ugly, fat
Its shouted down the halls and written on the walls
How you treat me, its like im not even human
Not even breathing
I AM a human being
Recognize I AM breathing
I can feel it all, like when your dagger wedged itself into my back
Stupid, freak
Words painted on my mind, send self-hate crawling up my spine
Its evident your heart is back, by the way you never fail to soak my sleeves, in crimson red
Pray to god, let me wake up dead
There is a pounding in my head as I realize
I AM weak
I AM failing, falling into blackness, void all light
No ones here, not even the faintest whisper of you're alright
Just hang in tight
I can only be strong for so long
But you know that, huh?
You see how im breaking
I AM suffocating
I am NOT breathing
You can't find it in your heart to care, but you should
Because I WAS a human being

In an empty room
Just me, not much to look at.
Sitting on a bench. Skipped class. Just waiting to feel something ...
Even though its wrong
I just don't care anymore.
I'm alone....
I feel no need to succeed...
Not here
There's no point.
How can you say it's easy when it's **** HARD?
Just giveing up cause there's no point.
I'm sick of the same old **** I get from you..
I can't wait tell I'm out of this hell called school.
So for now I'm just starin at a puddle oink this empty floor...
Just me in the reflection..
Not much to look at.

Life is not an unending journey
Life is a game
a definite start
an unavoidable ending
A game we were meant to lose

I'm beating myself up today with regret
I woke up suddenly realizing that I never noticed
In the moments I had and the time I spent with her
I never noticed her shirt

I never noticed the way it clung to her like sad sultry poem
Or the way it slipped off her arms like cold raindrops
And the way it cusped to her neck as I wish I could

During the time that I spent crying to her
And speaking to her soul and feeling her eyes
Praying that the time between us wouldn't end
I let that giant piece of her slip right through my mind and my fingers

I never noticed that shirt she wore on that day in that moment of time
And now I will never see it the way it needed to be seen like it did then