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Another school shooting
Why am I not surprised
I guess it's because
We cherish guns over lives

America the brave
Land of the free
Where we have the right to bear arms
But can't go to school in peace

We protest and riot
After a ******* Superbowl
But only offer thoughts and prayers
To the families of children
Who aren't coming home

We build walls
And set travel bans
But as long as you're American
Take your pick of our finest
AR 15s on hand

We parade around
For gay rights and feminism
And whatever the **** else
But when someone murders 17 children
We say it was his 2nd amendment right
And put our last shred of dignity
On the bottom of a dusty shelf

I don't want to raise my child
In a world where
Mass shootings are normalised
I don't want to live in a country
Where human life means so little
That the most we do is tweet
When innocent people die

To the victims of the Parkland shooting
I am so sorry the system failed you
And to the people with the
Power to make a change
Times been up
Now what the **** are going to do

My spirit has finally gone numb
Considering all the knives that
Have been thrown at me
I guess it was bound to happen eventually, Right?
I can only paint on a smile for so long
Until I run out
I can only pretend I didn't hear what you said for so long
Before it becomes too loud
And you'll wonder what's wrong with me
And why I don't speak
And why it seems like I've given up on everything lately
All the while not realizing
You contributed to me being this way
Because I'm the weird one for thinking
It's overkill to be burned at the stake
But it's fine
That's life right?
You do everything they want and
They still hunt down their best knives
I guess I better run to the store
To pick up some paint
I'm going to need one hell of a smile
To get through this day

I close my eyes as
I let myself feel every sensation
Your hands are playing
Devil's advocate
Making me give in to every temptation
Your fingertips trace the
Outline of my curves
Your lips kiss my neck and
I quickly come undone
Your naked skin touches mine
And suddenly I can't breathe
Your heart beats against mine
Doing a dance we can feel but can't see
My name coming off your lips
Is my favorite song
I kiss you in all the right places
So I can hear it all night long
When it starts to get intense
You give a half smile
Your hands grip my legs
And it personifies desire
When we're done
I can still feel your kiss lingering
Just like a summoned ghost
The taste of your lips is haunting
With every passing moment
You make me crave more
We're already tangled up
So what are you waiting for

Something in the air changed
That October of 2008
Your eyes glistened
And your smile sparkled
More than I'd ever admit to say
I recall you running down the hall
Just to catch up to me
You'd pull me by the hood
And stop me in my tracks
If my speed proved too fast to meet
I knew I fell for you
When I would walk slower
To give you time to catch up
You didn't notice but
When you came around
My whole body went numb
I penned you a little note
Because I knew you had to be mine
A life without that infectious smile
Hurt too much to think about
I was starving for your touch
More than I would let you see
Just like I need air to breathe
My heart needed you to beat
My mind was a hurricane
But you calmed the storm
Now everytime I hear your voice
It feels like I'm coming home
Your arms are my safe haven
My happy place from God
I'm fortunate I wrote you
That note 9 years ago
Who knew it would take us this far

Six years later and here we are again
So who's the victim this time
The misunderstood father
Or the forever abandoned daughter
Lets skip to the end
Because I've already read this story
Don't message me on Facebook
If you're not going to be there for me

So it's been 8 years
And we're still going strong
I never get enough of you
Just like a Taylor Swift song
We've been doing this
For quite a while
A love like ours
Just never goes out of style
Like when you pick me up for a date
And put the car in drive
You blast Paramore
And dance to Hard Times
You take my hand
And make me join in
We both act silly
Not caring caring who's watching
I love when I stare at you
And you start to blush
You try your best not to look at me
Because you're in a loss for words
It never gets old
Sitting in the car
And we stare at each other
While waiting for the movie to start
I'll never get tired
Of how excited you get
When you open my door
And make sure I'm all the way in
And I can't help but laugh
Every time you get upset
When I open the door myself
But you wanted to be a gentleman
It never gets old
Having a regular conversation
And you randomly compliment me
It's such a beautiful transition
Everything about us
Is absolutely magical
There's no one else
With who I could be more compatible
You breathe life into me
And give everyday new meaning
Who knew reality could be better
Than the fairytales I was dreaming

I really wish I never got sick
So my mom won't get offended
When I say I can't eat
Mom, I promise I wish I wasn't this way
What's the point of writing this poem
It's not like you'll ever see it anyway
But if you do...

I don't know