The light of love is extreme
Going a million miles an hour right
Straight through the heart
Piercing the soul
Wanting to explore what is right
What makes us tick
Knowing it's a feeling like no other
Our stomach quivers
When two spirits kiss
Making a moment that much
More meaningful
The two are intertwined
Wanting to know all about one another
The very essence of our breath
Breathing life
Not holding back anything
Even death can't stop this spark
A flame of the eternal illumination

It's been hard for me to make
The right choices, I have a tendency
Of choosing the bad. What is wrong with me?
All my life I felt like it's been a dream
Not a good one though
I have made decisions that weren't pleasant
All because of wanting to be satisfied
I've chased after lust
Wanting *** all the time
Not getting too involved
But rather having the *****
Then anything else
How well does that work?
It doesn't
No woman in their right mind
Wants to be treated like *** objects
But that's been the story of my life
I don't know how to be in a relationship

My heart cries out for relief
It seems like I can't find any peace
Chaos all around me
And it's hard for me to breath
I see the four walls
They're closing in around me
It's hard to see
I fall down to my knees
And pray for belief
I want to believe everything will be okay
But my mind always gets in the way
Thinking I will forever be this way
On, how I want to change
I pray for willingness
I want to be able to do the opposite of
What I've always done
Can I muster the strength
I am ******* weak
No pride left in me
Just a lowly man
It's hard to understand
What life is all about
I pray for guidance
But usually run on self-will
How well does it work?
Well, let me say it ******* *****
I crave for attention
But usually don't get none
I cry out for this and that
Wanting everything under the sun
It's not the way I want to be
Can there ever be any relief for me?

It has come to my attention
That there are people who will
Give up on others
Whatever they're thinking
That's not the way to be
I pray I'm not one of those
For only God knows
He has never gave up on me

The days are sometimes
More than I can handle
Desires fill my brain
I can't seem to make an adjustment
It feels like I'm going insane
Pleasures are all around me
What the **** do I do
It's really hard to see
What is the ******* truth
I clamor for this and that
It feels like I'm never satisfied
Does anyone give a crap
About what's on the inside
No, they look at appearances
And how much money one makes
They don't care what a person is like
It feels like I'm in the way
I try to follow what is right
But life gets the best of me
And brings out the worse in me
And I fall down to my knees
Praying all will be well
But more than likely I'm going to hell
Cause more than often I can't stop myself
The enemy attacks and I give in
Wishing I was somewhere else
Maybe my days won't be so bad
And I will surrender
And finally feel glad
That I can make it through one more day
Without putting a gun to my ******* brains

The will is hard to overcome
The many desires on my mind
I feel out of place, undone
So many selfish acts in place
I cry out to God for some peace
But then in the same instance
I turn away from his grace
Why am I a yo-yo
Can't seem to stand my ground
There is a lot to show
Wonders of his work
Having a mind that is sound
I try so hard to trust
But my faith is weak
I've asked myself if I've had enough
Enough of life so bleak
I turn away from the darkness
And run after the light
The enemy turns away
As I fall to my knees and pray
I cry out to God for him to rescue me
He answers with a firm yes
And all precious things I can see
The road is bumpy and full of cracks
But with the Lord there is nothing I lack