuck in my mind - From a time where everything was fine

My mind my own enemy
They warned me not to worry
Yet thats the only emotion I express
Always the piece that never fit the puzzle
Out of place,
Discarded,
Lost
Maybe I’m just corrupted
Twisted in the head
To have never had adjusted
To what the population considers “normal”
And yet the world should supposably be diverse
I probably should’ve ended my life as a child
Just to test the process of reincarnation
So that maybe I could have a chance at normalcy
One question always roams through my thoughts
Regardless of my state of mind
Are they laughing with me or at me?
And if it’s at me,
EXPLAIN EXACTLY WHAT THE **** IS SO FUNNY
Was there something I did to amuse you?
Or am I just a walking freak show on display without even knowing it.

To You
In the end, I know it’s nothing
we’ll reach our breaking point and stop
I’m actually surprised,
that you continue to amuse yourself even now.

I swear your love would be the sweetest drug,
but what kills me is that I'm already addicted without taking my first puff...
But once I inhale you
I know the sensation it will bring
and the very actions I would take to make your heart strings sing...
But it's as if you can't see me
Or perhaps it because you're out of my reach
Or could it be that your heart belongs to another?
Maybe I'm not what you seek
Yet your beauty always seems to seep into my mind's eye whenever I sleep
It's everything you do my sweet angel
From your laugh, to your smile, even the way that you speak
It all just so happens to compel me
But you don't ever notice me,
Do you?
---
"In love with an angel
But she don't belong to me..."

What A Life

I do the things I shouldn't do

to say I did and have "gained a lesson" from it

when in reality I'm just trying to prove

that what's usually the "right way" is not always for everybody

foolish child you look for a glimpse of chance

where countless fools before you had as well

I just thought that maybe I,

with all that I've said and proclaimed about love,

with my ideals and my upbringing to the melodies of R&B;

that helped ease me into sleep

and induce dreams in which I would finally find the courage to have my voice heard,

serenading to lost queens about their substantial worth and beauty...

man I just thought that I could've had it different

but don't we all...

well if anything its a constant reminder that the world can be cruel

but theres a lot you'll see thats breathtakingly beautiful

like hearing another brother of ours has been slain by none other than his own kin

funny isn't it?

that as the most advanced lifeforms (that we know of anyway)

that we hinder ourselves more than anything

with all the potential dangers that could arise from day to day

we on top of that are a danger to ourselves and others

not all of us of course

but enough that its publicized and causes riots in the streets

and with good reason too.

I'm more impressed by the passion presented by the ones on their feet

fighting and making a stand about something they know is wrong

exactly the kind of action we need more of

it simply saddens me because I believed we were past all the racism

and just when you start to question the direction of the path we all seem to be taking

you are blessed with a moment of pure gratitude

and someone who works at Starbucks is willing to pay for your drink,

even when you have the money to pay

she simply said, “you’re a nice guy and I probably wasn’t going to use this free drink anyway”

hugs and a tip for the girl who only wanted to make my day a little better

and it’s something we don’t have enough of

people who are genuinely nice

like honestly what does it cost you?

I like to look at myself from afar in this grand scheme called life

and sometimes lose the importance of my existence

making too much of a big deal of what’s to come

wanting not to miss out on it all…

Just tell me I can win this thing

and leave my loved ones with memories of my laugh,

my smile and words

because they are what I am made of


product of my environment,
I am clearly blessed.

The Dark Side: Part One
---
And if I bit you from your neck
Down to the rest of your body
Periodically kissing the spots I know you love,
Would your body respond?
Would you reject my hands at your waist?
As I took a taste of the sweet nectar
That lay within your lips?
And once your body has reached its peak
And your mind goes blank as it begins to seep
Into the pure ecstasy of lust,
Would you surrender and just “say it”?
Just let your inhibitions go,
Your perverted imagination flow
And speak on your body’s desires
While my fingers trace your shape
Further exciting you more
Upon their journey they encounter a weakness
A point that influences your vocal chords,
As your composure beaks down
And the process of passion begins
Foreplay is now torture,
You speak sultry whispers into my ear,
And ask for more,
More, more…

-Jimmy Desire

I guess I knew I wasn’t done.
you see, the feeling never faded
it was just negated, if only for a while
late last night you crept into my imagination while I slept
and I finally told you everything I ever wanted to say
how the past is in the past and don’t mean a thing
that your smile is a blessing and without it I sin
trying to fill the core that you left empty
I suppose I envy you now
you’ve got scares
but you live so carefree now

I love that

I wish I wasn’t so concerned about where my heart will lay
when my hair grows gray
I know it’s sad
but I’m convinced that when I complete that part of the puzzle
the image will become clearer
and all will fall into place
it’s just that I’d always imagined you by my side
but it just wasn’t meant to be
I can live with that
because honestly all that I care is that

You are happy
because that’s what I aimed to achieve with you.

When your nothing to nobody
and you just want to be something to somebody

Same intro as before but please bare with me…
You see that moment was enough
If only you knew where my mind was prior to yesterday
It’d surprise you I swear
The demons I've kept in captivity as we laughed and sang
Even I forgot they existed for a moment
Sitting above the clouds
Cruising in my ride
A beautiful girl at my side
Her smile was everything
Her silly *** ad-libin’
But it was natural and simple
It felt so rejuvenating
and of course thoughts ran close to the borders of NSFW
As quick as when I stepped into her home
And had a chance to admire her **** physique
and how good her **** looked
on her slim little frame
Ravishing señorita
She knows I’ve got my eye on her
like something I desire
But time is critical to a matter such as this
A coin flips and like a hit switch
The light fades
Darkness reigns
And she can’t seem to take control of the thoughts that rage
Lately, I’ve known the feeling
I guess this is why I stay late and write rhymes such as this
And I love the influence you bring indeed
But I will always be respectful to what you need.
I just hope that she sees
What I’m saying ain't’t the same
Blunt or not
Today I was satisfied
Knowing I made her smile
and the only thing that would’ve made it better
is if I was singing those words into her ear as we danced
and our bodies intertwined like a moth to the flame
as the music consumed us…

Because there’s nothing like feeling wanted
When you’re told you’re worthless
By the same people you call family
Or when the friends you defend
Have you feeling ashamed
For calling them exactly that
A friend
but lately,
History is all that chains us
But like Ksan say,
It might be time to cut them off
And it hurts more because we’re supposed to be brothers
But that doesn't seem to matter to all of us…
I apologize if that’s none of your concern
I wouldn't want to waste breath on something you fail to care about
Don’t mind tho,
I’m forever the lonely poet
Trying to gather an audience of peers
To hear me speak
because I figure maybe its what they seek
I’m just searching for the ones that these words may reach
as they read this speech
and realize
that in life,
there is always more than meets the eye.

Late night mediation
ended up picking up this pen
Steady thinking bout you
"Ooh no, no, no"
It's true lady,
You've ambushed my mind
And are the only thing that remains
When night falls till the sunrise
The music plays on in the background
And I wonder if you ever think so far ahead?
Because I get it forever's a long time, more like a life time
But "temporary lover" won't make you mine
And excuse me Mr. Ocean for borrowing another line but
"I remember how could I forget, how you feel"
But I'd rather not be the one continuously mending a heart you could willingly heal.
The past I had once clung onto desperately taught me that
also, a mentor I had once instructed me that love shouldn't suffocate
only alleviate and enrich our quality of living.
So, come and take a walk with me
because you talked about getting away,
somewhere where you could enjoy the watching the sunset
and I just want to watch you bask in a beauty as natural as you
held tight in my embrace
you can hear my heart race
as if its the bass to our favorite song
and with your sweet little voice, you sing along
I sincerely believe
this could all be possible
but go on and call me foolish
I'll still sing these love songs as loudly and proudly as I did in my youth
When I was just around the age of 8 in my room
belting, "Everyone Falls In Love Sometimes"
cause it's true
and "I Don't Know Bout You But It Ain't A Crime"
but that might depend who you talk to
because "catching feelings" apparently has become some sort of affliction
when the case of the matter is
it only matters when
the source of affliction isn't afflicted too
a little something we've all been through
nothing to be ashamed of either
just another lesson learned with time
scheming on ways to make you mine
with a period missing from every line
running on and on about the ways I love this song
and how you embody the passion sung
so go on and call me selfish,
I mean it is what it is,
But if it is love you desire,
and you like to take the time to get to know me
I'll give you a constant supply

A few words for a girl I care for
Before you awake and start your long day,
I thought I might write a little something to help you through it.
Life is hard, that much I understand
I just hope you try not to let all the negativity consume you
There are obstacles it’ll put us through
But I’d like you to always remember this:
No matter what it is that’s bothering you
May the radiance of your smile never diminish,
Your determination never waiver,
May faith never leave you
And your love never fade
For they and your personality make you special
Caring,
Ambitious,
And successful,
Take pride in that
Please believe that you are amazing in so many ways
Because it is seen through the eyes of many
It just saddens me that yours aren’t one of them
So these are just a few words to remind you
Hopefully you don’t forget
And if ever you do
I hope you look this over
and remember how that smile just happened to come across your face.

Much Love,
Jimmy Desire

It’s hard to need something you been wasting
time is everlasting but how much you got left?
worried about when my loved ones will expire
in fear I didn’t show then enough love and appreciation
chasing females like they’ve got all the answers
but I know I need the “right one”
keep my mind as sharp as the edge of the blade
keep me straight to the path of greatness
truth be told though,
I’ve got to stop looking for the answers in others
draw my own pocket aces
be my own secret weapon
like baby, maybe you missing something. (HA)
need to be an example to the ones coming up
possibly why I’ve been so quiet lately,
got old friends inquiring on my whereabouts
always had been the socialite,
last few years I’ve been more like a hermit
off on an island like I’m Roshi!
had to stay low-key, too much on the mind
drifting in crystal clear waters reflecting the distant clouds
bathing in the sun, meditating on all I’ve seen
of all that exists in the world
all creatures above and underneath me
find a way to live harmoniously,
the circle of life filled with beauty and strife
this little rock holds glorious wonders
and pain often unbearable
mothers across the world mourning over lost sons and daughters
whether it be the color of skin
or which god you place your faith in.
Our diversity should be the last thing destroying our global society.
Just playing my part as I see fit,
A piece of mind, longing for a peace of mind.
All the while, worrying I’m wasting my precious time.
Lost in a trance, weathering the storm of thoughts that rages on viciously.
Each strike of thunder ignites the flow of spilled ink shaping itself onto this canvas.
When the rain stops, I gaze upon the results.

© James Desire 2015

Unity
-Jimmy Desire

Uncertainty and insecurity
Make up a false reality which engulfs your mind
This notion becomes a shade
It shrouds your vision
Blinding you from the truth
Caught in a struggle within yourself
You have a hard time being convinced
Of what’s really going on
Over analysis of a situation
Could lead to an unnecessary solution
So what do you do if you lack trust,
Or the confidence to make the right decision?
Find a shoulder to lean on
Someone to confide in
Even heroes need heroes sometimes
Giving in doesn’t mean your weak
But smart enough to know that you need help
And will ask for it
No one is perfect,
Everyone goes through the same things
Tell me why it is
That if we live on this world together
We can’t work through our problems together
This world needs more love and consideration
So I extend my arm
Reach out
To let you know
If you ever need it
I’ll be here for you

I wonder whats so appealing about demons and their temptations
Or about characters who don't quite have their stories straight
Claiming the day is to come but never actually sets a date
Lost in a trail of their own confusion
In the hopes they might sedate it
But with the path of destruction left in their wake
They couldn't help but feel ashamed, right?
I mean, don't you?
You couldn't be so foolish
Or be so heartless
To realize this isn’t right
You only surpass me in age by a year and yet
You’ve become quite bitter
I try to understand but to be this lost
Is simply lost to me
I'm told to just try to understand that we all have demons
But must they manifest in this nature?
Then demand the respect of your allies with disrespect
It makes no sense
Do you see how vulnerable a piece is when the pawns are gone
Don't you hate feeling like you're all alone?
I truly wonder if you get it though,
Because its truly sad to see
Especially that day you spoke to me
I saw someone who wanted to become accepted
You just went about it the wrong way
and I can’t help but wonder what lead you so astray?
Whether it be a troubled past or you just like to be a pain in the ***
I hope you find some peace
In this chaotic battlefield you call life.

…Until Next Time…

-Jimmy Desire



No matter how long I hold you

Things will never change

You aren’t a possession

But someone I’d like to call mine…



The hands of time have taught me a lesson

It’s not meant to be

But I continue to write because

You’re a constant dream

What kills me the most is that it isn’t reality

Dream turned nightmare

Still,

You haunt me

I welcome you with open arms

Cuz’ it’s where I’d rather be…



In Your Arms,

There’s no doubt

Silent,

But the sounds of our heartbeat

I look down,

Elegance in brown eyes

Lightly toned skin

And a comforting smile that satisfies me from within

The wind blows

And she clenches onto me

As if not to be swept away

She knows I’ll never let go

Her hands speak

Tricking her fingers around my back,

It whispers,

“Closer”

To ease her mind,

I hold her tighter and respond,

“I’m right here, I’ll always be here”

Under an umbrella

We stand

As the storm rages on around us

Pellets of raindrops fall with increased force

But can never pierce the fortress we created

Let the record show,

She’s irreplaceable



Finally,

Eyes stumble until they meet

The message is mutual,

“Until next time”

Unwillingly,

Simultaneously,

We break the chain that binds us

And drift back into reality…



Reality…



“Until Next Time”



Copyright © 2010 Desire Enterprises

Untitled
By: James Desire
                                    
Why do you put us through so much pain?
Do you really love him?
I guess we ain't the same…
A year ago,
We took a ride together,
In the rain and all the other bad weather
And yes we were cool,
Cause even after school
We were side by side
Chillen, laughin' and livin' the life
It was about a year later
And things got greater
Could've sworn you and I were meant for each other
But then things changed
We got so rearranged
And in the confusion of it all
Our connection was lost in the wash of the rain
And I understand what ever I thought we had is gone…
But whatever the situation may be
You know I'll always be there for my baby
And what I really want to know is…
Is this what you really want?
You still the same girl I met last year?
And Finally,
Since you wear a mask
Whenever I pass
Sometimes hesitate to ask
Are you REALLY okay?
Cause now a days,
The rain falls harder every time I hear your name.

An Ode To TCC

As the sun sets behind the clouds
and the once warm weather becomes cold
I begin to wonder exactly how many sunsets have ended just like this
the sun’s rays glimmering perfectly off of the water
the rowdiness of the children’s voices slowly diminish
and a gentle breeze that waves with the leaves seems to guide us all home

“Another day, another dollar” I always say
forgetting most of the time to bask in the radiance of this beauty
because in a year or two,
it’ll be nothing but a memory
sweet recollections of simplicity
and yet for some,
these are the best years that life has to offer

Simple days basking in the summer rays on a fresh patch of grass,
taking in and inhaling the very essence of relaxation
or exploring the world and discovering the many secrets that it holds
for it may not change you,
but in time it will help you mold
the person you will be,
and the people around you
so I beg you, please, embrace the day.

Sometimes I’m too caught up in the future to enjoy what’s right in front of me
So today I picked up my pencil
and I took a minute to describe it
took a moment to decide if
I’d let this moment fade with the rest
and ignore it while the sunset

Play your part
Practice your art
Create your distance
And watch her back arch
Fluidity in your charm
But your doubt stunts you
Pessimistic thoughts haunt you
And when it all seems to be going well your mind gets to racing
Better yet estimating when your luck will end…
Coy and timid you seem to set limits to what you can do
Shame because that’s the point where you really start to lose
It’s your path to choose
Continue to on this gentlemanly cruise second guessing every move
Or pull the trigger and just take action
No thoughts required just fire.
If she worth it, don’t overthink it
Embrace it.

To whom it may concern,
That certain one running through my thoughts
MJ to be more precise
The L is missing because I’m not sure it ever existed
Now you’ve got a lot going on
that much I understand
But is anything you said reality?
Or are you just keeping me around…
Granted I know that kid was nothing
And you in love with the man you with
But those words shared only at the crack of dawn
Where are they coming from?
I’m not naïve; I’m trying hard not to be foolish
But you, you mean so much
And I know that I told myself I wouldn’t write these words again
But ****
My hands get a hold of a pen and your name is the first thing on the line
And I’d be doing fine if any of this made sense but its corroding my mind
…sigh…
Make it make sense
I promised to never leave you
And you claimed you didn’t want to hurt me
Well maybe for now, distance is the best remedy
Because I don’t want to see the same man hurt you
And if he doesn’t, I don’t want to see what I fear come true
But boo, I want whatever is best for you
And I mean that sincerely
so I wish you the most happiness
and bid adieu to you.

Much Love,
James Desire

I’m thankful to have met you
But listen to some words of advice
You shouldn’t doubt yourself
I know how it feels to be lonely
I want to experience love as well
But what’s love in this society?
***** sheets
Covered with the stench of disappointment in the morning?
Shame
Why does chivalry seem to be dead and gentlemen so close to extinct?
Because tradition has faded
The old days of taking it slow are gone
No time for the mind and heart to speak
If the body is too busy creeping into others’ sheets
And young lovers,
In love they think they have fell
So they continue the cycle as well
To find the love only fairy tales could tell…

I’m trying to find substance in something that’s transparent
But it seems to elude me before I get the chance
Like the wind,
It comes and goes as it pleases
And leaves its mark on the hearts of men
Uncertainty fills their mind as they attempt to remember when
they were consumed by it's affliction
and what it's done to them.

the memory flies by quick
but in the moment its timeless
its the simple things that make it all worth it
but in the end
those are the hardest to remember
what was it that i was feeling?
and when can i feel it again?
because like a drug im addicted to the amount of satisification
it brings
better yet i guess i'm addicted to the kinda person she is

love has no defination
so even if i cant tell you what it is exactly
let me descibe it in my words...
it's wanting to wake up next to you
to catch you at your most peaceful
its having you by my side
with interlocking fingers exploring the world
its being stingy and incredibily unreasonable about the time you spent without me
its something you never expected
but a feeling you never want to go away.
its letting go even you dont want to
its discovering that they mean more to you than u thought.

When your nothing to nobody and you just want to be something to somebody

I wanna be like
Life ain't fair
But you see that ain't rare
And my girl Ana said it like this...
"How they suppose to like what they see
If you ain't in their line of sight..."

I know she right
I'm a loner
That hate being alone
Work with beautiful women
But I'm always professional
Even when my thoughts start to become
Not Safe For Work
I just sang and do my thang.
Because the R&B; purifies me
& "Nothing Was The Same" tracks amplify me
So that the only time I hear my name in anyone's mouth
Is out of praise
Because I'm trying to be the best at what I do
I be thinking though
What these girls think of the kid
Quiet, but he really love to sing
Tap you on your shoulder cause he don't know your name
But he always smile after a question
Because he's genuine

Hello miss,
How are you this afternoon?
Well uh,
you look stunning
I just thought I should let you know
Because your smile has made my day
and now I hope you have a great evening too
****
Déjà Vu
But who woulda knew?
The kid is too cautious to jump into anything new
So he stays focused on what he came to do
Come to work and have fun
Wasn't that the agenda boo?

A few words from a good one.
Ana
Beautiful soul,
And I met her on the last day of high school
The girl deserves the best.
Because her mind right,
Her smile warming
And intelligence is ****.
And she can vibe with me and my music and poetry.
I'm so lucky to have this person as a friend
I guess I should really try to keep in touch with her more.
And that's real!

Take notice:
this went from talking about something I want,
to showing appreciation to my friend.
Even though I shouldn't, I always put them first,
they are my family
Honestly,
the people in my life are the best
and I am forever grateful for them

~
This was a little something for a friend.
Thanks for the inspiration.
As always sweetheart
shine bright
and know that if you need a shoulder to lean upon
I'll be right there behind you
just give me the word.
okay?

Practice takes patience
and patience takes practice
figuring out who you are takes that and a compass
nothing as simple as asking,
rather, much more like searching
for the smallest details that makes you, you.
Self-exploration
and in the case of others,
no longer are we searching
but rather waiting for pathways to open
connections are made with everything that we learn
but that takes time, dont rush the process
dont get anxious or nervous
just express your intrest
you see thats how friendships are made and relationships develop
you see time takes patience,
and patience takes practice.

A little love for me,
A little love for me,
Can’t you see that’s all I really need?
A prideful soul searches quietly
Through a world overrun by women
Who no longer hold pride as a priority
Shame but I suppose that’s why I search so diligently
Raised by the melody of R&B;
A group with a burning passion for their art
Had caught my attention and left an impression on my young mind
And in time, I believed in the kind of love they described
A little something like,

“I’ll Make Love To You
Like you want me to
And I’ll hold you tight
baby all through the night…”
Yeah maybe a little ******
But at such a young age who was I to know
I believed it though,
The power of a woman giving you so much happiness
That you must indeed shower her in love
Then another melody had reached me
It hit me suddenly like,

“My whole life has changed,
Since you came in, I knew back then
you were that special one,
I’m so in love, so deep in love.”

This man Ginuwine was genuine in the way he described this
He found love and then grabbed it
She made him feel whole,
A mate for his soul
A woman that I’m dying to get home to and hold
To settle down with and confine in
The one I will raise our child with
Just to demonstrate the love that is sure to grow through all the years
Foolish I suppose but you must believe
That this message is sincere
From the bottom of my heart
Or rather than inner depths of my core
To the girl that I do not yet know
Let the record show
This is for you.

Truly yours,
Desire