The time has come,
to find a better way,
don't want to feel undone,
don't want to run away.

It's been a life of beautiful experiences,
a life full of chaos and fears,
so many difficult obstacles,
the days has turned into years.

Finding a different course to take,
it has been a road filled with love,
making memories happen everyday,
this is a life dreamed of.

Dead to the world, nothing matters anymore,
trying to find the keys to unlock these doors;
to my mind, to my heart, to the missing parts-
Of this life that has been misplace,
not knowing what's written on my face,
Is it love that brings me back,
trying hard to get on track,
and find the courage to open up,
And let these wounds heal?

Seeing my reflection is hard to take,
trying to come to terms with myself.
It all falls away, so lonely and afraid-
Conjuring up enough nerve to pray.
What or who am I praying to?
But by this time I just don't want the pain,
the heartache I feel so deep inside,
I want it all to go away, so far away-
feel some peace in my life some day.

It hurts to finally realize,
all that I do does not matter.
     You still want more and more,
you want it all from me;
     My pride!
     My dignity!
Everything I hold dear,
     You don't treasure none of it.
I'd rather see you go,
        then to put up with this nonsense.

Born in a world of guilt and shame
wondering if it is all worth while
Longing for a better way
but it's been hard to smile

Grieving over lost loves
I wasn't ready to commit
It wasn't by no means what I dreamed of
being so uninvolved and worthless

Sacrificed everything I had
my dignity went down the drain
It's no wonder why I felt so bad
cause I treated you with restraint

Drowning my sorrows with the drink
just an excuse to run away
Not hard for me to sink
to the bottom is where I stayed

Good people losing hope in me
praying for my return to health
They exclaimed this wasn't what they wanted to see
slowly killing myself is what I felt

Open up these wounds
and let the power flow in
I want to break free of this soon
and find purpose in life again

Too many lies I've told
just because I wanted to be liked
I wanted your friendship
or I wanted to get into your pants
I wanted that ***** really bad
and then I wanted the next *****
I never knew how to love
nor be respectful of any kind
one after another
it was just one big lie
I was never capable to stay
commitment? **** that!
I always ran away
Just spread those legs
and then get out
I never knew what a
relationship was all about
I told sweet promises
only to pull down those *******
What a ******* ******* I was
What a ******* joke I became

Wouldn't it be nice if I could change you
You could change everything about Me
We can meet in the middle and finally agree on something