As I wake up in the morning
Eyes still shut
Sun beaming on my face through the window
Birds chirping

I wonder what to tell my father in my suicide note

People say his name with such ease
But his name is like a two foot dagger
And every time they call him a friend
It’s another twist into my spine breaking me apart one vertebrae at a time

I wish I could tell you what’s really on my mind
I wish I could open up and spill all the secrets held within this twenty years of life
But there’s nothing I could say to make you care
There’s nothing I could possibly say that would make you want to listen
So I will stay silent
Because I know that’s what you truly want

I just wish you knew how much this silence is killing me
How much these secrets are killing me
Like a two foot dagger into my back is killing me
Pushing me
Closer
Closer
To finding out what to say to my father in my suicide note

As the sunshine breaks through the horizon
As the world awakens
She lets go of her terrors of the night
And grasps onto her dreams of a new day
A new chance
A new life

Oh
How desperately I've wanted to meet someone
Just
Like

You.