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jeanette korbel Mar 2015
Take me to the hospital
I think im overdosing
I couldn’t take it anymore
Good thing they diagnosed me.

He lied there and cried from those pills
Thought if he died he'd be something real
  
Scars are not always visible
Beaten with words, never felt so invincible
He’s quiet but, his mind is screaming
Tried to figure it out, life has no meaning
They all say its a phase he'll be better soon.
In reality he never was, now what do they do?
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Chorus
  
Nobody takes him seriously
Some kind of conspiracy
When they find out
It will be too late
You cant stop
The constant beating
Of self hate
_
Give him a chance to speak
Give him a break from everything he’s seen.
If no one picks him up  
He will forever be in our dreams
No more reality
Life just isn't what it seems
  



Another pill popper, a maniac, a **** smoker, addicted to crack.
When they’re gone you can't bring them back  
The state he’s in its caring he lacks
No one gives him confidence so,  
He slacks and he slacks.
No job to pay the bills, just a drug dealing act
You can't make money when you ingest all the profit.
When its too late there's no way to stop it
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chorus  
  


Nobody takes him seriously
Some kind of conspiracy
When they find out
It will be too late
You cant stop
The constant beating
Of self hate


_
  
He was too young, and it was too soon.
He can't fix what he already consumed.
Sitting all alone in his room.
He was satisfied.
For that one moment he felt alive.
He said he'd be happier if he died.
  
Yes we cried but, we all moved on
  
For people like him, I wrote this song
#overdose #sad #loss
jeanette korbel Mar 2015
I am not scared and I will be strong. I’ve been lonely for ten years and now, I can see what has been gone. I am taken to a different place, far from home. The plane took me high and soared until things got low. I walked down the hallway of doom and distress. This wouldn't be a problem if he had never left. Walk into a room thats plain yet, engaged in activity. A conveyor belt and tags that say names, scrambled in my mind going their separate ways. I tell myself to focus and find my bags from here. The voices and the noises distract me, nothing has been clear. I see my name as nauseous as I can be. My stomach has taken a turn on me.


I find my bag and look around my vision is blurred and I can not hear a sound. I see his face threw the sea of people. Wearing the same flannel sweater he had ten years ago. He dominates the atmosphere with his torn up pants and his messed up hair. He looks the same but his hair is receding. His face is drooped down like paint that just won't dry. He grew tall but skinny like a plant that has withered. His face is pale but his eyes are rich brown. He has a genuine smile with teeth that had fallen out.
  
I walk up to this man I haven't seen in years we looked at each other and, we burst out in tears. Even though I don’t know him, I remember his face. From ten years passing by I’d imagine he's changed. He use to be plump and his face well rounded now it looks like he had been beaten by thoughts and loneliness. I can tell when he seen me his life already got better. He couldn’t stop talking like he was gone for forever. I talked right back to him because, I know how it feels.

I look back on all the years without him and realized we feel the same. The difference is he made the choice of being alone ,I had no need to be left. I felt lost my whole life, until he came back. Lost from what I can’t quite figure out. I just needed to feel the feeling of him being around. We walked out the crowded place and, went on from there. No one really changes, he still smelled like beer. You think someone would give up the little things for something so big. I left a couple days after, and haven’t seen my dad since. He chooses to be lonely and, I still suffer from it.
jeanette korbel Mar 2015
They all say its a phase but we know that's bllsht .  
For many years we cry about the same old sh*t.
That the adults always clearly miss.  
We are stuck in our minds with no way out.  
Stuck in the thought of getting better somehow.
Its not a phase we just can't get over what's been in our minds so long.  
We make ourselves unhappy because we can't stop thinking about things.
We can't just forget about it and move on.
Hapiness doesn't just come.
Escpecially when things that make you happy always tend to dissapeer.  
We ignore things until it all builds up.
Then we cry about everything that's so messed up.  
They all say is a phase but its never changed things can't always change when your not in control of changing them.
We just have to live with the fact that things can't be perfect  
You can't always fix what's been broken.
jeanette korbel Mar 2015
Alot of things happen for a reason they say.
Sometimes I think thats why i met you that day.
Iv'e seen something in you, something I never seen before.

Everyday I look into your eyes ..I feel safe.
No matter what time or what place, Its never too late.
I think sometimes we must have been fate.
I remember your face to get me through each day.

When your gone it drives me insane.
When I see you again its like, I haven't seen you in years.  
Thats why i think i like it rite here.  

When im with you I feel like, im home.
They say home is where your heart is , now mines not alone.  
I've been searching for something but you were just found.

Found all alone, and it reminded me of myself.
jeanette korbel Mar 2015
Dark days and brighter nights.
Why do we wake, when it doesn't feel right?
Can we go to sleep when the sun rise?

A bunch of people living an unnormal life.
Lets have dinner first and breakfast last.
Lets spend more time then we do cash.
Can we drive on the streets when their empty, not full.
Lets make this bitter life, not so dull.

lets wear sox but, not shoes.
Get use to the ****.
Find a night job, create our own school.

The law doesn't say, be awake in the day.
Lets do things different but, still okay.

We will live our own lives.
Unnoticed at night.
jeanette korbel Mar 2015
Dark days and brighter nights.
Why do we wake, when it doesn't feel right?
Can we go to sleep when the sun rise?

A bunch of people living an unnormal life.
Lets have dinner first and breakfast last.
Lets spend more time then we do cash.
Can we drive on the streets when their empty, not full.
Lets make this bitter life, not so dull.

lets wear sox but, not shoes.
Get use to the ****.
Find a night job, create our own school.

The law doesn't say, be awake in the day.
Lets do things different but, still okay.

We will live our own lives.
Unnoticed at night.
jeanette korbel Mar 2015
Can you tell me where to go?
Can you be in my life?
so, im not all alone  
I thought I lost the feeling of being okay.
You brought it back that long cold day.
I was dreaming in reality you caught me by surprise.

Perfect boy, how do you live such a perfect life?
I can't seem to get anything rite.

Why are you so perfect to me?
Everything you do, makes me crazy.

I want to be everything you've ever wished for.
I don't want you to be sad anymore.

Perfect boy, how can someone so imperfect be perfect for you?  
Tell me what i have to do.

Im done being worried I'll loose you.
Every..single...night
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