Bugs, more bugs
Flying stink bugs
All over the curtain and the rugs
I want swat, **** them all
But what about their life I recall
I believe in karma, do not maim
What comes around goes around
And will affect one's name
Stay true to one's self
And do not ****
In the end
God's will

Watching things in my life get better
The more guidance I seek after
The more I feel as light as a feather
Maybe a sliver of contentment
It's all good nevertheless
Peace intrudes my wandering ways
Grace has me on my knees today
Thanking the Universe for it's direction
I was on the wrong path before
Causing a lot of chaos and mayhem
Not caring about what was pure
Today, it's not the case anymore
The sun is shining right and sure
Making me realize there's more to life
Than trying to pull one over on someone

I don't know what's
Going on inside my head
It seems like I do okay
For a little while and then
I want to run away, leave
Everyone and everything
Behind and not say goodbye
Just disappear like the wind
Forever get lost in the end
I hurt the ones I love
Who have been loyal to me
I scream for an answer from above
But only get silience. I’ m like a
Little baby, so wrapped up in
Myself, I want what I want and
I'll pound the table with my spoon
And then I want nothing but to
Be left alone, to hide away, so
Many feelings pulsating through
My veins, it feels like I'm going insane

The damage has been done
How can you ever trusted me again?
I kick you out and then accept you back
Why is it I can't make up my ******* mind?
You really haven't done nothing to me
Only the fact you're with a guy like me
So ******* confused about everything
I have no ******* clue about anything
The only thing I'm doing right is staying sober
I don't want to go back to that he'll
Nothing will work out if I'm drinking
Everyone and everything will be gone
So very easy for me to lose it all

I wish I was strong
But I have no strength in me
I'm a torturted soul lost out to sea
Can't take much for very long
I pray everything will work out
At ******* times I don't know what it's all about
So out of focus I can't see straight
I pray it's not too late
To fix what needs to be fixed
And go on from here with compassion
And understanding, hoping you can
Forgive a guy like me

I try to get away
But the darkness pulls me back
It's really hard to say
How to get right on track

People like to trear me down
Why the **** should I care about them?
What comes around goes around
They'll get theirs in the end

I try to live a life of peace
But the chaos is all around
It has me on my knees
Praying for higher ground

It seems I'm lost out to sea
The boat has crashed
No one around to rescue me
Life is kicking my ***

I reach out for the sun
But only end up blind
Heaven is left to no one
Hell envelopes the night

The days are going by so quickly
And I'm left feeling out of place
No more sacrifices, just trickery
And I'm falling far away from grace

The blood is what I'm after
To watch myself bleed
Scars don't mean anything
It's as perfect as can be

Fighting the urge
To keep on cutting
Here I go again to purge
Killing my soul with every word

Telling myself I ain't worth recovery
That no one feels like I do
The pain is all I see
The temptation is for real
The obsession takes a hold of me
It is a huge deal
But I just let it drip anyway
Let the blood flow
Let it flow out of me

Trust no one
Everyone has an agenda
Something to keep to themselves
And then to belittle you
Make you feel like a *******
Watch out for these people
They claim to be your friends
They'll smile at you
And then stab you in the back

I'll trudge this road alone
If that's what it takes
I'll survive this ordeal
If that what it calls for
Everyone can ******* go to hell
If that's the way they're going to be
I'll live my life with a better attitude
Knowing these people are out to
Make a name for themselves
I'll spit in their eyes
Cause I don't need their friendship
They can seriously jump off of a cliff
And I wouldn't ******* care
They make me sick
And they can rot in hell