The words "I Loved you!" Screamed at the top of her lungs, and vibrated through my ears.

...and you know I just stood there after all her tears and her words and after I heard her heart shattered into a million pieces, I stood there. Lost, not sure of what I wanted or what to do.
I thought about chasing after her and telling her "I told you I cared!, I told you I loved you too!"

I stood still

On the other side of the door I thought I would of chased you,

I didn't

Please don't take the blame

Her body spread across my bed.
Silhouettes of her moulded by my duvet cover

The sun rays peeked through the blinds, she now awaken, wiped the sleep from her eyes while adjusting to the light.

I adjusted to her.

Body heat comforted the cold morning air.

Admiring everything that we are.

Caught in between the duvet and a moment.

I feel her and not just in the physical sense of her

The scent of her lingers in my pillows, the scent of us lingers in the duvet

I think there was a moment where she said, no we said, **** we would never say. Like, I think I love you. There might have been a few kisses in between deep breaths, deep breaths because our bodies would die without air

But who cares

Lips locked, caught a few hairs in my mouth
We laughed while I pulled it out
and she smiled when I put it in.

Deep thoughts
She said
She love
She loves everything about me especially what’s within.

I felt like
I mean we felt like
No time felt like it was frozen.

And she froze, let out a sigh mid ******

Silence

I laughed at the frizziness of her hair
Wiped away a loose eyelash

I could of made a few more wishes but I already had what I wished for,

Sunday Mornings with you.

Oct. 6th. 2014

By: Jason R. Johnson

She rebelled against everything she thought I wanted her to be

Who have you become my love?

Destroying all of her to show me that there is not much more to her

Where have you gone my love?

Out all night because her thoughts at home, keeps her up til morning.

My love?

She did not answer there was hate in her face and sadness in her laughter, she held it all together in her tight dress, while taking pictures she posted to let the world think she is much better after.

Her caption read..

“One day you’ll realize what you had, much after you’ve made a few more mistakes and you’ve broken a few more promises and you left a girl that believed in Love and lost herself to you, one day you’ll realize that pain when these tears comes from your daughter.”

And she added her smile as a filter.



Jason R. Johnson

Love drunk murderers

                                                    subtweeting our inadequacies

Opening apps to know how you feel.

140 characters

                        but you chose to act like a *****.

If I curse your name at the bottom of the ocean

do you hear it?

        - Jason R. Johnson

****** white paper can I tell you my secrets?

Can the blackness that has coloured my heart
Spoil your purity to form stroke lines?

Can
      these
             words paint pictures like painters do on canvases ?

Can these
               tears
                      flow freely like overflowing river banks?

Who do I pay to the order of? , trying to cash these emotional cheques.

                      Square boxes missing check marks

Yes? , No?

Can I tell you a few secrets?
Can a NOUN and Pronoun verb ADVERB?

To which government do I pay syntax?

Will you judge me if I put U before I ?

Pure white paper, I do not understand this language called love.

I'll leave you blank,  
*   even when she aimed at me with with bullets instead.


- Jason R. Johnson