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Jamison Bell Nov 2017
I never put the two together till I got older.
I’d hear the phrase “there’s always someone better”.
Then they left me outside.
I asked myself “why?”
Then it hit me.
It was because they’d found someone better.
Jamison Bell May 2022
These, these aren't my dreams.
I know them, as I would an episode of a tv show I might've seen in passing.
I don't know who they belong to.
And I can't say what they mean.
I just know that, much like a destruction of cats, they've found me. Encircling me.
Howling and biting.
And much like the schizophrenic who sees the man at the top of the stairs who isn't there.
I wish, I wish they'd go away.
Jamison Bell Jul 2019
When every word just makes you feel that much colder
And the dirt of everything you hold dear turns to mud
When you can’t escape the futility of your own existence
And so you pour another drink because numb has to be bought
Knuckles turning white because if you let go you’ll fall
And you’re afraid of what sleeps in the clouds you’ll fall through
Cascading memories parading through your mind
And not a one of them give a **** about you now
Jamison Bell Sep 2016
I had a puppy
I'm happy to say
But my puppy
He died one day

I had a mom
To me she said
******* I think
Your puppy's dead

So my puppy I took
Way out in the yard
I dug her a hole
And read her a card

"**** you puppy
How dare you die
Leaving me here
Alone to cry"

The more I thought
About her death
And how I watched
Her last breath

I began to hate
This ****** mutt
Just laying there
Her eyes are shut

How dare you die
And leave me be
"It was a truck
What didn't you see?"

Stupid dog
I hate you now
You broke my heart
I'll get a cow

A cow you see
A gentle grazer
For when she dies
I can braise her

Until that day
She'll be my friend
We'll play fetch
My heart she'll mend

So ******* dog
You're inedible
This here cow
Will taste incredible
Jamison Bell Oct 2017
A wretched soul kneeling before the fire as it reaches out into the night.
She closes her eyes and soaks in the breath of someone other.
Wrought with rot I raise my head to the rosey glow of the room.
Comforted only by the flapping sound of the winds wings.
Oh to hear that voice! To be quenched of woe by the sound of her singing.
My songbird has but flown into the arms of a world unfamiliar of her.
Charred by envy I'd cast myself to the will of the gods.
Save for one problem.
I do not believe in gods. Only monsters.
Her hand reaches out from the darkness in my dreams.
Soaked in the blood of loves gone by.
I stretch my hand out to hers.
Only to have the apparition slip through my forlorn fingers.
The darkness consumes my will.
I succumb.
For my light, my love, she wanders still.
And I. Alone.
Jamison Bell Jun 2017
I know you believe in these things you say.
And that's good.
For you.
I however.
I know these thoughts of yours.
They're fleeting.
In a few months you'll feel,
differently.
Indifferent.
Jamison Bell Jan 2022
I exhale and fall backwards
Into melancholic arms
A bored sun looks in on me
I run my hand through strains of fire and smoke
I crush out the ****
And watch each lil ember die out
Like so many dreams
Absurdist thoughts stir
But I can’t be bothered
This would be a good place to pass
Jamison Bell Aug 2016
There is no pause.
No stopping to rest.
It should be insatiable.
This hunger.

There are too many questions and not enough answers.
Where is the exit for the Devils Kettle? What is the hum? Gravity? Death? How can light act as matter? Is the ****** cat dead or alive?

All my life, I've asked of you to tell me something true.
Dearest brain I beg and plead, whatever shall I do?

Do I dare to trust of you, this construct you created?
Leaving out the answers so my questions are abated.

Life is indeed a symphony of terrors in the night.
A dream within a dream where there is no wrong or right.

We live an illusion and illustration if you will.
There is no magic looking glass no red no blue pill.

Senses perpetuated by a mind left unhinged.
Realities so obtuse by nature, make us want to cringe.

I ask of you, my brain, of sloppy grayish matter.
Will I ever know the truth? Before my ashes scatter?
Jamison Bell Jun 2016
When you come to the realization.
What an awful destination.
Most of us wish we'd never arrived.
An awakening.
A moment where you realize that you never really mattered.
That that person never thought of you as anything other than just "somebody".
When all you ever wanted was to be someone.
The angst sets in. Consuming you.
All the words meant nothing to them. Those things that took all the courage you had to say out loud. Were of little to no value to them.
Juxtaposed to a feeling of hopelessness.
Jamison Bell Sep 2016
So wherein does that leave I
I came to beg a differ.
She let free a woeful sigh
And once again I whiffer.

Relegated I'd say I am
To a lonesome sort of state
I'd like to say I don't give a ****
But for I tis too late

I curse thee love regretfully
For my choices are but few.
I place this curse respectfully
That you may never get what's due.

If I go forth into the night
To mourn the unrequited
To pull the hang mans work too tight
While my sins go unrepentant.

Than so too shall thee suffer
Tis my plight you must share
Let us hope that you are tougher
And find someone to care

The moon she wanders over head.
For she cares not of our pains.
She lights the way for the dead.
A song of rattling chains

The hangman he is voiceless
And your tears quenches he
A life to him is choice less
For he will not suffer me

Pull the lever you ****** fool
Says I to my hooded reaper
Your job I say has one rule
Of lives you are no keeper

The hangman he then nodded
And then removed his shroud
Anguish to my heart is prodded
The silence was too loud

For there she stood at the lever
The maiden who wrought my fate
She smiled at me something clever
My curse was to come too late

She looked at I and blew a kiss
And I could not in kind
She then giggled and said "curse this"
And my life was null and blind
Jamison Bell Apr 2016
Of all the things I know not of,
I do not care if there is a heaven above.
A house in the clouds and streets of gold?
Are just some of the frivolities of which I've been told.

I have no need of your petty gods.
I'm betting against them, I like the odds.
I have come to terms when it comes to beliefs.
In that I have none, no gods or chiefs.

I thought that I might've like to go to the show.
To emerge from the shadows and bask in the glow.
It was then that I saw that I wasn't invited.
Upon seeing reviews I was rather delighted.

You say there was dancing and drinks to be had.
That a wise man spoke and said things are so bad.
You gave him your money so he could have more.
He bought a new jet, it's not for the poor?

I think I'm good with this wise man of yours.
He's not feeding the sick and offering cures.
Promises made plenty, never paid in full.
This wise man of yours, sounds more like a fool.

Keep your shamans, your nuns, and your preachers.
I'll take the poets, the lovers, and teachers.
Those people around me who care for my heart.
Those people who nie to tear me apart.
Jamison Bell Jul 2019
You said you’d be there
Your words fell on me like the tears of a mourning sun
Who weeps for the raven who had no moon to talk to the night before
I remember
Because it gave me hope
A candle I could cup in my hand against the winds
So that one day, should I survive the rains, I could bring the light back to you
And we could finally set the earth on fire
Jamison Bell Nov 2016
Dareth do I sayeth? Do I speak of the truth?
No matter how askew, no matter how uncouth?

The fact is I just don't give a ****, a fact I've made quite clear.
It doesn't have to do with you, so fret not of your cheer.

Go about your merry way, and do what you do best.
I don't expect of you to care of this I wouldn't jest.

It's just a fact of life, it's a somewhat hidden facet.
Life's too short to hold it in, just take two puffs and pass it.

We want to care and we will do it, if there's ever any time.
Me? I'm just here planning what could be the perfect crime.

Empathy forsaken to my will for what I strive.
I'd like to be the first, to make it out of life alive.
Jamison Bell Aug 2017
It's an existential crisis a spiral in reverse a constant constitution a long outdated curse a perpetual delusion a melancholic sigh I've come to the conclusion that I've never been so high.
Jamison Bell Sep 2017
Did you know that inconsequentialism is a word? I think it's self explanatory in definition. I didn't even know it was a word or give its origin much thought. Until this morning. The word and the question just appeared in thought.
Much like you. Except that. In as much as I wish you are. You will never be a inconsequentialism to me.
Jamison Bell Apr 2020
What yonder light they said be seen; in hues of yellow, red, and green
Fields of satin sands run high; beneath the clouds as they roll by
The dolphins play amidst the surf; the bays, the waves, the sea their turf
A gulf born whispering wind; will find its way and begin again
There’s nothing here to be said about i; another cloud just passing by

Look it here what I did with words; I lay them out till each one curds
Then I skim them tops with my favorite knife; just leave them with a little life
Just enough for them to be true; when they whimper “I love you”
This rhyming **** isn’t so hard, most words used are just plain lard

I’ll probably stop on this verse three; in keeping with the trinity
Don’t wanna ******* any would be gods; just in case they’re not all frauds
Besides let’s just be honest here; nothings ever crystal clear
Like this here flow it has no meaning; just the ravens eyes in the darkness, gleaming
Jamison Bell Jun 2017
It's a funny thing.
Loneliness.
You can be surrounded by people and yet have no one to talk to.
You're tempted to try.
To reach out to someone.
But.
You don't want to bother anyone.
So then.
You figure.
There's no sense in being around all these people.
It's just weird.
So you wander off.
In search of.
A quiet moment.
Out of a dream,
a dream you don't wish to have again.
You immerse yourself in thought.
You long to raise your head and see someone standing before you.
You don't dare.
Why do that to yourself?
Because you're a *******.
You look up.
As if the Devil himself raised your chin with *******.
You can hear him laughing when he sees the look of disappointment on your face.
So you take his hand in an act of complacency.
And the two of you while the night away.
Two demons laughing at the moon.
Jamison Bell Jul 2016
She said "dear, inspire me", when the truth is that I can't.
It's not that I don't want to, but all I do is rant.

Some ******* here, a comment there, as if I feel I must.
I'm throwing around cynicism like its ****** fairy dust.

The fact is dear, there's nothing inspiring about me.
I'm mediocre when at my best, no reason to ever doubt me.

Oh sure I can tell you all about the mysterious Devils Kettle.
Or talk at length if you will about the Spinxs favorite riddle.

I know the Raven to and fro, but no one wants to hear it.
I can tell you if you crock that roast, it'll be better if you sear it.

I cannot grow you flowers or always make you laugh.
I can't even say you'll be impressed at my version of a staff.

I'm sorry dear I truly am, for my game is truly lacking.
My talents few and far between, I'm not even good at stacking.

I can keep you up for nights on end with what I know of Russia.
Or spit for you a thousand tales just one shy of Scheherazade.

See what I mean? That last verse barely makes any sense.
Kind of like that inferno opera The Pirates of Penzance.

I will tell you if I may, it's not entirely my fault you see.
For once you take up nihilism you may cease to even be.

I will tell you my good friend, that you are indeed my friend.
Someone there to read this **** and maybe smile at the end.
Jamison Bell Jan 2019
She’ll curl up in the arms of the moon and wistfully think of her heart’s desire. Hoping to jumpstart a dream she hopes to one day live.
The smoke swirls about like mixed paint in the crepuscular rays of a new day. Time spins around me like my life is a game of musical chairs. Except I can’t hear the music.
My thoughts claw their way back to you. My whiskey drowned eyes swim in shadows of your face. As you smile that “love in spite of” smile. Letting me know I’d found something unconditional.
Her honeyed tongue runs over my heart and it forgets its own scars. Helpless to her touch my spirit floats off and I forget myself.
Find me in the corner of a memory once cherished before my words lost me. Revisit that place and time with me and hold me tight. I’m in pieces. If you let go.
Jamison Bell Feb 2022
I don’t have anyone to write for, or to-
I do my best writing when it’s inspired
So now it’s just muscle memory.
If I don’t write my fingers will go on strike.
I think they’re sad though, like me
They know that with no one to write to
It’s all in vain
Unfortunately, it’s all they know how to do.
They don’t get held.
So, they write.
If for no other reason than spite.
They write.
Jamison Bell Oct 2016
From the top of the mountains that rest under Apollos feet.
To the deepest of forest where Artemis has been heard to sing.

The cliffs of Moher overlooking the remains the forsaken Mal.
And to the canyons formed by Paul Bunyan's axe.

Where ball lightening dances to where the Angel she falls.
And even where they ghost danced so that Miwok could sleep.

I've told them all so many times, you must've heard by now.
Surely tales have found you wherein you ought to be found.

Pan himself is tired of my proclamations.
My devil may care position on you sickens even Cupid.

So let it be said and let the darkness be ******.
Tell Osiris that I am on my way for maybe he hasn't heard.

One day these words will reach you and then you'll finally hear.
I love you.
Jamison Bell Mar 2020
I beseeched along the road I walked, these things I held so dear
Hoping all along one day to see my path laid clear
Those dreams I had of her and I
These stones that I’ve collected
Now litter my past, that went so fast, more so than I expected
Jamison Bell Aug 2019
Draw a circle around me.
Now go stand over there.
You can have the rest of the world.
I only want what you think I deserve.
Jamison Bell May 2017
Thinking back I have always been the first to say it.
Longing for that mutual connection.
It evades me.
Acting as my shadow.
Always just out of reach.
Playing life's role as Tantalus.
I'll roll and re roll the thoughts in my head.
Before lighting them up and smoking them down to roaches.
Confirming whether or not it's real.
Then and only then will I dare to say it.
Never expecting a reply.
Always hoping they'll say nothing.
Unfortunately.
They'll always say something.
Typically a lie.
Replying in kind or repeating what I've said back to me.
With all the sincerity of a demon who's been ordered to bring back my soul at any cost.
It leaves me feeling void.
It'd be better if they'd said nothing at all.
To instead leave me at the precipice.
Staring into the sun to blind me in assurance that from then on I'd have nothing to look forward to.
It hurts when I hear them say it.
Why bother?
To placate me?
To salvage what's left of me in thinking it's what I want you to say.
Save your declarations for those of whom you honestly feel.
Leave my words for dead.
Because they'll never mean as much to you as you do to me.
So just leave the "I love you" to hang there in the silent night.
Hold your hapless tongue and go.
My ego needs not your pity.
Jamison Bell Jun 2022
Break every bottle you have, then set the floor on fire.
Then drag me across the room and tell me what I mean to you.
In the moonlight overlooking a great blue field.
Cast me down into the surf.
And tell me why.
Until your throat dries out and your blinded by the saltiness of your own tears.
Hold me up to the void and let's curse the gods together.
We can tear away at each others flesh until our souls stand naked before a rising sun.
And when it's over.
When the world falls silent and the winds finally cease their eternal race.
I'm going to look at you one last time.
And laugh.
Jamison Bell Sep 2023
The mathematical probability of your existence is so excruitiatingly improbable. You'd have a better shot at winning the lottery everyday for a year.
So.
With you being proof that the impossible can happen.
Why not?
Jamison Bell Jul 2017
Before you go a pondering, on those things that come to pass.
Remember, you're not Alice and this ain't the looking glass.

Now let me tell you something before you go a hittin that lil bottle.
I sure as **** ain't Socrates and you're not Aristotle.

But for you to think that you have discovered something new.
To relish in your narcissistic belief you have a clue?

Well that right there just proves my point, you ain't discovered ****.
Now crawl back up on your mommas lap and get back on that ***.
By reading this poem you (the reader) hereby forfeit any and all rights to bear arms. If you have a pair of bear arms. We request you return them to your nearest armless bear. Honestly, what is wrong with you.
Jamison Bell Oct 2018
You are you and yeah that’s true.
So tell me Suess, what did you do?
Oh that’s right, you broke her heart.
That of your wife’s, you tore it apart.
You had an affair, while she lay dying.
Was it weird having ***, with her in there crying?
Don’t give me your ****, you lyrical hack.
Take your green eggs and your ****** Whos back.
Jamison Bell Jun 2019
I want you, raw
I want to see the artwork that is you under red lights
The ***** unedited you
Before you’ve had a second chance to come back around
Trying to hide those things you don’t want me to see
Show me the raw meat
Or nothing at all
Jamison Bell Dec 2022
I savor those spaces between those moments when I’m not thinking of you.
Jamison Bell Jun 2017
There was smoke in my eyes.
I gathered too much moss.
The sun was in my eyes.
I couldn't hear you over the music.
There was traffic because of an accident.
I overslept.
I've only got two hands.
I didn't know what to say.
Can I try again?
At life.
I promise I won't **** it up,
again.
Jamison Bell Nov 2023
Look. I'll be honest with you.
Somewhere between that first Push-Pop and that last hit. I kinda lost track of the game.

Typically I try to lounge about on a big fluffy pile of I don't give a ****.
I can write you off on the premise that I can't prove your existence. So nothing really matters.

In all fairness. I didn't choose the game. It's the only one y'all had when I got here. And the rules are easy.
Jamison Bell May 2019
Aye I wish it weren’t like that lady but the truth remains the same
We waltz and **** and lie at will for the sake of this twisted game
Souls will fall down off the wall and we’ll applaud what never was
And then we’ll laugh and drink and nary think to look upon because
Jamison Bell Jul 2023
It's, it's dark.
There's a light.
Only she doesn't know it.
A warm breeze waltzes by.
It smells like jasmine after a spring storm.
The air settles into a lull where it just wants to hang out for a spell.
I'd swear I can feel her sometimes.
Though it could just be gas.
Jamison Bell Nov 2022
I won’t walk to the edges of the world for you.
Not because I don’t love you.
But because I know you won’t be here when I get back.
Jamison Bell Jun 2019
Love is a halfwit
A fool that tears out of the gate
Running towards a setting sun
Hoping to hold a light that can’t be held
Left to fumble around in the dark
Like blind cat in a room full of rocking chairs
While we as drunken losses
Intoxicated by an ideology
Just smile and rock
Jamison Bell Aug 2016
Me thinks the reaper be, not too far behind.
A specter not foreboding, his deeds not all unkind.

Did I ever tell you my loathsome friend of what has yet to be?
The falling of your heavens and the boiling of your sea.

How the dead will not suffer the living to pass.
Or how the sun will scorch your fields of grass.

The dogs of war will howl when the moon turns to blood.
Screams of woe will die in vain in black volcanic mud.

Anubis will awaken to drink of the Niles tears.
While Odin's in Valhalla, where he'll stay for many years.

These events they will transpire and there's one thing you can do.
You can have a drink and dance my friend, accept you are the fool.

No summer breeze to quell your pain no balm left Gilead.
You are but a Hector in that cursed book the Iliad.

There is a thing you can try but this task you mustn't botch.
I can't stop the earth from splitting but could you get for me a scotch?
On the rocks.
No lime.
Jamison Bell Jun 2017
The uncomfortable realization.
That although I can do everything in my power to try and maker her happy.
It's me that she's unhappy with.
I had four that I made the one.
I was never the one to them.
The end will be here soon enough.
Jamison Bell Jan 2022
Oh woe is the heart that is denied that which would give it a reason
Hath thou discovered my will I mighteth made the season
Tis not to be this mystery, this bane of loneliness
Exceeds my grasp, just out of my class, forever in distress
Jamison Bell Aug 2020
They’re like those puddles of rain.
The ones you find in a parking lot littered with oil spots. The colors that swirl about within. You just gotta stop sometimes and look at them. Just for a moment. Give them all of you. Maybe you part ways with nothing. Or. You walk away having seen something that no one has ever seen. And it’s yours. To think back on at your leisure. Forever.
These people.
Jamison Bell Apr 2022
I’ll probably just take a walk through the stars like I would a field of wheat.
Run my fingers over the reeds of starlight protruding from a time long dead.
Spend a day with the sun. Take a nap on our quiet moon.
Then I’d like to awaken in an ancient forest by a silver waterfall.
To build a fire. So if you should ever want to find me.
Jamison Bell Oct 2021
Upon a place no man has stepped.
A lonely girl knelt and wept.
Her family lost, her hope as well.
She’d brought along a little bell.
She started to dig where her tears had fallen.
For she could hear her best friend callin.

Faintly was the scent of death.
From out of the dirt, she smelled her breath.
She presented the bell before the hole.
And shook it thrice to hear its toll.
Sulfuric smoke seeped from the ground.
The forest stopped and made no sound.

“Right the wrongs done to I, so that I may cease to cry.
Free them from their mortal coil, so that in hell they’ll burn and toil.”
A scream like that of a banshee ripped.
From out of the hole a fire slipped.
A winged demon emerged in sight.
Dripping hate and firelight.

From out of the burning debris and embers.
At the feet of ancient timbers.
A winged version of this lil girl.
Stretched out her wings a did a twirl.
She looked upon the moon with ire.
Swearing to one day set it afire.

“Emily, where are you dear?
Please approach and hold me near.”
Emily then, bid her welcome
“Why dear sister are your visits seldom?
Emily I’ve missed you so.
I was sad to see you go.”

“I’m so sorry Laura. Please.
I stopped along the way for these.”
Emily held out daffodils.
That she had brought down from the hills.
Laura smiled and cocked her head.
“Much like I, they’re also dead.”

Many things had lived and died.
Since they were by each other’s side.
Emily watched as her sister drowned.
She made no effort or even sound.
Laura’s death was for good reason.
Her mood was death for every season.

Emily had seen her sister ****.
Standing by and standing still.
Then there came that night now haunted.
When Emily would not be daunted.
Laura had taken Emily’s cat.
And gone outside with a bat.

Emily then chased her still.
Towards the well upon a hill.
Emily returned that night.
Laura lost, no where in sight.
She’d watched her sister drown.
She made no move, she made no sound.

The two embraced and cried in quiet.
They both did wrong and both stood by it.
"Emily your heart feels cold against my skin,
it was not like that way back when."
"It's been so dark since mother died,
father hasn't mourned or cried."

"Our mother died? Say since when.
Tell me Emily, begin again."
"Not long after I took your life,
our home became a place for strife.
The crops fell sick as did our cows,
as well as the chickens and the sows.

Our mother she neglected me,
she hung herself on our oak tree.
Then fathers friends they came right after,
they strung me up from the rafters.
One by one they had their way,
our father watched and took his pay."

Laura pulled away in awe,
uttering only "not our pa".
Emily sobbed and lowered her head.
"Our home is but a place of dread."
Laura slowly unfurled her wings.
"I will not stand for such awful things."

Her claws of black volcanic glass,
her cat like eyes let nothing pass.
Her shredded skin and fibers showing,
her thirsty fangs and eyes a glowing.
"Tell me Emily where is our father?
I'll let him be the first I bother."

"On the floor back at our stead,
with any luck already dead.
His friends are also probably there,
waiting there for me I dare.
Oh Laura dear I am afraid.
Please do not get hurt or scathed."

Emily put her knees to dirt.
"I only wish I couldn't hurt."
Laura took her sisters hand.
"Emily dear, leave this land.
Where your from you must never say.
Because for sure you'll die that day.

This is a curse I must bestow.
Because for every death there is a toll."
The sisters said goodbye once more.
Things won't be as they were before.
Laura flapped her wings to flight.
Emily walked into the night.

Laura perched upon the barn and saw.
Her fathers friends but not her Pa.
She changed her scent to that whiskey.
Then she willed away a man named Liskey.
In the barn up to the loft.
The hay was old, damp, and soft.

She waited for the drunkard there.
Her eyes aglow her body bare.
Liskey forced the girl against the joist.
Laura hung his body from the hoist.
While his friends below were sharing whiskey
Hanging high was Mr Liskey

Next there was a young man named Sam.
She made him cry like a wounded lamb.
This brought the others to the field.
She slayed them all she would not yield.
She tore their flesh and drank their blood.
She scattered their limbs into the mud.

The sun was set and about to rise.
To light upon such distant skies.
Laura made her way towards the ranch.
Stopping once to break a branch.
From off a tree her grandpa planted.
For there would be no mercy granted.

She found her Pa there in the kitchen
She raised her branch and started switchin'.
Her father awoke and screamed in wrath.
He tried to run and clear a path.
But Laura dear just kept on hitting.
He started cursing, fighting, spitting.

Her father suffered so many blows.
Just how many, no one knows.
He screamed until there was notheing left.
Not of the branch or his breath.
Laura knelt down by his side.
Unto the sun she would not abide.

Upon his cheek she pressed her lips
and traced his face with fingertips.
She took him by the legs outside,
then took him by his bleeding hide.
She lifted him with wings aloft,
he cried aloud while she just scoffed.

She stopped above her earthly tomb,
that cursed well, that demons womb.
"Father dear it's here you'll sleep,
here unto your death you'll keep."
She let him go and watched him fall,
his body slapping off the walls.

So now you know the story see.
Of our dear friend Emily.
Of what she did to be right here.
Her sins forgiven conscious clear.
I'm sure by now you surely see.
We better be nice to Emily.
Jamison Bell Aug 2016
Somewhere
That icy feeling of loneliness is squeezing the heart of someone you know.
Sometimes
It's just easier not knowing.
Someone
Hasn't stopped thinking about you since you left them.
Something
Could have been worse had you not been there to make a difference.
Anytime
You think you're right, there's a chance you could be wrong.
Anyone
Could do it. Yet there you stand.
Anything
Could be everything to someone else.
Anybody
Will suffice when there's nobody to be found.
Anyway
There it is.
Jamison Bell Jul 2017
I cannot forgive.
Nor can I forget.
You.
For making me feel,
a little less
alone.
No star
could ever replace
the warmth
of you.
I loved that.
About you.
Jamison Bell Oct 2020
I’ve written over a thousand pieces
And I can’t remember one
It’s like smoking
I get the urge to light one up and write one out
Then I flick it off to the side
And when it falls, I know not where
Just words littered behind me
My waypoints
Sometimes
I like to imagine that one day
Someone finds them, reads them, and maybe they mean something
To someone
For once
If not
Well not every day is meant to be remembered
Jamison Bell Nov 2018
They’d say “he’s got a heart of gold”.
I didn’t have the heart to tell them it was gilded.
Jamison Bell Sep 2022
It was in October.
The rain fell ******* tin roof over the deck.
There were only three candles left but there was plenty of wood to burn.
There was a ash colored teapot.
The fireplace sat between two windows that overlooked the lake.
I couldn't tell if you had been wearing the same stretch pants for two days or if you owned multiple pairs of that color.
A blanket of crimson cashmere draped over the back of the couch.
The kitchen smells like bacon, the livingroom of old cedar.
The stars found solace in your eyes that night.
As did I.
Jamison Bell Jun 2017
They'll wander off into the night.
For carnal based depravity.
I sit alone no hope in sight.
For no love I have will have me.
Jamison Bell Mar 2019
Don’t you see the absurdity?
The cruelty of it all.
That you’re supposed to standup
Every time you fall

**** that **** I say
Stay on the ****** ground
Keep your ****** head down
And don’t make a ******* sound

Lest that they should see you
They’ll insist that you join in
Next thing you know you’re playing
And you can never win

You’ll scramble for the surface
Like a sewer rat on ****
You’ll have to fight them everyday
Right up until your death

So keep that chin there lowered
As if enthralled by your own crotch
Only look up to kiss her lips
Or order one more scotch

Stay dumb to those surrounding
Keep them need to know
The less they’ll interrupt you
So you might enjoy the show
Fin
Jamison Bell Apr 2022
Fin
I’m sorry.
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