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I'm lonely and scared,
More scared than lonely.
I don't know what to do,
About this thing called love.
I try to do the right thing,
But it seems like not enough.
Whatever I decide,
Whatever choice I make,
It still seems like a faint whisper
Beckoning me from afar.
The raindops have fallen more time than I wish it would
No snow to cover the ground the way I wish it should
The spirit of Christmas seems lost in our hearts
No forgiveness, just another depressing day to start
Where is this thing I have learned called love
Would it matter how many presents I give to you
Even the heavens are shedding their tears above
What does a person long for, what must he or she do?
You are not alone
There are others out in this
World !ike you
Who wants the best
In everyone, including himself
Or herself
I can feel the connection
It's forces are an attraction
Connecting us to one another
Whatever you are feeling
Believe I'm feeling the same way
Because I have been through the ringer
Of emotions
It feels good to know I'm not alone
It feels good to know we are alike with
The same pulse
Let me have my two pots
Of coffee in the morning
And a pack of smokes
Before you start with the hugging
What the ****?
Are you that needy
Always need my attention
Can't live without it
You always had to say
"I love you."
That was nice to hear
But not every ******' five minutes
Rub your back?
Your back always needed rubbed
Rub a dub dub
Can't take a bath in my own ******' tub
Without you up my ***
I couldn't sit on the toilet
Without you bothering me
Wanting to know what I wanted for supper
Christ, food was far from my mind
I was just trying to push out this
**** at this time
I felt so ******' smothered
The only peace I got was going for a walk
To check the mail
And even then you was calling me
Wanting to know what I would like for supper
Food? What the ****?
I like it as the next man
But it seemed like you wanted me fat
I don't know about this crap
Figure it out your own **** self
I'm not hungry
I said I'm not ******' hungry!
That was the bright spot of the day
There was no communication in any way
That's why I'm leaving today
I hope you don't get mad
As a couple it was pretty sad
Maybe it will be better
Separate from one another
I don't know
But I have to let you go
You asked me why
And I told you why
We've ran our course
Now it's time to move on
Being in love is exciting
But I know I wasn't there
I understand you were
And that's more than okay
But I was so distant
Not happy where I was
So many times I let you know
That this wasn't going to work out
But you wanted to hold on for dear life
Not letting the situation run it's course
I feel for you, hoping you can understand
That being in a relationship should mean something
But it didn't mean all that much to me
Now you're angry and I don't blame you
I practically have wasted your time
In which it could of been spent else where
Now you want to start trouble
And that's where I draw the line
I can't help the way I didn't feel for you
We were both infatuated with each other
Lust was a big issue for the most part
After getting to know you I really
Didn't like what I was seeing
There was too many things that weren't right
I'll be honest and say I felt sorry for you
But even pity had a way of biting me in the ***
You had no place to go at the time
Just moved your things into my home
And you over stayed your welcome
What is it with women moving their things
In a man's home without asking?
It doesn't serve no purpose
Especially when we are just getting
To know each other, yes, the ***
Is good but even that doesn't hold
A relationship together. Or whatever
You want to call it. I call it plain insanity
The war within is over
Thank God
I can finally sit back with ease
I don't have to struggle
No matter what is going on now
Doesn't have to be the end of the world
I'm not looking for attention no more
I would bend over backwards to be liked
I don't have to do that no more
It feels good
I have found a little piece of heaven
It's in the way I view things now
I have found quite of bit of beauty
Just look at Mother Nature
And how she envelopes us with her loving wings
I find it comforting life isn't counting my mistakes
But how I'm living in the truth
If I lie, cheat, and steal
I can believe my life will be ****
Karma will make sure of that
I've been at the very bottom many times
Suicide was looking mighty tempting
It's when I was at my lowest point
That God was there to rescue me
I'm not saying I live my life perfectly
There's a lot of room for improvement
My obscenities are one of my character flaws
How I do revel in cussing
But I feel God turns the other way
And shakes his head
Hoping I will let go of my ***** mouth
But if that' the only thing He has to worry about
Then there is diffently something wrong
How I do like the fact my mind isn't racing
That it has slowed down quite a bit
That I do find moments of peace
And never know I just might find happiness
But I feel happiness comes from doing the right thing
Hey, is this for real?
I see the moon turn blood red
In the distance a wolf cries out
Hungry, smelling the stentch of my sweat
The dead stare in my eyes
How much I am scared
Of the madning of my soul
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