I will never die

I will forever reside

Between the delicate whispers

And the roar of the battle cries

To never fold

Because I am gold

Forged between the tamed

That became the uncontrolled

I see
With such clarity
Every stitch of every seam
Every wake of heavy dreams
Every ray of steady beams
I see
With such clarity
The evolution of man
Pearls conjured through a sea of blood
To die on empty sands
I see
With such clarity
Events so muted and small
There said to have not existed
But I witness it all
I see
With such clarity
Life against the lifeless
I see with such clarity
But I yearn for the blindness

Call me

Not by my name

But by the memories we made

The feelings we enslaved  

And the songs that we played

Just call me

Not tomorrow

Or next week

But call me today

I lay awake
My soul solar flared
My eyes moon baked
The folds of my psyche do nothing but excavate
Dreams and aspirations who face each other to annihilate
The bodies in the bodies of water that suffocate
From the gases of the masses of the pools I hydrate
To restore the lost of concentration when I fail to levitate
I love the evolution but the revolution breeds the hate
And evil deeds plant seeds that blossom to ones fate
Stuck In in the middle of these shifting tectonic plates
Being told I'm right on time
Knowing that Im late

I have been having dreams
Actually more like visions
About tight roping on the division
Of two polar opposite positive dimensions
Trying to find my balance
Trying to slay this monster of a challenge
Trying to decipher the fiber of this forgotten passage
This script burns my flaws like gold on a skillet
And my emotion run cold
To where pain I don't feel it
My core divided like a sliced apple
Like the one Adam ate with no limit
Being told by Eve it was good for his soul
Even though it rotten the essence of  his spirit
I know I ****** up
I can just feel it
I danced on the other side too much
But it was just so appealing
Now Im unsure if I'll fuse into the floor
Or scape these high ceilings

Its either you never felt it

Or you felt too much of it

I can tell by the way you dealt with it

Ill treating your authority

Bleeding for the therapy

Nourishing your enemies

All for the love of it

You want to give up on it

But your not even close to being done with it

It provided mediocre times

But now you seek to have fun with it

But answer me this

Why you climb out these crevices

Just to nose dive to die in these pits

You make it so complicated I have to admit

Dressing in garments as fabricated as fabrics should ever want to get

Yet I try to find bliss in the abyss of what I fear to reminisce

Still I can't even fathom the phantoms of what it really all is

So I stare at a refection of a collection of addictive liquid courage

I pour just a bit

I take just a sip

It superheats my core

But I don't dare to ever spit

Because the stronger the proof

The more potent the soothe

And the more potent the soothe

The more spoken the truth

And the more spoken the truth

The purer the youth

So I take this voyage

On murky brown waters inscribe with the clearest of clairvoyance

Enforcing visions upon me I for so long heaved to avoidance

I'll ask again please excuse the annoyance

But do you want to know what I see now?

I see a person being consumed by vices

A drained soul trying to roll a seven with only one die

When its only possible with two loaded dices

Still you vigorously try it

As your body deteriorates on this empty caloric diet

Usually there is a method to the madness

But your anarchy holds no intricate sciences

It just a short cut to out race what slowly but for surely inevitably dying

And out race you do

Leaving nothing but dust in your wake

As you over lap it by two  

To some your a winner

To all your a sinner

But which every way your branches have swayed

The most important part of the day is that they have honestly grew

All your actions are one sided deeds

So what do you claim to have ever done for me?

Except run from me

Block driveways

Disguise pathways

Lock doorways with melted keys

Having me walk on burning sands

Melting the bottoms of my already rotten feet

Yet you continuously encourage me

By speaking a tongue so enticingly sweet

It has me swimming in a tomb full of acient Egyptian

Straight out the farmers kitchen  

Honey

But Its ugly

I drown in its texture

As you religiously lie to me about the glimmer of your treasure

I only begged for the minimum

And received half of that measure

I would have died for you

Lied for you

Cut all ties for you

But now I know better

Now I day dream

Fantasizing about when you need my presence

When you can no longer fight

No longer strong enough to draw your own weapon

Exposed to those you label as foes

Nothing left but to glare at the heavens

Enemies draw near because you hopelessly let them

Praying that my sword will protect you

But It won't be in attendance

I only reserve the blade for my own independence