I've fallen down
I've fallen in
To the old me
To who I used to be
I have become
The person I wish I wasn't
I tried so hard
I tried for so long
To keep the past out of my life

But I've fallen down
I've fallen in
A portal has been opened
It's made me fall
So far to the ground
I've fallen in my past
I've found

That was the person I had hoped was long gone
Turned out she was waiting for my life to go wrong
Now that it has I've fallen in
I can't come
For I'm too deep in

As the teacher yells
I look at the others faces
And I can tell
The majority of them don't care
The teacher tries to better us
And all you hear is snares
The others laugh and joke
The teacher yells
She even threatens to
Call home and tell their parents
They think she's being funny
She tries her best to mature us
No one seems to realize
The power that she possesses

J-ust another person
E-xcited to write
S-arcastic
S-ensitive
I- ntelligent
C-reative
A-nxious

I liked you once
No one knew
But now suddenly
Out of the blue
I strangely have developed
The same old feelings for you
We both liked each other
You even asked me out
But I couldn't say yes
For my heart was taken by someone else
But we talk a lot
I enjoy talking to you
My feelings have come back to me
But I don't know about yours
My friends now know
That I like you again
And they will reach
To the ends to try and get
Me to ask you out
I want to but,
I am
Overtaken
With
Doubt...

I sometimes
No I always
Wonder if people
Would care about me more
If I was just another dead girl
It's least likely for nobody cares anyway
So they could say go **** yourself and not care if you do

I sometimes
No I always
Wonder if people
Would see me for who I was
No just another nobody or a wannabe
They wouldn't see me for the intelligent and pretty and kind girl I am
It's basically they are ignoring the fact you are actually human as well.

I sometimes
No I always
Wonder if people
Would actually miss me
Out of the love and pain of their heart
Not just cause I helped them with homework or a problem

I however
Never seem
To realize
That no one would care
Except my parents and my five friends

I fail
To realize
That nobody except my family and five friends
Will see me for the me I truly was

I fail
To realize
That nobody but my family and five friends
Will truthfully miss me

I fail to realize
Because I shield reality
So it don't break me
If I see reality I shed tears constantly
If I see reality I see how terrible this world is
And all I can wonder is
If I died
Who would care
If I died
Who would see me for who I actually am
If I died
Who would miss me
If I died
Why was I given suicidal thoughts to begin with
Why was I bullied so much
Why was I hurt so much
Why did everyone break me
Why did I have to cry at everything
Why couldn't I have been tougher
Why couldn't I have fought longer
Why didn't I keep the ones that loved me close
Why did I push my loved ones away
Why did I make so many mistakes
Why did I turn away from God so much
Why did I doubt God
Why did I lose my best friends
Why did I gain friends worth more that I deserve
Why am I treated so nicely when I am a bad person
Why
Why
Why do I wish I were dead?
I have life so good
So why do I want to end it so badly
No matter how much I oust the thoughts away
Suicide
Anxiety
Depression
Low self esteem
No confidence

They come back stronger than I can handle anymore
So I want to just end it all
The headaches
The heartaches
They all come back

When asked if I am okay
All I can reply is
I'm fine
It's all I can do

But the only question
I want people to ask is

Why?

Have you heard something you wish you shouldn't have
Today I did I wish I could forget
But it was very serious
So my mind is turning
Hoping that this person is okay
And that they are sad by the end of the day

You shove me trying to make me fall
But I still yet stand mighty and tall
This makes you mad so you try another approach
However you just remind me of a roach
You creep you crawl you are very annoying
Go back to being a kid and toying with others
For I am not putting up with your childish acts

I have decided to return
To this lovely site
For my depression is keeping
Me awake at night
It it drowning me with fright
So I have decided poetry will help
Me come up for a breath
I have missed this site dearly
Here young teens are taken seriously
Unlike in reality when we are mistakened for jokes
My depression makes me choke
Scared of my own image
But I have yet
Returned

As I'm sitting in class
I am very near to falling asleep
If I get in trouble
I probably will weep
But for some odd reason I can't help
But begin to continuously
Fall asleep

I was once able to write poems
But it seems not my brain has crashed
So I'm afraid I will stop writing at last
I can not think of the words to say
Though my brain is thinking every night and day
I can not think of the feelings I
Used to fill my poems with
But now I am staring at my boring, white ceiling
For this will probably be my last
For my brain has stopped
Though writing poetry was a blast
I now say goodbye
And I will soon after cry
But farewell

This ring you have been given
Has been cursed
For you are not the first
To have this ring upon your hand
For if it's removed you will be banned
From ever having friends
Or family
For this ring represents
The love you bring
So please whatever you do
Keep on the ring

I hear the wind blow
Through the broken windows
No one has been here in ages
I can tell from all the dust collected
I look down and see the old pages
That once were used to count orders
But now just lie on the floor getting colder
This old warehouse hasn't been used in ages
People no longer get wages for this is just an
Old abandoned warehouse

I keep my mouth shut
Though I have much to say
I try to keep my cool
For just one more day
This silence inside me
Is driving me mad
Though the things they say
Is making me sad

Life is like a puzzle
We can never figure it out
For when we can not find the right piece
We soon are covered with doubt
We try to piece everything together
But maybe we are better off
Not seeing the final product
Instead we put the puzzle away
And try to start something new
But we always will wonder
What was that missing piece
As I continuously think about this
I soon realize that the piece will never be discovered
So now I sit here and realize
I am not puzzled

I am finally feel free
For I have my license
As you can see
I can go see amazing things
I am thankful
I passed
I don't think I would last
Without being able to drive
I now know that this
Is the one thing thing I've
Been missing all
My life

The leaves crackle
The birds sing
However this is not spring
It's colder so I shiver
I hear a stream from a small river
I hear the brisk wind blowing through
An old weeping willow tree
For I may not see it
But I can hear the many sounds
Of Nature

People scream at me
When I have done nothing
I just don't understand
They cuss each other out
For no reason
I still just
Don't understand
People fight over stupid things
I just don't understand
Why must there be the
All over this land
I just don't understand

The holidays are here
They fill us all with cheer
We spend time with ones
That we love dear
We laugh and joke
Just pray we don't choke
On this food we can't get enough of
There are those who don't find
The joy of holidays
But don't let that crush your spirit
Keep the joy with you at all times
And listen to the joyful carols chime

I gather wood
And flint and steel
For I soon will need
To feel the warmth
Of a burning fire
So I arrange the wood in a certain order
I hurry for I'm getting colder
I get the flint and steel I finally
Start the fire so now I am warm again
But I honestly hate having to start
The fire

They are so different
For she is proper
And drinks her evening tea
And he drinks his coffee
In the morning
They are so different
But yet so similar
For they both love each other
The same

Even though there are things we need
There will always be things that we want
We get those by shopping
When we shop usually it's for ourselves
We hardly thing about other people
when shopping until
it's around the holiday season
So all our money just disappears
Just like a flash it's gone
So be considerate and and not selfish

I feel trapped
For I'm stuck at school
I feel trapped
For I follow the rules
I feel trapped
For I don't belong
I feel trapped
So I write some songs
I feel trapped
when I'm alone
I feel trapped
When I dream of a throne

123 our life can flash
123 we need more cash
123 it's all we need
123 that's the number we often see
The most important thing
we need to remember
We don't need money
We don't need time
I don't even need this poem to rhyme
I just need my life to be exciting
This poem to be good
for that will satisfy me
For its as
Easy like saying
123

They started to move and dance
When they saw each other at first glance

She saw him dancing and she kept on dancing
She watched with joy
For she saw a really cute boy

He saw her and he kept on dancing
Watching her blue eyes
With glee for he saw
An angel in disguise

But neither told how they felt
So it forever remained
A Realistic Love

I try to look ahead
But I can not
For the road ahead  is now blocked
I can't see through
The fog or the haze
It just happened to be
one of those days
Where the car won't start
Someone breaks your heart
Now you can't see ahead

You started out as my foe
And pretty soon I started to know
That we would be friends
Forever until the end
God sent you to me
For you to forever make me happy
You make me laugh
You make me cry
I hope we never say goodbye
For I don't know where I would be
Without you
Kirsten Nicole Jeffrey yea

While we sit here and watch the violence
There is nothing but empty silence
When we should be opposing the racial friction
Not see it and go on
Nobody is fighting
So I made a stand
There are so many racial problems
That nobody is willing to try and stop them
For they don't care
"So I seldom if ever
do pause to answer criticism
of my work and ideas"

Whether it's sour or sweet
We don't care for we devour
It's ate left and right
And none is ever left in sight

It's bad for you
It makes you sick

But we don't care
Love is like candy
For it is also bad for you

They can both hurt and break
But we never see our mistake
Candy and love

They are both sweet
And both a treat
But love is like candy

Candy can hurt and break
But we never see our mistake

Dear Mrs. Seay
In your class
I feel free
I can sing without being judged
Singing was once one of my dreams
Poetry is now my calling
But my heart remains dear
To singing
my first passion
Thank you for helping me pursue that
Forever lost dream

As I dreadfully clean my room
I eventually need a broom
I find papers and drawings
That were never finished
They were meant to be trash
But instead they ended up stashed
Away I hoped forever
Until I find them again

As I dreadfully make my bed
It's easier done than said honestly
The pillows get thrown in the floor
The sheets get thrown out the door

I do dishes
I make them clean
But they are never
what they seem
For little specks
Little particles of food stay
And cling on

Cleaning maybe boring
And it maybe dreadful
But without cleaning
Where would we be
In a pile of clothes
Or maybe trash

But we forever
Need to always
Clean

When people look at you
They see a pretty girl

When I look at you
I see an intelligent young woman

You love compliments 
You love attention

But I know you are better than that
For if you weren't then I wouldn't 
Admire you

Yes I would love the beauty

But I would mainly love the brains
For you are my cousin
And I admire you

I am thankful for you

Why talk about me
When you can say
It to my face

Why say you like me
When I know that
It's not true

Why lie to me
When I know
What the truth is

Gossip is pointless
Why talk about someone
When they know what you say

Is that your goal?
Do you just want to say it
Just to be able to
Gossip?

Why would you ever want
To be a "just man"?
To settle with something
When it's not what you want
Why act like you are fine with something
When you aren't
Is it human nature to lie
Or do we say them to avoid the truth
Either way why settle
When you could have what you want?
Never settle and be a
Just Man

When anyone yells
If anyone tells
I just want to disappear
To my own world
My own dimension
Just anywhere but hear
I want to leave
For I know that nobody
Would care anyways
So my mind soon goes off
To my perfect universe
Know as
My Own World

We accept them for their colors
Why can't we accept people the same
For they are black and white
But society can't decide whether
To hate whites or blacks

The boys at my school are players
For one minute they have a girlfriend
Then next thing you they hate her

Then the next minute they are with someone new
It's not unusual to see a boy with girl after girl
Or boys who dump girls they get back with them
Because they are soon desperate

So players take advantage
They like preps
Populars and *****

They don't like normal people
That are nice
For they are
Players

I go to school
It's full of fools
Who don't know how
To follow the rules
They get everyone in trouble
When you just want to learn
They make your day bad
Which makes you either
Mad or sad
But that's just how is has always been
When you go to
School

Snakes

The snakes
Are know as fakes
They are everywhere
And they backstab you
They also spawn left right and center
You can't get away from them
No matter how hard you try
You can't escape
For they make you cry
Until you want to say goodbye
You can never escape
The creepy crawly
Snakes

You tell me all these lies
But you say they are true
You don't see that
I can see the truth
You don't want me anymore
I see how you look at others
The same way you used to look at me

They scream
They tell
They will always eventually tell
Whether you do something or not
If you said it or did it
Everyone will know soon
They spread rumors
They spread secrets
It seems they don't understand
But it all makes sense
In the end
For you will soon realize
That they are your
Fake Friends

When you are in choir
It's like a fire
That never stops burning
We sing to our desire
As we are all part of this fire
You teach us all we need to know
You make some of us happy when we are low
We are united together
For we are part of this fire

Mother I thought you loved me
Mother I thought the words you said were true
They were all lies
You left me stranded in the rain
Until the police came
They set me up as a foster
They asked me if I had anything
With me I quietly replied
No I lost her
Who is she they asked
I burst out into tears
My mother dear has left me here
I thought she loved me
I thought the she said were true
Now I'm cold and blue
For I'm without a home and family
For I am now a foster

Our country is in trouble
The end is near
For I am just waiting
For Jesus to appear
To take me away from this
Terrible place
Where problems are solved not
With knowledge and wisdom
But with war and violence
It's truly
Meaningless
But that is it
The country that's supposed
To be free

The night before
Was gone for longer
Periods of time
Men on horseback
Soon arrived
My eyes sought
On the knights
For they would not open to doors
As the walls circulated around me
I fear the worst
As I cry out for I feel trapped
Because
The night before
was gone for longer
Periods of time

You teach me many things
Though many people see it as a speech
I learn from you everyday
So hear these words that I say
I thank you for the knowledge and wisdom
From the beginning to the end
You will always be one of my favorite teachers
Even if it seems that this is pretend
I will always remember you until the end

That's a strange word
Don't you think

The fear of writing
Is what it means

It's amazing to think
That a person could
Fear one of the most powerful things

Since they use it everyday
Or they see it everyday

It's a strange word I shall say
Though the meaning makes me
Feel a bit grey